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Loss and Grief

Finally getting around to posting my New Year Post, off to a late start, but the Chinese New Year starts February 1st, so maybe I am just aligning with that energy 😊

Here’s my latest blog post…

Gosh of all the topics to start off with on a new year! Or is it? It is the end of a year after all. It could be worth grieving over – another year gone. It is a usual time of reflection for sure. Another year passing can be a time of remorse on many levels, by time passing us by quicker than we would like. I definitely don’t think I am the only one that feels like this year in particular, has gone by quickly.

Grief is one of those emotions that people would like to avoid at all costs. There are so many instances in life where we can face grief – death of a loved one, or furry friend, a marriage, a friendship, loss of a job or way of life and even our home and our belongings through various tragedies. This 3D life is not an easy one. There are many instances of great change and loss that can impact us on a very deep level.

The first time I experienced true grief was when I lost my dog of 14 years, a Weimaraner named Bailey. He had been my faithful companion of unconditional love that we all are gifted with if we choose to let animals into our lives. When he passed, the emotional pain was unbearable. It is hard to recall just how hard the emotions were, but I do recall waking up in the middle of the night remembering that he had died. I remember these waves of emotion and this sinking feeling set in. But then, oddly, I would feel this wave of what felt like love, rush through my entire body as I lay on my bed. I always thought that was Bailey sending me love. Later, I heard when we experience grief, our spirit guides send us a wave of energy to help raise our energetic vibration. Even if it wasn’t Bailey sending me this love, I knew he was still around – he would show up in my dreams. It was so comforting. He was younger in the dreams, and I would throw a ball and he would go catch it. (And yes, I am getting emotional as I write this remembering my sweet dog even though it has been 6 years since he passed.) When he died, it was right before Christmas time. I was supposed to travel for the holidays but could not bring myself to go and pretend like I was okay when I was not. I remember sitting on the couch, feeling unable to do anything. It was such an odd feeling; I literally couldn’t make myself get up. Normal things would take me twice as long to do. The feeling of being so unmotivated and so unenergetic was foreign to me.

I remember complaining at that time, to my mom that I just couldn’t make myself do anything and she told me that I just needed to ‘force myself to get up.’ I know she meant well, but when you are experiencing something like that – it just doesn’t work that way. I found out that grief mimics depression. I had seen commercials about depression where these people were just sitting on the couch and their dog was like ‘take me for a walk’ and the owner wouldn’t get up and it was just sad. Well, I finally understood that feeling now and could totally relate!

Through life, we experience various instances where we have a loss in life. But what I have become acutely aware of lately, is that life keeps on going. Our lifestyles don’t really allow us to properly grieve. We have to get up, make that bed, dinner, go to work, attend to all of our responsibilities. Is that okay? What should we do? What can we do?

We all have our own issues, our childhood traumas and relationship traumas that we all carry around. But what about grief? Just pile that on to the rest of it?

My ex told me later that it took me a year to heal from losing my dog. I wish he had told me that sooner. Was I depressed for a year?? I do remember it was a difficult time – was it a year??

Recently, I had a loss of a different kind, which is the driver for this post and honestly one that I am shocked at myself for even having, but it is showing me the extent of loss that we may encounter in life. And I’m still processing it – to be totally honest.

Back in February of last year, we had a long cold snap of below freezing “Snowpocalypse” as many called it. I don’t recall how cold it was exactly, but as a Southerner, not really having to deal with this situation too often, I didn’t realize a lot of things I should have.

One of my passions is plants, especially tropical plants. Gardening is one of my favorite hobbies. When I moved into my current house in 2011, it was the first time I had a yard, and I was beyond excited to finally plant stuff in the ground! In fact, I couldn’t sleep at night because I had this huge yard, and I couldn’t decide on the layout for the gardens. I finally developed a plan and immediately began developing the flower beds in the spring of 2012. From then until 2021, I had planted many, many plants. Some I lost and replanted and as I later realized a gardener is much like an artist and is never satisfied with their work. I had a lot of learnings through that time period. But I eventually got into fruit trees, and I got a bit obsessed and planted things too closely because I wanted so many trees! Over the years, as the trees matured, I finally got fruits!! I had planted a few varieties that produced tons of fruit. One very small fruit tree would produce at least one hundred oranges.

