When it comes to healing modalities and spiritual practices there was one practice where I had THE most profound spiritual experience, and I haven’t heard anyone talk about – it’s called dhikr. In my 20’s I was very much a seeker. I was trying to understand “why I am here?” and “what is my life purpose?” I was plagued with these existential questions very early on in my life. I was very much an avid reader and somehow, I had come across information on Sufism. If you are not familiar with Sufism, it is basically the esoteric branch of the Islamic faith. I honestly don’t know too much about any of it, other than I found that I resonated with the information that I did find. The main concept that I recall was that you polish the mirror of the heart so that the God within, reflects outward. That basic idea made so much sense to me. It really is about being a better person and working towards that inner recognition of your own divinity. Sufism is very different in that there isn’t a Church. This practice involves having a guru or spiritual teacher called a sheik. And the idea is that when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. And I’ll have to say, if anyone is a Sufi and is reading this and I’m doing a horrible job at explaining it – I apologize. I feel I would never do a good job in trying to explain it – but I’m doing my best.
Anyway, eventually after I finished college and was out in the working world, I ended up meeting a lady who also studied Sufism. She and I would have conversations about it and eventually I ended up buying a few different books based on her recommendations. My focus on spirituality would wax and wane over the years. Some years later, I became focused once more on developing my spiritual side and so had begun doing one of the practices described in one of the books. A practice called dhikr.
Dhikr is basically where with every breath you think ‘God’ (for the Islamic faith – they would say Allah, but God resonated more with me). So instead of entertaining all these random thought in your mind, you just focus on God. The idea is that eventually, you won’t consciously have to ‘think’ of God, but God will just ‘sit in your heart’ and you won’t have to make an effort. I had only been practicing this for a short time – less than a week. So, one day I was driving down the road when suddenly I was overcome with what would be today – the most profound thing I’ve ever experienced. It is very hard to describe, but I would say it was like I saw everything for what it really was – and it was beautiful! I just remember I had this almost like full body orgasm go through my body and then I just experienced this overwhelming feeling of bliss. But it did not last that long, it was almost like I had a glimpse. It is hard to remember how it felt, but it’s almost like this veil dropped for a while and I was able to see the beauty in everything.
I had that experience over 10 years ago, even BEFORE my Kundalini activation. I suspect that when Kundalini is activated, and the crown chakra opens – that is the type of experience someone would have. But apparently, I like to do everything backwards! IF that is what it is supposed to feel like, then wow – what a state to be in! What I find so odd, is that even though I had that the most profound experience using that technique – I actually never engaged in the practice again.
Ultimately, I think the power in that practice is that you are actively engaging with the remembrance of your own beauty, your own inner divinity. To have just a glimpse of what that looks and feels like, was such a gift. As we walk through this life with blinders on, this false reality of what is ‘real’ I think to be able to see the beauty of life and all it’s wonder is something that we all aim to experience – real meaning. I think that is why I like to walk early in the morning and see the stars. It helps me to keep perspective and to see and remember what a vast and mysterious place that we live in.
I’m excited to share that I’ve written a book that is now available on Amazon! One of the most challenging things that I found during the Spiritual Awakening process was that I just needed some basic information. I just felt really frustrated at having to hunt down and try to piece everything together. So, I wrote this book with that in mind – to try and help people going through this process have a basic understanding.
Everyone’s spiritual journey is a little different. For me, mine was triggered largely by Kundalini activation by meeting a Twin Flame. I share my experience and how my journey unfolded after that.
Spiritual Awakening is all about remembering who you are. That process involves a lot of inner work. In my book, I share the various healing modalities that I’ve tried.
I hope that this book provides a source of comfort, understanding and hope for anyone undergoing through this process. I know it can be overwhelming – I’ve definitely been there!
So please feel free to check out my book on Amazon and share with anyone that is going through the spiritual awakening process.
I wanted to dedicate a whole blog post to crystals because of their amazing healing abilities. After I was first introduced to crystals, I, like many of you probably reading this post became hooked! I became so enthralled and enchanted by these stunning beauties that I actually began selling them online. They are absolutely amazing and wonderful tools to assist us on this journey. Before we dive into it, it’s a good idea to learn more about energy and our emotions in order to understand how crystals assist with healing.
Emotions and Energy
First, you must think of it in terms of energy. We are energetic beings, and our energy varies from day to day. Our energy is impacted by a variety of factors, but a large majority of our energy is derived from our emotions. So, before we delve into crystals and how they work, we need to first understand our own energy.
Here is a list of some of the factors that affect our energy.
Our own emotions
Once you reach a certain level of emotional understanding you realize that you and you alone are responsible for your own emotions and your own emotional well-being. These emotions are energy that impact our overall energy that we maintain and emit into the environment around us.
So, let’s look at a couple of examples. 1) You wake up and have a full week of meetings, deadlines, and presentations. You may be feeling stressed out, anxious, edgy, or irritated. 2) Day 1 of a two-week vacation – just you and an open expanse of beachfront property. You are probably feeling excited, relaxed, calm, and joyful. So, you can see how our emotional response to situations affect our emotional state and therefore our energy.
So now let’s talk a little about our home environment. Can you tell a difference in your own emotional state if there’s a lot of clutter versus everything organized and clean?
I know that doesn’t necessarily apply to all people as clutter doesn’t impact some personality types, but there may be other examples for them – such as loud noise – such as television, traffic, etc.
How many of us have walked into a hotel room and just sighed and jumped on the bed to relax? Part of that is because there isn’t a lot of doodads, knick knacks, etc. everywhere impacting the flow of energy.
This is pretty much a no-brainer. Most of us are aware, at some level, of how we feel after we eat. As you become more self-aware, you may realize that you feel really lethargic and spaced out after eating a heavy meal at lunch (I’m looking at myself here). On the other end of the spectrum – you may go to a healthy retreat where the focus is on fresh, local, non-GMO, organic fruits and vegetables and realize just how amazing the food tastes and how your body feels invigorated after eating. And we all know just how great we feel after exercising.
Social media, television shows, magazines, books – all these things that we give our attention to have an impact on us. Do you find yourself depressed after seeing the latest post from your friend on yet another vacation? Observe that seemingly flawless model on the front cover of that magazine and begin to feel deflated? Get anxious after reading that latest murder novel and run and double-check your lock on your door before going to bed?
And then there are other things that we are impacted by for which we have no control and probably lack awareness of its existence. The planetary alignments, moon phases and incoming energies from the universe all impact us in various ways from being anxious, lethargic, to energetic and unable to sleep as I mentioned in my chapter on Being an Empath.
So, what does all of this have to do with crystals? These are all examples of how we, in our daily lives, are energetically challenged day-in and day-out through a variety of causes.
Crystals are one tool that we have available to us to assist us to become more in alignment with our true selves.
So How do Crystals Work?
As we saw above, we are highly variable in our emotions due to a variety of causes. Crystals, on the other hand, emit energy in a steady state. Their energy is constant, so when we are near these crystals, we start to resonate with their energy. Depending on the sensitivity of the individual – this can vary, but in general, within 3 feet is when we will be in their energetic field and begin to resonate with their energy.
So, by being in their energetic field, we are impacted. There are some things that I believe that can impact this as well – which is belief. Belief systems are a whole topic by themselves, but the power of the mind, the law of attraction – those all come into play here. If you strongly believe that crystals don’t do anything – then as you are a creator being – then that will be true for you. We create our own reality with our thoughts and beliefs. I’m reminded of people that have healed themselves through the powerful belief that they can.
And as you would suspect, different crystals emit a different vibration which is why different crystals are chosen to heal different issues. Some crystals are very high vibration – so you would not choose one of those for anxiety – as one example.
And just like the crystals are different, people are also different in their sensitivity to crystal energies. Some people can feel energy easier than others. And as you raise your own vibration, you will most likely will become more sensitive to energy and therefore to crystals and their energy.
In addition to affecting our energy through their resonance, just having a piece in our environment can instill a sense of happiness and wonder as we appreciate their beauty.
When it comes to working with crystals, it is always recommended to work with one at a time. One great idea is to buy a journal and start to document your experiences with each individual crystal.
Just as we noted above, there are many causes to our emotions and to our energetic state. It is a good idea to be more mindful of how your emotions shift and to be able to identify the cause. This will help you to better understand yourself and to help determine the impacts of the crystals versus the causes listed above.
I thought I would share a few examples of experiences that I’ve had with crystals.
Crystal Experience No. 1 – Azeztulite
My first story is about Azeztulite. Now I had not heard about this crystal before I experienced its energy. I was at the Tucson Gem Show walking around one of the show locations and as I walked by one stand with these white Azeztulite crystals – all my arm hairs stood up on my arm as I walked by. I thought that was strange, and I continued walking. As I walked by a second time, the same thing happened, so I decided that was a sign that I needed to take note, so I stopped to look at these crystals. These were white Azeztulite crystals. So, I decided to take some back to sell. When I got home, I took one and held it in my hand. I could feel the energy pulsating through my hand! It was powerful! If you haven’t heard about this crystal – I encourage you to research them and learn more about them. I believe that these crystals are very powerful and very important to use at this time to help us evolve spiritually.
Crystal Experience No. 2 – Large Quartz Crystal Cluster
For this experience, I was at the Denver Gem Show. There was a very large approximately 6-7-foot-tall clear quartz crystal cluster on display. I had seen this particular specimen before, and I decided to go in front of it and take a closer look. As I stood in front of it, I immediately started to cry! The emotion happened immediately – so I know that it was specifically due to standing in front of the crystal. So, to me, again, this goes to show you just how powerful these crystals can be. I believe that they work on our energy bodies, helping us to release stored up emotions. That was what I believe was happening here. I don’t think we realize just how much we have emotions bottled up inside of us that need to be released. If you ever get a chance, stand in front of a huge quartz cluster, and let it all out!!
So now we are coming to my most recent absolutely exciting story! This is one of my favorite newly discovered crystals! I was at the Denver Gem Show, and I had been looking for some personal pieces for myself. I stopped at one booth and began talking to the salesperson. He ended up showing me some of these extremely clear quartz pieces. If you find very clear quartz, most likely it is from Colombia, and that was the case for this particular piece that I was looking at. This particular type of clear quartz is 93% pure quartz! There were several pieces there, but I picked up one that I was drawn to. I placed it in my left hand, and after a few minutes, I could feel the energy pulsating through my hand. It was incredible!
Later after I got home, I decided to meditate with this crystal. As I held it in my hand, I had a few different experiences. One was that I could feel energy moving in my face – it was a very odd sensation – around my cheeks. Then, I felt as if I could feel various beings around me in my room. In fact, I kept on opening my eyes, because I could feel their presence so strongly. Next, I had this very unusual vision of a crystal cluster – that was actually glowing blue from the inside. Now, I thought to myself that is very odd. And I remember telling a friend about that vision I had with this crystal. A few days I found some information indicating that apparently these crystals are not from Earth but are seeded from an ice planet and formed from water as opposed to heat and pressure. They were described as having a blue glow from the ice when they observed them at the source. How bizarre is that? Below is the article:
So, this crystal was telling me about itself – which I found pretty cool! I have had a few more amazing experiences with this crystal. I believe it is very powerful and am excited to see what all it can do!
Those are just a few personal stories that I thought I’d share to give you some insight as to what you might expect working with crystals. It does take a while and a lot of self-awareness to be able to discern how the crystals are working with you – but you will get there!
How Do Crystals Fit into Overall Healing?
There are many different healing modalities that I’ve discussed in previous blog posts. Crystals have their place as strong healing tools. But it is also important to understand that there are many healing modalities and having a strong understanding of your inner world should serve as the base. I use crystals every day. But I also use other healing modalities as well. I think crystals have become so popular over the past few years because they are serving to heal us, to connect us with nature, to others, and to elevate our consciousness so that we can evolve and grow spiritually. If you haven’t yet explored the world of crystals, I encourage you to journey into this incredible world of wonder, intrigue, and magic!
In this post, I’ll discuss what I consider to be deeper healing modalities. I’ve included ones that I have personally tried and my experiences with them.
I have been going to acupuncture off and on for a few years. It was interesting because one day someone asked me what was wrong with me that I needed acupuncture. And while it is true, acupuncturists will ask you want you want to work on, what issues that you are experiencing, to me, it’s more about getting your energy flowing to PREVENT any long-term illness. It’s a completely different mindset than traditional western medicine, where the focus is less on preventing and more on fixing what is broken. I have actually been amazed at how good I feel after acupuncture. What surprised me was how much emotionally healing I gained as well. The last two times I started back doing acupuncture, after not having gone in a while, I had a significant emotional response. It’s my understanding that we do hold emotions in our body, certain organs – like the liver, and acupuncture has the effect of getting that energy moving again – and helping us release what has been stored up inside. I am no expert by any means, I am just sharing my own personal experience and perception of my acupuncture treatments. I have completed acupuncture sessions and felt so calm and relaxed afterwards, that I had to just sit in the entry area for a while until I felt comfortable enough to drive. It has been the most relaxing I have ever felt in my life. Not all sessions had that affect, but I can attest to the treatments doing something positive. I consider this a deep healing, but by no means something that can’t be done with some frequency. I think that it is profound in its healing ability is why I consider it to be ‘deep.’ If you have an aversion to needles like I do, you seriously don’t need to worry. The needles are tiny. They also usually put on relaxing music during the sessions.
I have only done reiki a couple of times, but I did really enjoy it and had some profound experiences during and after the sessions. Since I have only gone to one person a couple of times, I don’t have too much to compare to on this one on how things might normally go. But some people have more ‘skills’ than others, and the practitioner that I went to had more psychic abilities than most people. So, after the session, she gently told me that I had two negative entities attached to me that she sent ‘to the light.’ She said that she doesn’t tell everyone when she sees them, but that she knew that I could handle that information. This session was not too long after my Kundalini had activated, and so my ‘light’ was brighter and negative entities can see your light – is how she explained it to me. What was funny about it – is that I saw these little mischievous things prior to this session – but didn’t know what they were, or that they were attached to me. I talk about this in my blog post on “Negative Entities.”
I could feel her increasing the energy on my chakras (energy centers) and feel the energy swirling. It was a crazy experience. I also would see, in my mind’s eye, various colors when she went over the different chakras. She made a point to focus on my third eye on one session, and later that evening, I had this weird experience where the whole room flashed up white with light. I know that means that the third eye is opening. I had had this same experience previously once my Kundalini activated, but it is still startling to experience.
I think Reiki is a great practice to get the energy centers going. I have felt absolutely amazing afterwards, but you do need to take some down time after sessions. It’s important to take it easy physically for a couple of days. So, I normally don’t do it too often, because I don’t really want to take the down time. I do feel it is a great way to get your energy moving and it is definitely a deeper healing.
From my perspective, plant medicines are great tools for people wanting to heal deeper traumas. I would highly recommend this to people who are willing to face their inner demons. Of course, this is a topic that has become more mainstream lately and I’m glad for that. This type of practice has been going on for a long time by many cultures all over the world.
If you choose to participate in this type of healing, I’d recommend that you find what resonates with you. Always follow your intuition.
I have listened to various people share their experiences, and I think people’s experience will vary depending on a few factors. 1) How much trauma that they have 2) How open they are to letting go 3) The particular type of plant medicine and how it is prepared.
I have tried a few different plant medicines – one I felt happy and at peace, the other made me so sick I threw up. The latter one is not that common, in fact, I had never head of this one before. But the experience was actually quite horrible, and I will never do that again. I did not do too much research, as it lasted for the entire day – it was miserable. At one point, I did feel the amazing experience of love, but it was short-lived, followed by misery for the rest of the time. It was like I was constantly trying to stay in control and stay in my body. I did not know what would happen if I let go. Others in the group had similar experiences as I did – we were all miserable. As far as healing goes on the latter one, I am sure that I released some things, but I can’t consciously say what I did release.
I still believe in the power of plant medicines, but I think that it depends on the type and how it is made. I have heard amazing stories from others about how they released a lot during these sessions, so I do believe in their abilities. There are other plant medicines that I am interested in trying at some point.
When we first start to wake up spiritually, I think we all get a bit freaked out. We start going down different rabbit holes and basically just get a bit terrified. Part of my experience was freaking out thinking I had implants. In case you are not familiar with implants – implants are thought to be either energetic or physical apparatus that are put into us preventing us from fully expressing ourselves in some way. They can also be tracking devices. I’ve heard various things over the years, so I will just share what I’ve heard and experienced. I believe that if our energy gets lowered, then we might allow these implants to be placed in our etheric fields. I am not exactly sure how, but these could be from extraterrestrial beings. I believe that they can also be physical – but I don’t personally have any experience with that.
So, for some reason, I decided to do a long-distance implant removal session. The person scheduled it for be completed at a certain time. They stated that I should be at home, relaxed, but I had to go to work during that time. Later that day I had to take one of my animals to the vet’s office. It was going to be a while, so I decided to just sit in my car. I literally fell asleep in my car – I could not stay awake. I NEVER fall asleep while traveling, not in a car, not in an airplane, so I knew that this sleeping bout was most likely due to the energetic healing session.
Later that evening, I was lying in bed, and I felt like Frankenstein on the table feeling this surge of electricity going through my body where I couldn’t move, and it freaked me out. It seemed like it lasted a few minutes, but I’m sure it was just a few seconds that seemed like forever. It really freaked me out.
After I went to sleep, that night, I had this kind of weird out of body experience or lucid dream? It was kind of both. I remember lying on this table and I saw this man with a white beard. I saw these glass tablets hanging in mid-air that were turned backwards, so that I couldn’t see what was playing, even though it was see through. Then, I came back into my body, and I remember as soon as I did, I felt this pressure in between my eyes – kind of in the middle of my forehead. When I woke up – I had a headache.
When I received the report from the long-distance healer, they had said that they removed something in my 3rd eye and put some sort of rainbow device there or something. I was confused thinking I don’t remember this being part of the package. They also removed various other etheric implants located in different areas.
I brought this up to a psychic once and they said that some implants are meant to be there. I believe that they are from our spirit team. Maybe they’ve been placed there for a reason. So, I am not sure if my spirit guides removed something that should have been there, or if they removed what they put in me, but either way, I think that whatever the healer did, was not right and my spirit team fixed it.
I know this sounds out there, and I feel like I’m telling half a story, because I really do not know the full truth, but I wanted to share this with you in case you think decide to get an implant removal session. I would not recommend it unless you are pretty far down the spiritual path and know what you are doing.
I am listing sacred sites here in healing modalities because I believe that when we visit sacred sites that we activate our DNA. This propels us forward on our spiritual journey in a significant way. What I have found interesting over the years, is that I think that these trips are ‘planned’ without us even knowing the reason why or connecting the dots as to how it is important. A few times I have ended up at locations during spring or summer solstices – and I don’t think those are coincidences. I share more about my personal experiences in my video on Atlantis/Bimini. (just google Tropica Exotica on You Tube)
I think that we each have our own path and will be drawn to certain places. I have traveled to the following places: Sedona, Bimini (Atlantis), Hot Springs Arkansas, Lake Louise, Macchu Pichu, Lake Titicaca (and several other sites in Peru), Puma Punka (Bolivia).
This type of healing modality is not very common. But I would recommend if you feel called to it. I would make sure that it is actually a real tachyon chamber. I discuss this in more detail in this post.
This is an area that I think is extremely beneficial and kind have profound effects. I think that this really should probably be done with regularity, but I am including on the ‘deep’ section because I do believe it is very powerful. Even though I believe it is very powerful, I have not dedicated that much time to it, however when I have practiced it, it has helped release a lot of stored up emotional pain.
Others that practice it report higher energy, increased clarity, and better connection their higher selves. I think it probably opens the 3rd eye in a big way.
Try guided breathwork DVDs, shows, YouTube or try Insight Timer or find a teacher that can help you with your practice. I think that there is a lot to learn with this practice, just like yoga. We can all probably benefit from having someone guide us through this practice.
I have experienced a crystal bed once. Crystal beds are where you lie down on a bed, similar to a massage table. They have these lights with crystals that are directed over each chakra – so each crystal matches each chakra. I’ll be completely honest here, my experience with this was not great, not because of the crystal bed, but because of the practitioner. I honestly did not resonate with this individual but had gone there with a friend.
So, I’ll just say – I think that there is benefit to these and I would recommend them. However, my experience was clouded with being in a situation where I felt uncomfortable and so was not able to fully experience this type of healing.
Again, sometimes I just find myself in these situations where these healing modalities appear and I just say, ‘why not.’ I had never heard of this type of healing modality, so didn’t know what it did or had any clue about what I was doing.
Anyway, the theory is that you lay on a bed in between two coils – some near the top of your head and the others close to your feet. You lie on the bed and they place various crystals on your body. The energy is supposed to cycle through you I believe, and then cut off when it has completed ‘charging’ you I guess for lack of better word.
To be honest, I was kind of nervous because I didn’t know what this thing was doing to me, but I tried it anyway. Supposedly, the system was supposed to cut off after about 20 minutes. It must have been 45 minutes when the practitioner came back and was surprised to see that the coils were still ‘on’. I felt very light-headed and probably very ungrounded. I probably should not have driven home until I had time to get grounded. I do remember missing an exit and getting turned around at one point.
I believe that the purpose overall, is to increase and recharge your energy and it definitely did do that. What was funny about it was later, I was sitting at my kitchen table and I was making the lights flicker. I brought in a black tourmaline and a hematite to the table and then the light stopped flickering. Interesting stuff for sure.
I think healing through sound is also a very deep healing practice. I have less experience in this arena, but I have experienced someone drumming over my body and it felt amazing. One of my current practices is to listen to 528 Hz – almost daily. I think it helps me get centered internally.
Sound healing is one area that I plan to explore more in the future, as I think there is so much to it.