I had created my own Tropical Retreat! I had two decks surrounded by greenery, palm trees, fruit trees – it was heaven to me. What was even more interesting was that I had originally been interested in the plants and flowers but was shocked to find just how exciting it was to have created a habitat! I had tons of little critters – like lizards, dragonflies, butterflies, moths, and birds! I loved to just sit outside with my morning cup of coffee or in the evening sit with a glass of wine. I had NO IDEA just how much the plants were giving to ME – just through their beauty.

So, you know where this story is going…

So, in February of 2021, I lost all of it. Granted, I had a few plants – my Ligustrum, my hibiscus, even my white birds of paradise eventually came back. But my palms and all of my fruit trees – probably around 20 – all gone.

It was truly devastating. I had a tree trimmer come out to take a look and he cut down the palm tree, my huge clumping bamboo (Bambusa gracilis), the other trees. I told him to hold off on the fruit trees – maybe they would come back? But no, they did not, so he had to come out a second time and take those down as well.

10 years of love and labor – all gone.

I sat outside and just cried, several times. It made me realize a few things. One is that I form unhealthy attachments, I think. I knew that I was too attached to those trees. They were my babies. I knew that if I were to move from this house, it would be too difficult for me to leave them there.

One day in April, during Spring migration – when the neo-tropical migrants come back from Central and South America and make their way back, I was standing in my living room looking out at the backyard, crying.

This is what I find so great about life – as I stood there crying, feeling horrible about my yard, FOUR birds came right to the window where I was. Two painted buntings (very colorful birds – but these were young and not yet in their full plumage) and two wrens. It was almost as if they were giving me a message of hope. That even though my yard was destroyed, it was almost as if they were letting me know, that they knew that I had tried to create a habitat and they still showed up to it. Although this wasn’t an energetic wave like I had experienced before, it was truly an uplifting experience that was not lost on me. It was not a coincidence! The Universe gives us signs and synchronicities when we need it.

I have yet to figure out what to do with my yard. I haven’t been motivated to plant anything or deal with the dead roots from the fruit trees. And I’m okay with that. I did plant a bunch of annual rye grass this winter, so my yard looks like the Scottish Highlands with super tall, super green grass. At least it’s green!

I don’t know the answer to dealing with these curve balls that life gives us. All I know is that it is a process, and each experience teaches me more about myself. The one thing I do want is for people to accept grief and to feel free to share, which is what I am doing. We are all dealing with various losses in life, and it isn’t always the death of a loved one that causes us to mourn. As we navigate these highs and lows in life just remember that we came to experience this earthly life and all of its challenges. It isn’t always an easy ride, and it helps us to grow in ways that we will eventually understand. Until then be patient with yourself if you are experiencing a rough time. It will get better!

In love, light, and gratitude,

Heather

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Being an Empath

Most people have heard of the term “Empath” and what it means. I think learning that I was an Empath has probably been one of the most important things that I’ve learned about myself on my spiritual journey. While most people consider being an Empath a ‘gift’, a lot of us would probably consider it a curse. In simple terms, an Empath is someone who is sensitive to energy. It’s referred to as “clairsentience’ and is considered a psychic ability.

However, everyone has this ability, it’s just a matter of knowing what it is and becoming more internally aware.

I don’t think that I am that different from other Empaths in that we all have suffered from bouts of fatigue. I only learned that I was an Empath about 5 years ago. But before that, I had dealt with fatigue and did not understand why. I went numerous times to the doctor complaining that I knew something was wrong with me and demanded that they run tests for everything (which they never did) and in the end, the normal blood work panels would turn out normal and they would just tell me that I was suffering from stress.

Understanding Fatigue

Now when I’m tired, I look at multiple factors to try and find the cause. Is it diet, stress, lifestyle or is it from being energetically drained due to being an Empath?

Over the past few years I have paid more attention to my overall state of being and have made a conscious effort to understand the cause. To illustrate this point, when it comes to diet, there are a few things I’ve noticed. When quinoa became popular I tried cooking it. I noticed I would get a headache and immediately have to take a nap. Eventually I connected the dots and read up on it. If you do not properly wash the quinoa first, the saponins on it can have this effect.

I’ve also noticed some types of wheat bread – most likely due to gluten, make me super tired. I can’t even keep my eyes open. Recently, I tried a plant-based ‘sausage’ because I used to love kielbasa, but trying to be healthy, had tried an alternative. In the end, I had a severe reaction including extreme fatigue. The main ingredient was – you guessed it – gluten! And of course, everyone knows how after eating any heavy meal – you will feel fatigue. So those are just a few examples of being more conscious and aware of your energy and by paying close attention to your outer circumstances you can learn to decipher possible sources of fatigue.

Fatigue can also be due to stress and lifestyle choices. When trying to understand my overall energy, I always look to what is going on with my life. Am I under a lot of personal stress due to life circumstances? Have I been taking care of myself? Am I eating properly, getting enough sleep, making time for self-care?

Sensitive to Energy

When it comes to being sensitive to other people’s energy, it has been quite a learning experience to say the least! I’ll delve into specific examples in the next article. But in this article, I am just going to talk about what I’ve come to understand about energy exchanges. For my own personal perspective, I would bucket being sensitive to energy into 2 main categories:

1) People

2) External influences

Now, when it comes to being sensitive to other people’s energy – I would break these experiences down even further into:

  • One-on-one
  • Multiple people (crowds)
  • Unknown sources

People

One-on-one

I think most people are aware that when we interact with different people that we can either come away from that experience feeling upbeat and uplifted, or feel totally drained. However, I don’t know if people who experience the latter understand the dynamic of what’s going on. And frankly, it took me a long time to finally pay attention and start to be more conscious of my interactions so that they are on par rather than draining.

For one-on-one situations, these can be with partners, friends, co-workers, family or even strangers. In personal relationships, and I can speak from personal experience here, you may not even realize that you are the one with high energy, and your other half is relying on you to lift them up. It may not be something that you are even consciously aware of. Once I had my Kundalini activation in 2014, I started to become an observer in my relationship and I realized that I was giving away my energy to the point that I was always feeling drained. I also began to observe other couples and would see an equal exchange and began to become more aware of this energy dynamic between individuals.

As Empaths, we are naturally good listeners and energy suckers seem to just hone in on us. They blather and blather away while you actively listen (because you are also nice and polite). But actively listening takes a LOT of energy. And so that person leaves and you come away from the interaction feeling drained and used. Here’s my perspective on this situation now. Once you become aware that they don’t actually care about you – because they aren’t actually asking you any questions, or even listening to what you are saying because they just keep on talking over you, then enough is enough. I have honestly felt that some of these people might as well just talk to a wall because they are not interested in engaging with you. So once you start to have that realization, your attitude changes and it’s time to set up some boundaries. Since I’ve become more aware of this whole energy dynamic, once I start to pick up on this when engaging with someone, I get out of the situation.

At the end of the day, it’s about honoring yourself enough to know that your time and energy are precious and you don’t need it wasted on someone who doesn’t care.

Crowds

Crowds are Empaths worst nightmare. And in fact, there are a lot of memes out there about empaths and Christmas time because those are crazy crowds and it can be just outright hell with so many people out and about.

When there are a lot of people giving off their own energy, and you are energy sensitive, you can start to see how this would be a problem. Just the sheer volume of energy is what makes this scenario difficult.

Airports are the worst! At airports I do my best to find a restaurant with a booth to isolate myself if I can. In the Lima Peru airport last year, I thought I was about to have an anxiety attack because we were all so close together going through one long line and it was all I could do to keep it together.