After reading this blog post, it will be become pretty obvious that I am open to most forms of healing. I think it’s a combination of personality type, and the desire to be the best that I can be. But I’d advise you to follow your own internal guidance system on what healing modality you are called to try.
I have so much to say on this topic that I will have to break this into several posts. If there is one message that I want everyone to come away from after reading this, is that anyone choosing to look at themselves and do inner work should be applauded, because it is definitely not an easy process. It takes a lot of courage to face our inner demons and look at unhealed parts of ourselves and be willing to accept that we can use some improvement.
I plan to talk about some what I consider to be “Core” healing modalities. These are foundational practices that I believe are beneficial and serve as a starting point for personal growth and development.
By Traditional therapy – I am referring to seeing a counselor – either a Licensed Clinical Social Worker, or a Clinical Psychologist. I am sure they are called by different classifications in other countries outside of the US, but basically a practice where someone has trained in school. Traditional therapy is important because it serves as a way for an outside person to be able to look at us objectively and help us to understand our family dynamics and the filters on how we perceive things. Therapy helps us to break these decades long family patterns in our family lines. And the additional benefit, is that once we start to react differently, then others around us learn as well. Not only are we helping ourselves, but we are also helping those around us.
Most of us are not taught basic emotional awareness, so we just follow along with whatever happens in our families. Going to a therapist will help us better understand how and why we are reacting. One common thing that you might hear about is being ‘triggered.’ This is when someone says or does something to you that makes you upset. I used to suffer from this quite a bit. Now I know enough about myself to where I really don’t give a crap. LOL! But it is very freeing. When you realize that you and only you are the one that controls your emotional reaction to someone, why would you let that other person let you get upset? However, most of us have not spent the time and done the work to understand WHY we are getting upset. We just know that we are mad. Once you start to understand the WHY, then you can react differently and those WHYs can be any of 100’s of reasons.
When it comes to healing, traditional therapy is hands down the most profound healing treatment that you can do for yourself. It is not easy, but once you start to go and are able to express how you feel and have someone help you feel better – why wouldn’t you? At the end of the day, we all just want to be happy and be at peace internally. Going to therapy should be the first step on the spiritual path of self-awareness.
Exercise is another practice that has so many overall benefits. I remember running and getting a ‘high’ from it and thinking, “oh my gosh, no one really talks about the emotional bliss.” Of course, everyone has heard of the ‘runners high’. But I don’t think most people truly appreciate the actual emotional benefits to exercise. I almost felt like it was this secret that no one really talked about. I think the hard thing about exercise is overcoming the inertia to start. In this sedentary lifestyle where many of us are at computers all day, I think a lot of us have become really lazy about actually getting up to do things. And yes, I am referring to myself here as well. The more we sit, the harder it is to actually get up and take action. At the very least, I really recommend walking to start. I walk my dog several times a week about 1 ½ miles. I walk very early in the morning – at 4:00 AM. To me, it is so emotionally balancing. My mind is free, I am just putting one foot in front of the other. I can see the stars which helps me put anything going on in my life into perspective. Then, once I get home, I already have a sense of accomplishment. Now I know a lot of people are not early risers and might be more physically impaired to walk and/or walk that far. But pick something that you can do and try to make it more of a habit. The main thing is to get moving. And once you start to gain a positive momentum, you will be even more motivated to continue because you will start to feel better. And don’t beat yourself up if you can’t get into a regular habit. I think a lot of times, we set these high expectations and then when life happens and takes us of course, we start to feel bad and give up. But just remember, it’s a journey, not a sprint, so just keep on going!
This is so hard for a lot of people. We are hard pressed to sit still and quiet our minds. As an action-oriented person, this practice is also difficult for me. So, I try to meditate for even just a few minutes. I think the earlier in the day the better before our monkey minds start taking off. For me, I find myself thinking during meditation and I have to make myself snap out of it. Guided meditations might be better for some people where you are listening to someone to help you focus your mind, rather than on your To Do list for the day. I have read that when you meditate, you actually impact your neighbors! The energy creates a type of coherence that impacts those near you. How awesome is that! Just think if we all meditated how calm we would all be!
Meditation helps us to calm our minds creating an inner balance. I think the more effort that we put forth in taking care of our mental and emotional states, the easier it is for us to go through our day and react to any situation that we might encounter in a better state of mind.
One App that I recommend is “Insight Timer”. There are guided meditations, calming music, music to help you sleep – all sorts of helpful tracks depending on what you are looking for. I listen to one 528Hz in the morning while I journal. My animals also feel the peace and become very relaxed while listening to it.
I consider visualization a core practice that I don’t think too many people practice. When we visualize, we get to choose what we want to see. Most of us are going to pick something that we want to experience in our lives. Visualizing that desired image will create a positive feeling. I have heard when we create with our mind through our imagination, that it is created in the 4th dimension – it exists. Then it’s just a matter of time before it is created physically into the 3rd dimension. It is a practice that many professional athletes and sports professionals utilize. It is one of the tenets of Law of Attraction. The body can’t tell the difference if something is from imagination or if it is really happening, so it will also respond accordingly.I feel that visualization is important because when you think about how we go about our day and how we might focus on any number of different things, I think when you specifically make a point to focus on something that you desire, that puts your frame of mind in a positive state of expectation.
When it comes to healing modalities, journaling is the one where I spend most of my time. It helps me sort out what I am feeling. I think oftentimes we get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life and we don’t really focus on what is going on with us internally. We might be short-tempered or be angry and not even know why we are acting a certain way. Journaling to me helps me keep track of what is going on inside. It helps me process what I am feeling. Journaling helps me reflect on the day, what experiences I have had, what I was feeling, and how to make sense of everything. Writing helps me to stay centered because I have spent time on where I am emotionally. If I feel I am degrading emotionally, I write down what is going on, I brainstorm on how I can feel better. I reflect on the good, the bad and the ugly. To me, it’s me checking in on myself. It’s an integral part of my own emotional health practice.
This goes hand in hand with journaling. While people would most likely not consider this a healing modality, I want to talk about it because during the spiritual awakening process, dreams become a focal point. I will have to write an article on this because there are so much to dreams. In this post, I will just touch on the basics.
If you are not paying attention to your dreams you are missing out on a key tool to better understand yourself. I think it is kind of funny how people don’t realize how much their dreams tell about what is going on inside. And I think it’s funny when people tell me about their dreams. I spend a lot of time on dream analysis. Your dreams give you clues about what is subconscious – and trying to bring the information forth to your conscious level.
Since my spiritual awakening process began, I have become better at understanding my dreams. I believe that dreams can tell us about what is going on internally.
Here’s a summary of what dreams can reveal, from my perspective:
Things that you are trying to process emotionally
Since I’m talking about healing modalities, I’ll focus on subconscious fears and things that you are trying to process emotionally. The other 3, I’ll save for another blog post. Over the years, I’ve been better at understanding what dreams are trying to help me process things emotionally vs the other types. It takes time, but if you spend enough time on the process, it will become clearer.
Your dreams hold tremendous value in understanding your inner world. The key to dream interpretation is to remember how you FELT. Did you experience fear? Dread? Anxiety? Sadness? By paying attention, dreams will help you understand things that you might not be consciously aware of. To me, it’s an integral, core part of healing. Some dreams may be reinforcing something that you are already aware of, and others might be bringing things to you that you have tried to suppress or ignore.
Once you identify the key emotion, then try to identify if there is anything going on in your life that has that same emotion. Any animal or insect that shows up is your subconscious mind’s way of bringing a symbol to represent your feelings. It is important to focus on how you feel about that particular image, but you can also look up general interpretations There are also some dreams where you may be aware, but not fully aware of just how much emotion that you feel about a certain topic. If you wake up from a horrible dream with an intense emotion – pay attention. These are intense emotions that you are feeling that need to be addressed as they might be causing you a lot of inner turmoil that you may not have acknowledged.
I am by no means an expert, but I believe yoga is one of the core healing modalities that helps combine exercise and meditation. During yoga, my mind is quiet. I am focused on my body and how my body is responding to the movements. I feel the tightness, where I am holding onto stress in my body. Yoga helps center us, get us back in touch with our physical bodies and just feels good! Since a lot of us spend a lot of time at the computer, we really need to stretch. Yoga helps us deal with stiffness. Some people may prefer a class, some might prefer watching a yoga class in their own homes. Try whatever works for you. If yoga is too strenuous, just try stretching to start.
When it comes to healing, there are several different types of modalities. These might not all fit into the traditional definition of healing, but things that I think are the core foundation for overall mental, emotional, and physical health.
In the next post, I’ll go a little deeper into some practices that really go to that next level and are more intense healing practices.
During the spiritual awakening process, there can be a lot of different things that happen, and so it can be overwhelming.
For me, I was confused because I knew I was experiencing things because of the connection I had with one person – and didn’t know the cause (eventually I came to understand that my Kundalini had been activated) and as a result of my Kundalini being activated, my 3rd eye opened which created a bunch of different experiences which I cover in this article:
One of the most traumatic experiences that I had as a result of my 3rd eye opening, was interacting with negative entities.
People have different interpretations on the meaning of these interactions, and to be honest, I get irritated at a lot of people being dismissive and/or blaming the person for these experiences. I literally had PTSD for months after one of these interactions. I couldn’t even talk about it without getting upset. Now, having grown both spiritually and emotionally, I understand these experiences and I do not operate out of fear anymore, but that took me awhile to get there!!
When it comes to perspectives, again, I’ll reiterate that each person is entitled to have their own perspective. Perspectives are based on your own personal experience and understanding, and these can change over time. As I’ve mentioned before, people frequently seek out psychics because these experiences are not something that an every day person will have, so seeking out answers from friends, family members or even therapists is not always helpful. I scheduled psychic readings with 2 different psychics, for different reasons, and during my sessions, I asked them both about my experiences to get their feedback.
I’ll share what they told me after I talk about the specific interactions that I had. But before I go into that, let’s just talk about what exactly ‘negative entities’ are.
To understand what they are, you need to step back and look at things on just an energetic level. We live in a 3D world. There are other dimensions around us, but the beings in these dimensions are vibrating at a higher level and so we may not necessarily experience them. Psychics who are born with certain capabilities and with a particular soul journey have access to these dimensions and so they can experience things that a lot of us would not normally be able to. Most of us came to have a 3D experience and it would be difficult for most of us to go through the day and live this earthly life if we had spirits all around us talking to us day in and day out (and especially at night).
So, when your vibration is raised and your 3rd eye is opened, then you begin to have access to beings in these other realms, or dimensions.
So, what are the beings in these dimensions? Negative entities, angels, ascended masters, ghosts, and other ‘space junk’ as I call it. From my perspective, humans are all souls, and once we die, we go back into other dimensions and then just continue having another experience. There are all sorts of possibilities and to be honest, I don’t focus so much on that, I try to focus on my present now moment.
What are negative entities?
Negative entities are just energy that has been produced that is ‘negative’ in nature. These entities are not connected to God/Source energy and therefore, they cannot survive on their own. They need others energy to sustain themselves. They are generated from negative thoughts from humans. I’m sure there are other causes/sources for their existence, but that is all I know. I don’t spend too much time researching this, I’m just basing it on what I’ve learned through my teachers. This is one of the reasons why you want to make sure that you speak positive words, because words of a hateful, negative nature do create thought forms that affect the environment. One example I can share is when I was looking at homes to buy, I could feel the arguments from the couple that were selling the house. You could feel the anger there.
It is my personal experience that there are varying degrees of complexity of these beings. I’ll cover those in more detail below.
Negative entity experience No. 1
This was one of the first experiences I had after my Kundalini was activated. I remember going to sleep, the light in my bedroom was light enough that I could see, it wasn’t completely dark. Anyway, I saw this black blob, about less than 1 foot long, move across my body – like my chest/stomach area. Then, as I was turning over, I saw it dart down the side of the bed. To be honest, it startled me, but the overall vibe I got from this one, was that it was mischievous. It’s like it was being playful and sneaky. Almost like it knew I saw it and it was messing with me. I remember getting up to use the restroom in the middle of the night, and I saw this shadow hanging out in the bathroom in the corner. But as soon as I looked at it, it would disappear. What was funny about it, was that I had a small black rabbit at the time, and she darted into the bathroom and scared me!
I had started going to acupuncture around this same time. My acupuncturist had recommended that I see an energy healer friend of hers that performed reiki healing sessions. So, I scheduled an appointment and had the reiki session. Afterwards, the lady told me that I had two negative entities attached to me, but that she had asked them to leave. She told me she doesn’t always tell everyone, but she could tell I could handle that information. She told me that once Kundalini is activated – that you kind of ‘light up’ and draw in these negative entities, they are drawn to your light!
Negative Entity Experience No. 2
This is the one that caused me to have PTSD. One of the affects of a spiritual awakening is disrupted sleep. At the time, I started sleeping in the upstairs guest bedroom because I was always tossing and turning, trying to sleep. During this experience, I was in this odd state, which I now know is called the hypnagogic state. For me, I am always aware of my surroundings, that I am in my bed, but you are still asleep. It’s an odd state to be in. Anyway, I was in the hypnagogic state and I remember hearing this noise that sounded like claws on the wooden floor that leads to my guest bedroom. I remember thinking to myself, ‘that is odd, I know that I locked the dog downstairs, did he get past the doggie gate?’ and then that is when I saw this negative entity swirling back and forth near the ceiling above me! I was completely freaked out. I could not move. This ‘thing’ was just going back and forth, back, and forth above me. It looked like just two large black blobs connected, like one for the body and one for the head, but for some reason, I remember getting a ‘batlike’ energy from it. I’m not sure why. I remember being utterly terrified because I couldn’t move. It was like it had me pinned down or something? I am not sure. I remember trying to think of different beings to call on to help me, I remember calling Jesus, Archangel Michael and other beings and nothing would help. Finally, I remember eventually ‘waking up’ and coming to, and I was breathing so heavy, it was like I had just run 5 miles I got up and went downstairs and got in my own bed. I don’t know why I didn’t wake up my husband at the time, to tell him about it, but instead I just went to sleep.
Later, I asked a psychic about that experience and she told me that I operate in the hypnagogic state a lot and that when you are in that state, you are in their realm, you can see them, they can see you, but you can’t do anything. I can’t remember exactly what she said, but basically, it’s like a close call, because you have stepped into their realm, but you don’t have control of the situation. She explained to me that the next time I get into that situation, I just have to say “I invoke the I AM in me and I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ and I ask you to leave my space immediately.” And that they must leave. I learned through personal experience and I received guidance from someone who was more familiar with these types of experiences to navigate these experiences.
Negative Entity Experience No.3
One of the things that I’ve learned over time, is that you can pick up negative entities from other people and from places. So, if suddenly you have an experience with a negative entity, one of the things you may want to ask yourself, is did I just visit any place recently or did I interact with anyone? And that is what happened in this next experience. I had visited a relative and had an experience there, that I didn’t think too much about, but of course, when I look back, I see it now. One of the ways that negative entities can attach to you, is when your auric field is reduced. Alcohol is one way that your aura can be diminished and when that happens, negative entities can attach to you. I had a few drinks one night and I remember as I was getting in bed, I felt like something entered the room. I remember being a bit freaked out. I sense energy – that is my strongest ‘clair’ – clairsentience. I remember trying to half-ass get rid of whatever was in the room, by asking it to leave, but I obviously did not do a good job. I ended up keeping the light on while sleeping because I could sense it.
I traveled back home and later that evening I remember being in the hypnagogic state – where you are aware of your surroundings. I remember, I was lying on my side, and I remember feeling like something had grabbed me from behind and was growling, like a dog, I remember it felt like they were trying to pull me off of the bed and I quickly said my “I invoke the I AM in me and I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ and I ask you to leave my space immediately.” And it worked! After that experience, I felt so empowered! One of the problems that I see when people have experiences with other beings is that they act like a victim rather than step into their own power by trying to understand the experience – the ‘how’s’ and ‘whys’ and seek out people to help teach them, rather than live in fear.
Once I woke up, I immediately began to try to understand why I had that experience. I did some research and came across this video by Magenta Pixie, again – one of my favorite teachers, where she talks about asking if you have been somewhere recently as one of the reasons why you have may picked up a negative entity.
This one takes the cake as far as how bad it was, but, again, as all experiences are, I finally got the message. I had been visiting with a person, and again, alcohol was involved. Although I still drink alcohol to this day, I understand exactly how alcohol can contribute to reducing our auric field and allow entities to attach to us.
I remember I went to sleep, and again, in the hypnagogic state, where I am aware that I am in my bed, but also still asleep and so can’t ‘move’. I had the same type of being, which was growling, and grabbing me from behind and this one was spinning me around in my bed. This type is like a dog or wolf is the vibe I get from these. I was trying to say my “I invoke…” but even though I was trying to communicate – through my mind and not my mouth necessarily, it was somehow preventing me from getting my words/intentions out. So, I could not get rid of this one. DANG!! I thought I had it figured out – lol! Anyway, eventually it got off me and I woke up. When I woke up, I was angry at myself for allowing this to happen. When it comes to spiritual growth, one of the things that you learn is about energetic boundaries. After this, I spent more time working with energy clearing and energy protection practices – which I do this to this day. I explain these practices in this video:
I’ve had various other experiences, but those are the main ones that I wanted to share. I do want to advise you if you stay in a hotel room, and are sensitive to energy, you may want to bring some sage spray or do energy clearing practices or bring some black tourmaline with you in order to clear the space.
So, what did I learn? After speaking with various psychics – Pamela Aaralyn and Magenta Pixie, I’ve come to have a better understanding of why I personally have experienced these things.
One, is that as a healer, you must be able to work in other realms in order to assist others with their own shadows. You have to walk both worlds – it’s very shaman like. And according to my readings, I have worked as a medicine woman, healer, in many past lives.
When you first start to open up your psychic abilities, you may start to experience things on the lower realms, and then as you eventually raise your vibrations, then you can experience beings of a higher vibration.
The spiritual awakening process can be scary, but eventually over time and with help I’ve learned to step into my own power and stand in my own sovereignty.
This is something I’ve wanted to write about for awhile, but I needed some time to get centered again. I met not one, but TWO more Twin Flames recently since my initial Twin Flame connection back in 2014.
If you’ve been following this blog for awhile, you may have read my other articles on Twin Flames.
There is no right or wrong, they are just perspectives based on your own personal experience. I find it interesting that some people get mad if you don’t share their same perspective. And when it comes to Twin Flames – this seems to be a very hot topic.
I had never even heard of Twin Flames when I met mine. The thing about this type of connection, is that it is SOOOO different than any other connection that you have had, that you don’t have a choice but to take notice. I know everyone wants to have a Twin Flame connection and are so wanting their connection to be a Twin Flame connection, but BELIEVE ME, this one is very different. You have absolutely no control over it.
Although everyone’s experience will be different, from what I understand, it will trigger a Kundalini activation. And for me, that is exactly what happened when I looked into my Twin Flame’s eye. After my Kundalini was activated, it triggered a series of experiences and it was difficult to understand exactly what was happening to me. All I knew is that I was connected to this person somehow – energetically and psychically and it was very scary, because I didn’t understand it. He kept on showing up in my dreams and telling me things, showing me things. And then, of course all of the other stuff that can happen when your Kundalini is activated – 3rd eye activation, which opens you up to other dimensions which can become a roller coaster. When you have a somewhat normal life, then your sleep is completely disrupted, you feel like you are living a 2nd life in the dreamtime and you are afraid to go to sleep at night because of what you will see, hear and experience, so it can be a very challenging time. I am glad that part of my awakening is over.
So, back to today’s blog post topic – karmic twin flames. So, after my first twin flame left my life, I had several messages from the dreamtime on his journey and mine. I knew he had this path to take and I had mine, but he was supportive in the dreamtime, so I knew that the connection would always be there, even if it was not actually manifested in the physical.
I went through a divorce and he got married – lol! Seems like I got the short end of the stick here.
But in reality, the meeting of Twin Flames triggers an awakening process in both of them, and so they end up moving apart from each other so that each person can work on themselves. The connection is very intense and staying together after the initial connection is probably rare.
I know that he and I have had several lifetimes together. And that is where the concept of Karmic Twin Flames comes into play.
Although we are the same energy frequency, you can actually share your same energy frequency with multiple people because we are fractals of the same energy.
During the spiritual awakening process, it can be very confusing and many of us seek out psychics to help us through some of these experiences that are hard to comprehend. Because these experiences are not really something a typical therapist could assist with. (Can you imagine me going to a therapist saying “I heard a disembodied voice saying to me “F you” as I was going to sleep??”)
So after I met my Twin Flame, I did readings with 2 very well known psychics. One of them, before I even said anything to her, actually said, “You have the Twin Flame energy around you.”
In fact, this particular psychic did a video shortly after my reading with them, which I felt was about the exact experience I had – losing your twin flame.
So, because I am familiar with the type of Twin Flame energy connection, I recently had 2 very similar experiences – one in April and one in August.
I want to share those experiences and what I’ve learned from them.
I actually met both of them through an online dating App – called Bumble. IT IS POSSIBLE TO MEET A TWINFLAME ONLINE – lol!
Twin Flame Connection # 2
I saw this guy’s picture – and I was immediately drawn to him. You could just tell he had his own inner happiness, he wasn’t seeking happiness outwards. He was smiling with his whole being. It was an energy about him that I was drawn to immediately.
And of course, he didn’t live in my town, in fact, he didn’t even live in my state. So, we must have matched when he was nearby.
So, we started texting, and then we started having phone conversations. I think it was Day 3 of connecting with him, that I thought – this is different…
So, I want to list out some ways that I was able to determine this was a Twin Flame connection:
Drawn to them – immediately
Can’t stop looking at their photo – it feels like a mystery that you can’t understand
Dream time experiences
Astral sex (if you are lucky – lol!)