One day I volunteered at a food bank with a bunch of people and I was in bed the entire next day. Sometimes it is just too much.

I do my best to avoid crowds. I never go to the mall unless I absolutely have to, and then I get in and get out. I actually do my grocery shopping at 6 AM as soon as the store opens to avoid crowds there as well. As I’m transitioning to a crystal aura (as I wrote in another blog post) my energy sensitivity has increased even more, so I really try to minimize my exposure to large groups of people when I can.

Unknown/Long distance

So this one is really odd and I will save the details for another post because the stories are quite interesting. But one thing that I’ve become aware of, is to discern when I have feelings that are mine vs. someone else’s energy. What I’ve learned is to ask myself – is there anything going on in my life that justifies what I’m feeling right now? If the answer is ‘no’ then I immediately work on releasing that energy from my field. I have learned that there is a type of energy that I have experienced that is very ‘panicky’ is the best way to describe it. But I’ll save more of this for a later post.

Outside sources

Schumann Resonance

As the Earth moves through the photon belt, the Earth is being bombarded with energy. If you are an Empath – surprise – you are the lucky one that is feeling this the most. Although this energy is impacting everyone, empaths will be more sensitive to it. The amount of energy is reflected through the Schumann Resonance. The normal Earth vibration is 7.83 Hz. Over the last few years, we’ve had peaks up to 120 Hz! There are periods called “white-outs” where the energy is so high over a period of time. This energy will either make you super tired or super energetic. What I’ve noticed also is I will feel the energy before it actually registers on the chart.

Full moons/new moons

This is something that I’ve become more aware of over the last year or so. I definitely do not sleep well at all during these times. From what I understand, these are portals that open up, so there is an energetic pull on the Earth during the full moon. It’s over my head, but it definitely impacts me.

Locations

This is something that I’ve always been aware of. We used to refer to it as ‘picking up vibes.’ I have always picked up on energy in various locations. I remember one time visiting Nuevo Laredo, Mexico with a friend and I felt this melancholy energy emanating from this town. It was very odd, as I had never experienced that before. And of course, going to sacred sites – such as Tulum, I’ve felt this unexplainable sense of sacredness, mysterious, profound energy. A few years ago, I visited a location called “Peace Valley” in Arkansas – and it was indeed extremely peaceful! So as an Empath, you will notice your ability to pick up energy from people as well as locations.

Learning that you are an Empath is one thing, navigating it is another. As I mentioned earlier, it was the single most important thing that I learned about myself on my journey as it has such a huge impact to my overall well-being. Now that I am aware of this, I actively work to manage my interactions with others and do my best to make sure I establish boundaries and maintain a healthy emotional and physical state of being.

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Strength Through Unity

While many of us knew 2020 was going to be a big year, I know I was not personally expecting things to go down like this. Interestingly, normally I’m all about planning trips and fun things to do throughout the year, but intuitively – I was not even thinking about planning anything for the first half of the year. I wasn’t even entertaining the idea of travel.

So, what exactly is going on? We find ourselves in a Twilight Zone of sorts. I wake up thinking – oh yeah – everything is still on pause, everything is still unknown, uncertain …unprecedented times of chaos it seems. Financial meltdowns, self-quarantine, fear of not having enough toilet paper – just had to throw that one in there😊

Life is on hold, with no real clear understanding of what the future will hold. Will we be in this mess for months? For years? How did things turn so quickly? Have we taken everything for granted? Of course, we have. Most of us have not lived through extreme times. Yes, there have been financial crises, yes there have been outbreaks. But something that is sweeping across the globe so widespread, so unseen? Shutting down entire industries like travel, entertainment, even restaurants and stores? No, I don’t think we’ve ever seen anything like this.

So, what gives? I will offer my perspective on what is unraveling. I don’t know what is going on ‘behind the scenes’ as some people talk about. I don’t have any insight or any intuition on that. But here is what I do know. If something this BIG is happening, where it is impacting not just one ‘nation’ or just a few ‘nations’ and instead is impacting the entire world as we know it – then this is HUGE. We must understand that for those of us that have been awake, we know the TRUTH. We know the big picture. We have known that the Earth and its inhabitants have been under a control that’s nefarious.

We know that people are suffering unnecessarily. We know the systems have been set up for the majority of humans to struggle and to be poisoned through various means and then have big pharma charge us an arm and a leg to be ‘healed.’ We know about the GMOs, glyphosate, chemtrails, fluoride, aspartame, high fructose corn syrup, EMFs.

We are aware of the desire to keep down our own inner awareness through various means – to do anything to keep us distracted from our own self-discovery of ourselves as infinite Creators. Through big sports, video games, porn. We try to escape our drudgery through alcohol, gambling, drugs, shopping. This is all on purpose. We are modern slaves, while the elite run the show. Half of the world’s wealth is owned by only 200-300 people. Let that sink in…

But it gets much worse than this. My soul’s purpose is not to focus on this extreme dark side that exists, but I would be remiss if I were to not acknowledge its existence. The dark forces on Earth have no concern for life, other than their own. And that is the basis for understanding that human sacrifice, sex rings and pedophilia is a huge part of their world. We, as human beings with a conscience – can’t even begin to understand it. I, as an extremely sensitive individual cannot spend much time on this aspect, but I am of the belief that it is happening and has been happening.

So how does this tie into what is happening now?

This battle between light and dark has been going on for some time. Many people who are still asleep, may not be aware, and still be living under the illusion of a false ‘reality.’

The Ascension process, or our spiritual evolution, is being triggered by energetic waves incoming from the Galactic Central Sun. These waves of light, consciousness, are reaching the Earth and its inhabitants. This energy is bringing light to dark areas. This darkness can no longer exist in this Light Energy.

The “Lightworkers”, you – reading this, have agreed to come to Earth at this time to assist with this Spiritual Evolution. You have heard the “Call” to help and answered this call as a Benevolent soul.

We have reached the apex of this battle between dark and light. It may be a rude awakening for many. If the ENTIRE WORLD has been thrown into chaos it is because it is not the ‘end of times’ it is just the beginning.

Old structures that do not serve must come down. Systems built on lies and greed must be righted. It is time for each and everyone of us to be able to live a life that is life affirming, not controlled and manipulated as it has been in the past.

So, what now? Have you ever had a life experience that humbled you? Made you appreciate what you had in your life? Made you open to your family, partner, friends or co-workers? Well now is that time.

This is the opportunity that we have been waiting for to open, to connect on a REAL level. No more mundane conversations about the weather or sports. It’s time to get real to ask “How are you doing? How are you REALLY doing? To hug – a real, genuine hug, (as appropriate)… an act of connectedness….

This is bigger than those layoffs that cost you your way of life, this is bigger than that hurricane that destroyed your home. This is about human connection. It’s about recognition of each and everyone of us as souls. When we look at each other in the eyes – it won’t be about fear because we realize that we have each other, because we don’t have a choice now – but to look each other in the eyes to connect. When everything is in chaos, we realize just how precious everything is. We aren’t distracted by our daily schedule or list of things to do. We stop. We give thanks. We reach out. We connect.

My desire for you is that you read this and take away a message of hope. I know it may seem as if there is so much unknown at this time. And while I acknowledge that, I also have faith in humanity that we can use this as an opportunity to finally really see each other and use the power of togetherness to continue our paths – in one of Love, Truth and Unity.

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In love, light and gratitude,

Heather

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Spiritual Insights I

I’ve had a lot of insights recently so I thought I’d share what I’ve learned. One of the things that I do when I am starting to feel ‘off’ is I take a look at some general things in my life to figure out what is going on. I think a part of growth is being able to look at yourself in order to become more self-aware. It takes time and effort – it doesn’t happen overnight, it’s a constantly evolving path and process.