Bubble type love feeling being in their presence
Warm, honey type feeling through touch
Extreme heart-centered emotions that are very strong, very emotional
From my perspective, the Twin Flame connections will differ somewhat depending on where you are on the journey and what experience that you need to have. So, there isn’t a list of items that must happen, but there are a few tell-tale signs that it is a Twin Flame connection:
It feels SUPERNATURAL – because of the dreamtime connection, the psychic connection (that can manifest in various forms) and the bliss-like feeling being with them.
I’ll explain in detail what I experienced. After we talked for awhile, we decided to meet in the middle of where we both lived. We actually even got in an argument before we met, and I went anyway and he told me he wasn’t going.(I was going to go birding at the place that we were going to meet). So, there was some drama even before we met. For some reason, we kept on talking and because of his home circumstances, he couldn’t leave as easily as I could. So, I took off, and literally drove 3 hours directly to his house. I know that sounds absurd in these days, but I saw 11:11 on the clock before I left (a twin flame sign) and also, I had this inner knowing. Now, I do not recommend other people do this. I have intuition, so I feel like I can trust my inner knowing.
I felt a little nervous before arriving at his house, but I just walked up the stairs to his home. He opened the door and he was actually so much cuter in person (score) lol. Anyway, after the initial awkward meeting, we sat down and chatted on the couch for hours. His energy was so amazing. It was stormy outside and we just sat and talked – it was just so perfect.
Anyway, just thinking about this, I am getting emotional. It felt so good to be in his presence.
I’ll talk about the specific experiences I had in more detail.
He had a son, and I had 3 dreams of him, his son and me. Those dreams were very curious, there is always a lot of meaning in dreams.
I also had an experience of astral sex – before we even met. That was the most mind-blowing experience I’ve ever had in my life. The best way I can explain it is it with your whole body, not just your nether regions. It makes 3D sex pretty damn boring TBH.
I had heard that the reason that this happens is because it is to prepare the body so that you don’t blow each other up, when you do actually (if you do) have sex. Lol.
I also felt, and I felt this with my first TF, these energetic rushes, it feels like the shape of a human being, coming from behind you (or the side) – but it’s this rush of energy. Sometimes it feels like they are hugging you, sometimes it feels like it goes through you – raising your energy.
Bubble type love feelings
This is the most amazing thing. When you are with them, and your energies merge somewhat, you feel like your whole energetic field is in a higher state. It’s hard to describe, but it feels like heaven. At one point, he even said “I feel like I’m on cloud nine right now.” He felt it too…
Warm, honey, type feeling during touching
This was I think a part of that bubble type energetic feeling, except for this is in regards to actual touch – it feels so warm, and again…heavenly. Like I could just live on that experience alone.
Very strong emotions
When you are just getting to know someone, it really isn’t normal to have strong emotional feelings with someone. When it comes to Twin Flame connections and especially the Karmic variety – the strong emotions that are felt are due to past life connections, where that energy of the past is just stirred up so it feels stronger. I looked at a photo of him recently and I got emotional. Feelings don’t just die overnight.
In the end, he was not ready for the connection. Just like most Twin Flame connections, there are usually significant differences in some shape or form. For us, it was an age difference – which is quite common – 20 years in our case. Also, the physical distance. But in reality, for a Twin Flame connection to last, both parties have to be where they need to be spiritually.
I did a psychic reading a few months after that connection ended. I think I needed confirmation from someone else, and I wanted to know more about it.
They confirmed that they were a Twin Flame, but they also shared something that was very helpful to me.
They likened the twin flame connection to a hand where you are all the same energy, but the fingers represent the fractals of the same energy. You have multiple people that are twin flames – mostly karmic, but then there is the dharmic twin flame – which you will reach once you go through the karmic connections. They explained it to me that there were anywhere from 3-5 karmic twin flames.
Twin Flame connections have a purpose. It isn’t to say that people that have a Twin Flame connection are special in any way, it’s just that they have a particular mission to fulfill. And the Twin Flames need to work together on the same path towards this purpose. That was how it was explained to me.
Onto the next karmic connection… I’m on a roll!!
Twin Flame Connection # 3
Oh….this was soooo gooood…. So, again, was on the dating app Bumble, saw someone and was like “OMG” totally in love, right away. It’s the energy. This guy was just, well besides the fact that he was absolutely great looking, his smile was just beaming of good energy. Again, it was this feeling of self-fulfilled energy, not energy from any external source or reason.
Again, this person was NOT IN TOWN, in fact, they lived even further, 8 hours away!! But, they were in town, and we just happened to both be attracted to each other. He wanted to meet right away, so even though we didn’t even hardly exchange any texts, we agreed to meet for a glass of wine.
The entire conversation just flowed, it was so easy, totally enjoyed my time with him. Because of the the pandemic, restaurants shut down early, so after the place closed, we hung out on the sidewalk and were both just in state of bliss outside for about an hour.
As I was driving home, I literally was just in this bubble state of love. I felt like, I didn’t even care if we never met again after that. I was just so thrilled to experience those feelings and that type of connection and to know that what I was feeling was possible.
When I got home, he was sending me texts about how great it was meeting me, how much he enjoyed spending time together.
Besides the amazing bliss-like feelings I had being with him, I had other Twin Flame signs as well including dreams, seeing 11:11 as soon as I got back to my car, and when I saw his text the next day.
With him, I also experienced seeing these black and white swirls (yin and yang energy) after we met. It’s a psychic vision I see when I close my eyes, usually at night. I haven’t heard many other people talk about this – but I experienced this after I met my first twin flame.
Anyway, as the psychic I follow explained, the connections seem to be getting deeper as I meet more of them. So, with the first one, there was no physical connection at all. With the 2nd one, there was, so I was able to feel that bliss-like state, with the last one, the energy was even MORE intense.
I literally fell in love with him during that first date – I have absolutely no doubt about that. Sadly, he started pushing me away and I believe it had a lot to do with the age difference. This is going to sound really crazy, but he was actually even younger than the other two. There was a 25-year age difference between us. I didn’t even think about that until he said that, but it’s true.
Being on the spiritual path, you start view things more from an energetic resonance perspective and to view things from a soul level, not necessarily a checklist that a partner must meet. And at the end of the day, we are souls, souls who have spent many lifetimes together, and that recognition is there.
Additionally, prior belief systems and constraints that society places on us, just don’t fit anymore.
I continue along this journey for now, getting glimpses of the Twin Flame energy and how amazing these connections can be, but still continue my solo path for now. I am grateful for the experiences – what they are teaching me about myself and showing me just how mysterious this life is as well, and ultimately – just how deep and intense our soul connections with others can be.
During the spiritual awakening process, a large part of the process is about becoming more self-aware and this desire can lead one to different experiences.
One of the areas that you may be led to – is trying different healing modalities. I’ve tried a lot of different things over the years – traditional therapy, EFT, acupuncture, reiki, crystal bed therapy and even tesla coils – to name just a few. These different modalities are all helpful and serve different purposes in my opinion.
A few months back, I came across some posts by someone that I’d heard of, but really didn’t follow too closely – about this type of healing modality called “Tachyon Chambers.” It sounded interesting to me, so I looked it up online and found the information intriguing, so I found a location that wasn’t too far from me to try and book a session. They told me that they were not accepting appointments at that time, but they would keep me on a mailing list for when it was open.
The explanation of Tachyon energy and the chambers are that tachyons are energy – sub-atomic particles that are the highest frequency that can be combined with matter and that they can’t reach the earth because of the veil. This chamber allows you to receive the energy – which is supposed to increase energy, help start the healing process, assist in emotional, physical and mental well-being and serve as protection from harmful EMF. The effects are supposed to be permanent.
Recently, they emailed me to let me know that they had appointments open and had sessions available the first week of November. So, I signed up. One thing that I’ve learned about through the spiritual awakening process, is that your higher self, guides and your own intuition will help direct you to the experiences and information that are needed for your own growth. So, I go with the flow now if I feel drawn to something. I honestly don’t think too much about it. I invited a friend to see if she wanted to go with me – and she did.
We met a little before the session to catch up, then headed over the location of the chamber, which was in a person’s house. Again, I don’t think too much about these things – I just roll with it, but always be smart and listen to your intuition.
We were to text them once we arrived and then they would come to the side of the house to meet us, so that we wouldn’t disturb those in the chamber before us. So, we brought our stuff with us – blanket, pillow, and some bottles of water. As we made our way around to the back, I was just awestruck at the landscaping in the back yard. I am a plant person, so it was probably more impactful to me than some others, but it was truly a work of art – it was NOT typical landscaping. The entire backyard was taken up by beds that contained dry desert type plants – cacti, etc. I don’t even have the words to describe it, other than magical. There was a path, that wound around the back of the yard, with an elevated flower bed. Once you walked up the steps, you were on a patio that overlooked the garden, and the rolling hills that just happened to be where the sun was currently setting. It was just so peaceful, inspiring, and beautiful. As I looked closer at the details in the flower beds – there were large crystals!! There was one area that had these huge amethyst pieces and then the whole expanse of this same bed had these clear crystals that went across in the middle. Hidden in different places and on the patio were labradorite, kambaba jasper, aquamarine and some quartz pieces. It was just unbelievable. I would have loved to just sit out there and enjoy the peaceful tranquility of the garden.
So I’m just trying to set the scene on just how I knew as soon as I walked in the backyard – that this was where I was supposed to be, what I was supposed to experience.
As we walked in the house, they took us over to where the chamber was. It was in a small front room by the front of the house. When they say “chamber” what I believe that they are really referring to, is that it is contained within a room, there isn’t a box or anything else that it sounds like. Instead, there is a mattress on the floor with 4 poles, a crystal at the top, and some other crystals in the corners and sacred geometry was on the floor.
It’s only for one person at a time, and you need to bring your own blanket/towel and pillow. I had to scoot down underneath the poles so that I wouldn’t knock it out of alignment.
Once I laid down, they put this thing called a resonator on me – which looked like a brass dual megaphone with a crystal in the middle. They then put andara crystals on either side and then placed cintamani crystals on my 3rd eye, throat chakra and my heart chakra.
I was a little anxious – not knowing what to expect, but I tried to just relax and let the experience unfold. I have no idea timewise, but after a few minutes it seems, I felt this warm feeling on the underneath of my body, that was touching the mattress. At this point, I was a little frustrated thinking, ‘is this all that I’m going to feel?’
So, again – no idea, timewise, but at some point, where the resonator was located – near the center of my body – I began to feel this odd sensation, like my body seemed to be expanding where this resonator was – rounded – like it was growing. It was a very curious feeling.
Then, I started to experience this really odd sensation of losing my sense of physical form – and that started to freak me out. I feel like I could tell I was still laying on the mattress, but the rest of my body – just felt like it had dissolved or something. I just was left with my own internal awareness. I tried to not freak out and tried to just breathe in and out calmly without knocking over the resonator.