For me – I was not sleeping well, I was getting 4 hours of sleep, then when I was sleeping I felt like I was half awake/half asleep but having these dreams where it felt so real. So when I would wake up – I would feel disoriented.

Additionally, for the past few weeks I’ve been feeling almost like this internal pressure building. I think I feel the energies coming in before they arrive. I intuitively felt that the upcoming full moon on October 13th was going to be a doozy, so I actively took 4 days to myself to process the energy.

[One video that captures these experiences we are going through is by Bassnectar and the song is called Reaching Out – which is about a person breaking free from the prison of their mind – it’s really a cool video to check out – be sure to read the video description]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=exQIlfAkbMU

To determine why I feel this way, I examine some of the areas in my life:

  • Stress
  • Lifestyle
  • Diet
  • Sleep
  • Hormones
  • Ascension

So when I feel off, I look at general things that are going on in my life.

  • Do I have a lot of stress?
  • Am I not taking care of myself?
  • Am I working too much?
  • Are my hormones out of whack?
  • Am I not sleeping well?

All of these different things are all tied in together in actuality. One can cause the other to go out of whack. The last question that I ask myself is:

  • Are the ascension energies making me feel off?

The last question above is one of the reasons why I tune into others on this spiritual journey to check in with them to see what they are experiencing.

I follow Aluna Ash on YouTube and she has been saying that these energies are just going to continue to build up and that they are going to be coming in waves one after the other through the rest of the year.

I had watched a video by Kelli Coffee and she said that if you are having a hard time right now it’s because you are resisting and that totally resonated with me. What is resistance? To me, in some form or fashion we are not allowing what it is that we want to experience, or create into our lives. First, we need to take a look at what it is that we want in our lives. Here are a few examples: joy, success, a great career, a great relationship, financial abundance.

Next, we need to ask ourselves:

  1. Do I think I deserve it?

Deserving something at the core has to do with messages we may have received in our childhood. At some core level, we might have (unintentionally) absorbed the message that we are not worthy of whatever it is. These could be messages we picked up directly or indirectly from our childhood from our parents, relatives, teachers, friends, etc.

So how do we go about identifying if we deserve something? We can’t move forward unless we are able to crack the code. I’d recommend:

  1. Counseling
  2. Journaling
  3. Hypnosis

I personally find the best way for me to go through what I’m feeling is to journal. I think back on my childhood and recall past memories and feelings. It’s a very good process to analyze and evaluate your internal realm. Not all of us can navigate this process though which is where a good counselor can help. I also believe that there are healers that can help you access these emotions, belief systems and help you work through them.

Next, we need to ask ourselves:

  1. Do I believe it is possible?

Even if you consciously think something is possible, there could be underlying programs that are running behind the scenes sabotaging your ability to move forward. One thing to remember here also – is that we are always creating – either consciously or unconsciously, so maybe you do believe something is possible, but you keep on focusing on the opposite of what you want. And that is one of the issues that we face.

Like a hamster on a wheel, we keep running on our own bullshit story.

For me personally, as I journaled, one of the things that I realized that I was rejecting the present moment. That is a form of resistance. Instead of being fully present and engaged in the moment, I was rejecting it, resentful and wanting to be doing something else. This was a big aha for me.

When it comes to the Law of Attraction, one of the most profound pieces of information I came across was of the concept “thoughts are electric, feelings are magnetic.” Those few words really helped me understand how we can ‘think’ all that we want, but it is the FEELING state that is what attracts something into your life. Because it’s magnetic!

The other key point here is that you are fully engaged in the moment (not resisting), aware of what you want, and FEEL as if it already exists. That last part is where it can be tricky to hold the faith.

Along these lines, I just watched a video by Bob Proctor which I highly recommend:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oz2NpjEX5TM&t=23s

As we go through the Ascension Process/Spiritual Awakening Process it’s important to do the necessary inner work. Journaling to me has been one of the most enlightening processes to help move me forward.

These energies can be difficult, but just remember to hang in there – we are all going through it together!

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In love, light and gratitude,

Heather Burket