Things started to get more interesting…I then began to feel this pressure on my 3rd eye, where the cintamani stone was – almost like someone’s thumb was pressing down, then I started to feel pressure on the sides of my temples. Again, during this – I have no idea the meaning, what is supposed to be happening, is it good, or bad…I am just trying to stay calm at this point.
And finally, the grand finale of the experience, where the resonator was, I actually started to feel like it was very hot, like burning, and I opened up my eye to just check to make sure I wasn’t on fire or anything – lol.
At this point, I was like, okay, this is enough, I have no idea what is happening, but feeling this intense heat is freaking me out. Even though they told me I could yell out at them for their attention, I didn’t want to be a weinie and just tried to telepathically tell them I had had enough and was ready to get out.
I think that worked, and they came back. I have no idea how long I was in there, it was supposed to be 30 min, but it felt longer than that. As they came in, my friend was standing there and I didn’t want to influence her experience, so I just said “that was intense”, as they removed the resonator and crystals off of me and I scooted out.
As I got up, I could tell I was very shaky, jittery, and felt very weird. They could tell that I was ungrounded and told me to sit outside and get grounded in the garden. So, I sat out there on the patio, in front of the labradorite table in the chair and relaxed a bit while the setting sun warmed my body. It felt so good to be out there.
After a while I got more settled internally and didn’t feel jittery anymore, so I went back inside where they did another treatment called a light mandala system. As I shared my experience with them, they wondered if I was clearing energy for the collective – which is why I felt the burning energy.
During my own journey, one of the things that is very notable is that I have a lot of experiences, but I really don’t know the meaning or message and so a lot of times I seek out others to help me with the interpretation. This is one area that I would like to improve upon.
As for the other experiences I had in the chamber, I really don’t know the meaning. I’m just kind of rolling with it, knowing that in time, I will piece everything together.
One thing that I do want to clarify – is that I am extremely sensitive to energy, so my experience was probably way more intense than other people’s. But I’ve also done a lot of things to raise my vibration over the past few years.
I asked my friend what they experienced, and she said that she could feel the energy – go across her forehead and then felt emotional. So, it definitely was helping her heal some emotional wounds.
I felt a bit disconnected afterwards. Talking in a coherent manner was challenging. I had an hour drive home – and that was also a bit challenging. I just felt a little out of it and still somewhat ungrounded. Normally I carry my black tourmaline with me to help with grounding– but of course I left it at home – ugh!
But I could definitely tell that I had more internal energy. My overall energy just felt stronger.
I felt somewhat energized, wasn’t ready to go to sleep that night, but slept pretty well. I woke up energized, but over the next few days, I think that the energy started to take effect and I had bouts of sleeplessness and fatigue while my body processed the energy. One notable thing was that my dog, that sleeps with me, seemed to be getting up and jumping up on one side of the bed and then the other through the night.
I wonder if my shift in energy affected him. One thing that I learned about after my Kundalini activation – is that when you have a large increase in energy, that it can bother you if you are sleeping with someone. For some reason, that increase in energy bothers you to the point where you can’t sleep in the same bed with them. I found that out years later, but thought it was interesting because I would move onto the couch, then the guest bed – I just played musical sleeping locations after my Kundalini was activated. So, I wondered if that was the case here – that my dog was being bothered by my energy or maybe I was bothered by his energy and waking up?
I was also exhausted for the next few days – very groggy. After a few days, I started to feel more balanced, but it definitely had an impact on me. I think that I am still getting adjusted to it. I have a feeling that I won’t be sleeping as much – which is good, because I can always use more time.
I will do a blog in a few months to discuss how this healing modality has impacted me longer term.
If you feel drawn to experience any healing modality, follow your intuition. You will be guided to what you need along your journey.
Tips for Empaths – video only – you can just check out my YouTube Channel “Tropica Exotica”
In my previous article “Being an Empath”, I discussed one of the experiences that you may have is picking up on other people’s energy and their emotions – and not realizing it. This actually still freaks me out a little bit to be honest. So, I wanted to share a few of my personal experiences so that you can hopefully learn from my experiences. This was probably happening all my life up to this point, to some degree, however, I think because of my spiritual awakening, the abilities to pick up on other people’s energy increased. And I think as we continue to grow spiritually that we will naturally be more sensitive to energy. So, it’s important to learn about this concept.
Empath Story No.1
When it comes to picking up on ONE particular individual’s energy, I have to base it on my own personal experience. For me, it has been: 1) someone that I am close to, 2) someone who is also psychic (has psychic abilities) 3) possibly someone is not emotionally healthy – lol! And honestly, I kind of feel uncomfortable saying that, but that is what this first story is about. So, here’s what I remember. This was several years ago at a work environment at a very stressful time at the company. I remember standing up in my dining room feeling this very frantic, vulnerable, shaky, “I can’t do this anymore” feeling – which is totally not like me at all. At some point, I remember talking to my partner at the time who talked me through what I was feeling. I don’t remember the details of the conversation exactly, but basically, we discussed how there was one individual where I was working who had a reputation for impacting others – and not in a good way. People were fearful of them, were glad when they were not around – just in general someone who was not well liked. They explained how sometimes emotionally unhealthy people can impact others, and people like me, who are sensitive, may end up taking on these emotions and not be aware of it. They also explained how once the person who has been taking on these emotions, realizes it and releases it, that that “ENERGY” will move onto the next person. So as I began to process this, and actually get mad about it – both mad at that person and mad at myself for being a sucker and picking up on this energy, then I did release this and I could tell I felt better ONCE I realized that the emotions that I was feeling were not my own. Apparently, this is a well- known phenomenon in the mental health world.
Well, lo and behold, that is what happened. So, once I realized this and released these frantic emotions that I was experiencing, apparently another co-worker took on this energy (of course another empath). This person ended up in the hospital actually. They became so distraught that they were throwing up and not able to take their necessary medication and ended up in the hospital. When they came back to work, I explained what I thought might have happened and they were taken aback, but open to this explanation.
There are a few things that stood out to me the most from this experience. The main one is that the emotions that I had been feeling were actually very foreign to me. And that was one of the key learning experiences to me to help me identify if what I am feeling is truly MY OWN emotions or someone else’s. The best way to describe it would be frantic, shaky and very, very vulnerable. The other thing is I was frankly shocked at this whole concept that it actually CAN happen and that I allowed this to happen and could have kept on going through it and made decisions based on emotions that weren’t even mine! This was truly an eye-opening experience and I was thankful that I had a partner who could help me understand this.
Empath Story No. 2
This one deals with a Twin Flame connection that served as a spiritual catalyst for me several years ago. If you want to read more about that, check out these articles below:
The Twin Flame connection is a unique connection that involves a lot of telepathic and psychic communication. And at the time, I had never heard of the concept, so I was completely thrown off by the connection. At the time of this particular event, I had not spoken to him in over 6 months. So, one month, all of sudden I had a really hard time sleeping. I was experiencing a lot of anxiety that was spilling over into my sleep. In fact, my sleep was so disturbed that I had to take off several workdays that month. Additionally, I had purchased different types of OTC sleeping pills and experimenting with them and dosages to see which ones would work (not wake up groggy).Finally, at the end of this month, I received an email from my Twin Flame letting me know that they had been let go from their job (where I also worked). I was completely thrown off. That was their last day and I didn’t even get to say good-bye. However, ‘coincidentally’ a few days later, I went down to get a coffee and ran into them. They told me that they had been told at the BEGINNING of that month that they were being let go at the end of the month. They told me about the stress that they had been going through getting ready to move and get things lined out for their future.
Sometime afterwards, I began to think that maybe my sleep-related issues were related to them and picking up their stress and anxiety from losing their job? A few months later, I ended up doing a psychic reading with someone that I’ve since had multiple readings with and completely trust their abilities. A lot of times, newly awakened people, seek out psychics because they have so many experiences that they don’t understand and need guidance on. So, I would save up a list of questions to ask once I scheduled a reading. I asked them if I had been picking up on their energy and that was the reason why I was not sleeping at all that month? They told me that ‘yes’ we were actually playing ‘empath ping pong’ is how they described it and said that it is not fun. They said that the TF would get stressed out and basically I would pick up on their stressful energy and then I was stressed out because of my own struggles with my personal relationship and send that energy over to my TF and they would pick it up. I found that very interesting to say the least! I was actually very glad to have found an explanation as to why I was SOOOO exhausted because my sleep was so out of whack. It was truly a frustrating time.
Empath Story No. 3
This story has to do with a friend who has psychic abilities. I was driving into work one day, very early – like 6 AM and I had just been thinking about how everything was going okay. I was in a good state of mind, when suddenly, I just had this feeling like “I can’t do this anymore” and I started to have anxiety and dread going into work. I was literally about to turn around and drive back home. Then, the thought came to me, ‘wait a minute, I JUST started to have this frantic feeling, when I was fine just 5 minutes ago.’ And also, I realized that I had that same sinking feeling as I had in the first story – this frantic type feeling that was not ME. So, as I continued to drive, I started to do energy clearing work and just imagined white light coming down into my body and I believe I asked whatever energy that is not mine to leave my energetic space immediately. I started to feel better immediately. As I continued to drive down the road, I started to think about where that energy was coming from? What person’s energy was I picking up on? And then I thought, I wonder if it was one friend in particular. I know that we were both more on the psychic side, so wondered if maybe somehow, I was just picking up on her energy because she and I were probably just both more tuned in.
Later in the day, I contacted this person and asked them if they had, by chance, had some sort of stressful, anxiety causing situation to happen to them that morning? They said yes, and they explained to me what happened. I am not going to share the story that they shared with me, because it was personal, but it was definitely a situation that would have caused stress and anxiety. And I told them that I had picked up on their energy at that same time.
I’m sharing these experiences because if you are new to understanding that you are an empath, you may learn from my stories. Basically, if you are sensitive to energy, it is possible that you may have emotions that are not yours. Sometimes you can determine WHO you are picking up this energy from, but that won’t always be the case. Sometimes you have to do some detective work. And other times, I believe that I pick up on collective energy, that is not necessarily connected to one person. I’ll share one example on that. The other day, a hurricane was in the Gulf of Mexico – a category 4, which is a very strong hurricane with wind speeds of 140 mph. The meteorologists had said that it was going into Louisiana, even though it looked like it was headed for Texas. I started to have this foreboding feeling and I wasn’t for sure what was causing it. So, I grabbed one of my large pieces of black tourmaline and held it in my hand. If you don’t know, black tourmaline is a very well-known powerful crystal that assists in removing and dispelling negative energy. I sat and meditated and began to ask myself questions 1) is this energy I’m picking up from others fears? 2) is this feeling because I KNOW that the meteorologists are wrong, and it’s headed this way? As I sat with these questions, I began to lose the emotion of the foreboding feeling and began to feel a sense of calm again. So, the lesson for me was if I start to have a ‘run-away’ emotion, that is not within my normal range of emotion and matches what I am experiencing, then I start to question that maybe this energy is not mine.
For me, in particular, it seems that this ‘panicky, frantic’ feeling is not normal for me, so if I start to feel that way, then I realize that maybe this emotion is not mine.
The other thing that I have to talk about is the concept of boundaries. Boundaries, to me, are a few things and in this instance, it’s about maintaining your own energetic boundary. So, if you are picking up on other people’s emotions, it is also because you are ‘open’ emotionally and perhaps creating stronger energetic boundaries would be in order. I’m not an expert, by any means, on this topic, but as a result of these experiences, I have definitely begun implementing practices such as the ones that I mentioned in the article “Tips for Empaths” and that has helped me tremendously.
I sometimes wonder just how many empaths out there are experiencing anxiety and stress because they are simply picking up on other people’s energy and just don’t realize it?
This is not knowledge that we are born with, so we have to learn. And each of us has our own path to follow. For me, I know that these 3 instances taught me a LOT and as my most recent experience just happened, I’ve learned to quickly identify and address emotional distress that I’m experiencing that is unnecessary.
Most people have heard of the term “Empath” and what it means. I think learning that I was an Empath has probably been one of the most important things that I’ve learned about myself on my spiritual journey. While most people consider being an Empath a ‘gift’, a lot of us would probably consider it a curse. In simple terms, an Empath is someone who is sensitive to energy. It’s referred to as “clairsentience’ and is considered a psychic ability.
However, everyone has this ability, it’s just a matter of knowing what it is and becoming more internally aware.
I don’t think that I am that different from other Empaths in that we all have suffered from bouts of fatigue. I only learned that I was an Empath about 5 years ago. But before that, I had dealt with fatigue and did not understand why. I went numerous times to the doctor complaining that I knew something was wrong with me and demanded that they run tests for everything (which they never did) and in the end, the normal blood work panels would turn out normal and they would just tell me that I was suffering from stress.
Now when I’m tired, I look at multiple factors to try and find the cause. Is it diet, stress, lifestyle or is it from being energetically drained due to being an Empath?
Over the past few years I have paid more attention to my overall state of being and have made a conscious effort to understand the cause. To illustrate this point, when it comes to diet, there are a few things I’ve noticed. When quinoa became popular I tried cooking it. I noticed I would get a headache and immediately have to take a nap. Eventually I connected the dots and read up on it. If you do not properly wash the quinoa first, the saponins on it can have this effect.
I’ve also noticed some types of wheat bread – most likely due to gluten, make me super tired. I can’t even keep my eyes open. Recently, I tried a plant-based ‘sausage’ because I used to love kielbasa, but trying to be healthy, had tried an alternative. In the end, I had a severe reaction including extreme fatigue. The main ingredient was – you guessed it – gluten! And of course, everyone knows how after eating any heavy meal – you will feel fatigue. So those are just a few examples of being more conscious and aware of your energy and by paying close attention to your outer circumstances you can learn to decipher possible sources of fatigue.
Fatigue can also be due to stress and lifestyle choices. When trying to understand my overall energy, I always look to what is going on with my life. Am I under a lot of personal stress due to life circumstances? Have I been taking care of myself? Am I eating properly, getting enough sleep, making time for self-care?
Sensitive to Energy
When it comes to being sensitive to other people’s energy, it has been quite a learning experience to say the least! I’ll delve into specific examples in the next article. But in this article, I am just going to talk about what I’ve come to understand about energy exchanges. For my own personal perspective, I would bucket being sensitive to energy into 2 main categories:
2) External influences
Now, when it comes to being sensitive to other people’s energy – I would break these experiences down even further into:
Multiple people (crowds)
I think most people are aware that when we interact with different people that we can either come away from that experience feeling upbeat and uplifted, or feel totally drained. However, I don’t know if people who experience the latter understand the dynamic of what’s going on. And frankly, it took me a long time to finally pay attention and start to be more conscious of my interactions so that they are on par rather than draining.
For one-on-one situations, these can be with partners, friends, co-workers, family or even strangers. In personal relationships, and I can speak from personal experience here, you may not even realize that you are the one with high energy, and your other half is relying on you to lift them up. It may not be something that you are even consciously aware of. Once I had my Kundalini activation in 2014, I started to become an observer in my relationship and I realized that I was giving away my energy to the point that I was always feeling drained. I also began to observe other couples and would see an equal exchange and began to become more aware of this energy dynamic between individuals.
As Empaths, we are naturally good listeners and energy suckers seem to just hone in on us. They blather and blather away while you actively listen (because you are also nice and polite). But actively listening takes a LOT of energy. And so that person leaves and you come away from the interaction feeling drained and used. Here’s my perspective on this situation now. Once you become aware that they don’t actually care about you – because they aren’t actually asking you any questions, or even listening to what you are saying because they just keep on talking over you, then enough is enough. I have honestly felt that some of these people might as well just talk to a wall because they are not interested in engaging with you. So once you start to have that realization, your attitude changes and it’s time to set up some boundaries. Since I’ve become more aware of this whole energy dynamic, once I start to pick up on this when engaging with someone, I get out of the situation.
At the end of the day, it’s about honoring yourself enough to know that your time and energy are precious and you don’t need it wasted on someone who doesn’t care.
Crowds are Empaths worst nightmare. And in fact, there are a lot of memes out there about empaths and Christmas time because those are crazy crowds and it can be just outright hell with so many people out and about.
When there are a lot of people giving off their own energy, and you are energy sensitive, you can start to see how this would be a problem. Just the sheer volume of energy is what makes this scenario difficult.
Airports are the worst! At airports I do my best to find a restaurant with a booth to isolate myself if I can. In the Lima Peru airport last year, I thought I was about to have an anxiety attack because we were all so close together going through one long line and it was all I could do to keep it together.
One day I volunteered at a food bank with a bunch of people and I was in bed the entire next day. Sometimes it is just too much.
I do my best to avoid crowds. I never go to the mall unless I absolutely have to, and then I get in and get out. I actually do my grocery shopping at 6 AM as soon as the store opens to avoid crowds there as well. As I’m transitioning to a crystal aura (as I wrote in another blog post) my energy sensitivity has increased even more, so I really try to minimize my exposure to large groups of people when I can.
So this one is really odd and I will save the details for another post because the stories are quite interesting. But one thing that I’ve become aware of, is to discern when I have feelings that are mine vs. someone else’s energy. What I’ve learned is to ask myself – is there anything going on in my life that justifies what I’m feeling right now? If the answer is ‘no’ then I immediately work on releasing that energy from my field. I have learned that there is a type of energy that I have experienced that is very ‘panicky’ is the best way to describe it. But I’ll save more of this for a later post.
As the Earth moves through the photon belt, the Earth is being bombarded with energy. If you are an Empath – surprise – you are the lucky one that is feeling this the most. Although this energy is impacting everyone, empaths will be more sensitive to it. The amount of energy is reflected through the Schumann Resonance. The normal Earth vibration is 7.83 Hz. Over the last few years, we’ve had peaks up to 120 Hz! There are periods called “white-outs” where the energy is so high over a period of time. This energy will either make you super tired or super energetic. What I’ve noticed also is I will feel the energy before it actually registers on the chart.
Full moons/new moons
This is something that I’ve become more aware of over the last year or so. I definitely do not sleep well at all during these times. From what I understand, these are portals that open up, so there is an energetic pull on the Earth during the full moon. It’s over my head, but it definitely impacts me.
This is something that I’ve always been aware of. We used to refer to it as ‘picking up vibes.’ I have always picked up on energy in various locations. I remember one time visiting Nuevo Laredo, Mexico with a friend and I felt this melancholy energy emanating from this town. It was very odd, as I had never experienced that before. And of course, going to sacred sites – such as Tulum, I’ve felt this unexplainable sense of sacredness, mysterious, profound energy. A few years ago, I visited a location called “Peace Valley” in Arkansas – and it was indeed extremely peaceful! So as an Empath, you will notice your ability to pick up energy from people as well as locations.
Learning that you are an Empath is one thing, navigating it is another. As I mentioned earlier, it was the single most important thing that I learned about myself on my journey as it has such a huge impact to my overall well-being. Now that I am aware of this, I actively work to manage my interactions with others and do my best to make sure I establish boundaries and maintain a healthy emotional and physical state of being.
While many of us knew 2020 was going to be a big year, I know I was not personally expecting things to go down like this. Interestingly, normally I’m all about planning trips and fun things to do throughout the year, but intuitively – I was not even thinking about planning anything for the first half of the year. I wasn’t even entertaining the idea of travel.
So, what exactly is going on? We find ourselves in a Twilight Zone of sorts. I wake up thinking – oh yeah – everything is still on pause, everything is still unknown, uncertain …unprecedented times of chaos it seems. Financial meltdowns, self-quarantine, fear of not having enough toilet paper – just had to throw that one in there😊
Life is on hold, with no real clear understanding of what the future will hold. Will we be in this mess for months? For years? How did things turn so quickly? Have we taken everything for granted? Of course, we have. Most of us have not lived through extreme times. Yes, there have been financial crises, yes there have been outbreaks. But something that is sweeping across the globe so widespread, so unseen? Shutting down entire industries like travel, entertainment, even restaurants and stores? No, I don’t think we’ve ever seen anything like this.
So, what gives? I will offer my perspective on what is unraveling. I don’t know what is going on ‘behind the scenes’ as some people talk about. I don’t have any insight or any intuition on that. But here is what I do know. If something this BIG is happening, where it is impacting not just one ‘nation’ or just a few ‘nations’ and instead is impacting the entire world as we know it – then this is HUGE. We must understand that for those of us that have been awake, we know the TRUTH. We know the big picture. We have known that the Earth and its inhabitants have been under a control that’s nefarious.
We know that people are suffering unnecessarily. We know the systems have been set up for the majority of humans to struggle and to be poisoned through various means and then have big pharma charge us an arm and a leg to be ‘healed.’ We know about the GMOs, glyphosate, chemtrails, fluoride, aspartame, high fructose corn syrup, EMFs.
We are aware of the desire to keep down our own inner awareness through various means – to do anything to keep us distracted from our own self-discovery of ourselves as infinite Creators. Through big sports, video games, porn. We try to escape our drudgery through alcohol, gambling, drugs, shopping. This is all on purpose. We are modern slaves, while the elite run the show. Half of the world’s wealth is owned by only 200-300 people. Let that sink in…
But it gets much worse than this. My soul’s purpose is not to focus on this extreme dark side that exists, but I would be remiss if I were to not acknowledge its existence. The dark forces on Earth have no concern for life, other than their own. And that is the basis for understanding that human sacrifice, sex rings and pedophilia is a huge part of their world. We, as human beings with a conscience – can’t even begin to understand it. I, as an extremely sensitive individual cannot spend much time on this aspect, but I am of the belief that it is happening and has been happening.
So how does this tie into what is happening now?
This battle between light and dark has been going on for some time. Many people who are still asleep, may not be aware, and still be living under the illusion of a false ‘reality.’
The Ascension process, or our spiritual evolution, is being triggered by energetic waves incoming from the Galactic Central Sun. These waves of light, consciousness, are reaching the Earth and its inhabitants. This energy is bringing light to dark areas. This darkness can no longer exist in this Light Energy.
The “Lightworkers”, you – reading this, have agreed to come to Earth at this time to assist with this Spiritual Evolution. You have heard the “Call” to help and answered this call as a Benevolent soul.
We have reached the apex of this battle between dark and light. It may be a rude awakening for many. If the ENTIRE WORLD has been thrown into chaos it is because it is not the ‘end of times’ it is just the beginning.
Old structures that do not serve must come down. Systems built on lies and greed must be righted. It is time for each and everyone of us to be able to live a life that is life affirming, not controlled and manipulated as it has been in the past.
So, what now? Have you ever had a life experience that humbled you? Made you appreciate what you had in your life? Made you open to your family, partner, friends or co-workers? Well now is that time.
This is the opportunity that we have been waiting for to open, to connect on a REAL level. No more mundane conversations about the weather or sports. It’s time to get real to ask “How are you doing? How are you REALLY doing? To hug – a real, genuine hug, (as appropriate)… an act of connectedness….
This is bigger than those layoffs that cost you your way of life, this is bigger than that hurricane that destroyed your home. This is about human connection. It’s about recognition of each and everyone of us as souls. When we look at each other in the eyes – it won’t be about fear because we realize that we have each other, because we don’t have a choice now – but to look each other in the eyes to connect. When everything is in chaos, we realize just how precious everything is. We aren’t distracted by our daily schedule or list of things to do. We stop. We give thanks. We reach out. We connect.
My desire for you is that you read this and take away a message of hope. I know it may seem as if there is so much unknown at this time. And while I acknowledge that, I also have faith in humanity that we can use this as an opportunity to finally really see each other and use the power of togetherness to continue our paths – in one of Love, Truth and Unity.
I want to talk about this concept because I feel that this might soon be happening to a lot of people. And of course, this is my perspective, other people will have their own unique experience.
My awakening began in earnest after my Kundalini activation in Nov. 2014. You can read more about that in my previous articles – Kundalini Activation through meeting Twin Flame and Kundalini Activation – Snake Dreams, Twin Flame Dreams.
The phase called “Dark Night of the Soul” will be different for everyone, but for me the Kundalini activation began a process where the energy began clearing blocks in my chakras – which takes time. For some, the activation can lead to enlightenment right away.
So as this energy does it’s thing – a lot of soul searching activity goes on. For me, this led to a lot of researching online and through reading books.
A lot of people somehow quite mysteriously, all seem to come across the work of Dolores Cannon. In case you don’t know who she is, she was a hypnotherapist who worked with clients who eventually began telling her some very interesting things that she documented through books. I had read one of her books “The Three Waves of Volunteers” and I had begun reading another one of her books called “The Convoluted Universe” and it was probably for the me, the straw that broke the camel’s back and thus my Dark Night of the Soul began in about March/April 2016.
It’s hard to remember the pain, and even harder to describe the type of pain that I was in.
I actually talked to someone else who had a Kundalini activation and they experienced the same – except for they had more of an enlightening experience after they experienced the “Dark Night of the Soul.”
I feel like it was my ego trying to die, but it wouldn’t, or couldn’t figure out how to make it happen. My friend said that they just surrendered, but I apparently did not know how to do that.
To give context to what is happening internally, I think I had been reading and digesting these various perspectives on “reality” and it all came to a head while reading Dolores’ book.
Some of these concepts included the perspective that “I am God, I create my own reality”. So this understanding to me, really affected my psyche. And I’m not a mental health professional in any way, so I may be totally off base here, but that is my perspective.
I don’t think we appreciate how much our psyche is impacted by our core beliefs. I always had this perspective that there was this “God” out there that I could pray to when I was down, that “had my back.” And now, it was like, well what now? Do I pray to myself? It’s just me??
Not only that, but I had also learned about the Earth’s true history. I had never really understood the concept of Jesus (I’ll do another post on that another time) and I thought the whole Adam and Eve story was weird, but I think I had always believed in humans, the normal story.
But since my awakening began, I had learned about the Annunaki, the Ancient Builder Race, our connection to other galactic races as “Starseeds” incarnating here on Earth, the Reptilians running the show as the Elite. I had learned about the beings from Lyra, Pleiades, Sirius and the Extra Terrestrial beings living here on Earth. So my whole identify and my place in the Universe and how I fit in had been turned upside down.
These two main concepts – I am God and I am not who I thought I was and our place in the Universe is vastly different than what I thought – I believe these were what finally caused me to have my Dark Night of the Soul.
I felt like I had nothing to stand on, my foundational beliefs had been demolished.
I remember I literally felt like I was falling while I was laying on my bed. It was this out of control like feeling and it was terrifying. I remember it felt like a series of mini nervous breakdowns – like each one was getting worse.
I felt this internal struggle going on – like my ego was trying to die, but I wouldn’t let it die. I just remember it was an internal pain like I had never known before.
But, my ego did not die – and I did not achieve ‘enlightenment’ which is what happens to many people after this process. If you are in the Spiritual Community, then you are probably very well aware of the people that have reached a certain level of enlightenment. I consider them my teachers. However, I believe that they are not always the best people to assist others because they are so far advanced – they almost become unrelatable. And I think that is partly why I kept myself at a certain level – in order to help those that are just in the process of waking up.
I believe 2020 is going to be one of those years where people will be forced to wake up – and probably rather abruptly.
These past years of these energetic waves that have been washing over the Earth – they are packets of Consciousness that are bringing darkness to light. We have to deal with our inner demons, this energy is not letting up. The time is up for those that have refused to look within themselves and address their traumas. Many of us have had years to process and work on ourselves and achieve a certain state of inner balance.
My hope for those that are still asleep is that they are able to navigate what is coming with as much assistance and guidance from those that are leading the way through this Great Awakening. Wayshowers – I believe our time is here.
Once you start to awaken spiritually – you will start to change on a lot of levels. One of the most profound changes for me was that I just felt ‘different’ internally. On the outside, I looked the same, and I can see how no one would know or not understand how I had changed, but I knew I had.
Part of this process comes with this longing to connect with others that are going through what you are going through. You start to feel isolated, alone and unable to relate to your partner, friends, family and co-workers. It can cause a real sense of distress.
Some people may even call this a “lonely path.” But it doesn’t have to be!
I believe as Starseeds, we agreed to come to Earth to assist during the Ascension. Part of that agreement involved having pre-planned “Blueprints” to meet up with our fellow Starseeds, and specifically our “Soul Tribe.”
My Kundalini activation happened in Nov. 2014. I discuss that in these articles
During that period of great searching, I came across a website called In5D.com
I was so excited and thrilled to finally come across some information on topics that I was interested in. I devoured the articles and searched the database for anything I could read.
One day, I came across an article on “High Vibe” food. The article totally made sense and one of the things that stood out to me the most that I loved, was this communication that everyone’s needs are different. The author was not trying to shove her beliefs onto everyone.
I immediately looked up the author – Bridgett Nielson and found that she had a retreat in the next 2 months in Sedona, Arizona! It was preparing high vibe food, meditation and visiting a few sites. I thought that sounded perfect! I was excited about it – but at the same time scared!
What happened next is to me what I find so intriguing. And on this journey, you will find things such as this, and others that are both intriguing and mysterious.
As I was sitting at the computer pondering if I should sign up for this retreat or not, I literally felt as if my arm was being guided (pushed really) to sign up for the class. I believe that this was one of my Spirit Guides encouraging me to attend.
The next day, I woke up in shock. Did I really sign up for that class? What was I thinking? I was absolutely terrified!
I am an introvert and I absolutely HATE group pow wows – it is so not me!
After a while, I got over it and actually made the trip a few months later.
It was interesting because I think the group of us at the retreat all knew something was up. It felt different. I think we all knew it was special – but I personally didn’t know exactly why. Later I realized it was because I had met my Soul Tribe – people that were going to be instrumental to me on this journey and that we had known each other before. I believe that Bridgett brings soul families together through her retreats.
Being alone on this journey beforehand and now meeting up with all of these people on their own unique journey and all of them having very high energy – it was exciting and overwhelming at the same time.
Several of the people at this retreat had met during other retreats. I was ‘new’ to the group, as well as a few others.
During the retreat we learned a lot, connected, shared out experiences, books and all sorts of helpful information.
But one of the most profound experiences for me – was the triggering of memories!
After this retreat, I had many, many dreams, several of which I have no idea where or when these ‘past life’ experiences happened or the meaning, but meeting everyone activated these memories.
I remember meeting one couple, who I instantly adored, and later having a dream together with them where it was clearly Atlantis!
One of the benefits of meeting our Soul Tribe, is to receive activations from being in each other’s presence.
After the retreat was over, we stayed connected through Facebook.
The following year, a couple of the ladies from this retreat planned a trip to swim with the dolphins in Bimini (Atlantis).
If you are interested, you can watch my video on that experience here:
Again, this put me out of my comfort zone, as I am terrified of the ocean, but I thought this must be something that I’m supposed to go to, so I agreed to attend.
Again – this trip was probably the most ‘activating’ I have experienced. And I think part of these activations happen because other activations have happened previously – both by being in high vibe locations as well as meeting other people.
The following year, one of the guys in our group had read about how important it was to travel to Hot Springs, Arkansas – because of the vast expanse of crystals underneath the Hot Springs area had been activated. So, a group of us traveled there to meet up, connect, and dig for quartz crystals!
What was interesting about this trip, was the very first night I was there I had this really weird ‘explosion’ type of experience – like over my head. It’s hard to explain. I felt like I definitely had some sort of activation while being there.
If you’ve ever had a Kundalini activation, sometimes there is this blinding white light and an associated ‘explosion’ type of experience that I believe is your 3rd eye activating. This experience was very similar to that.
And just last year, 2019, several of us traveled together for the most amazing experience in Peru and Bolivia for 2 weeks visiting all of the sacred sites including Machu Picchu, Puma Punka and Tiahuanaco as a few examples.
And when we are not traveling, we stay connected through WhatsApp (texting app) sharing our experiences, getting feedback and support from each other during the year.
On this journey, I think that there are a few different scenarios that we can experience as it relates to connecting with others on our spiritual journey. We might have friends and family that listen to us – but don’t really understand, because they aren’t at the same place. That kind of interaction is okay, but it can still feel very isolating. When you find your Soul Tribe, you finally feel like you can breathe a sense of relief. These are people who are going through what you are going through. You feel connected, you don’t feel so alone and isolated. This is the goal. We want to be able to connect on a deep level. The journey is ultimately about remembering our own Divinity. This process is not easy and requires a lot of inner work. These people will walk through the mud with you. You can open up, share your vulnerabilities, cry, laugh and learn together. It’s such a blessing to have. I truly wish each and everyone reading this that you find your Soul Tribe – because it’s been a lifesaver for me.