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Dark Night of the Soul

I want to talk about this concept because I feel that this might soon be happening to a lot of people. And of course, this is my perspective, other people will have their own unique experience.

My awakening began in earnest after my Kundalini activation in Nov. 2014. You can read more about that in my previous articles – Kundalini Activation through meeting Twin Flame and Kundalini Activation – Snake Dreams, Twin Flame Dreams.

The phase called “Dark Night of the Soul” will be different for everyone, but for me the Kundalini activation began a process where the energy began clearing blocks in my chakras – which takes time. For some, the activation can lead to enlightenment right away.

So as this energy does it’s thing – a lot of soul searching activity goes on. For me, this led to a lot of researching online and through reading books.

A lot of people somehow quite mysteriously, all seem to come across the work of Dolores Cannon. In case you don’t know who she is, she was a hypnotherapist who worked with clients who eventually began telling her some very interesting things that she documented through books. I had read one of her books “The Three Waves of Volunteers” and I had begun reading another one of her books called “The Convoluted Universe” and it was probably for the me, the straw that broke the camel’s back and thus my Dark Night of the Soul began in about March/April 2016.

It’s hard to remember the pain, and even harder to describe the type of pain that I was in.

I actually talked to someone else who had a Kundalini activation and they experienced the same – except for they had more of an enlightening experience after they experienced the “Dark Night of the Soul.”

I feel like it was my ego trying to die, but it wouldn’t, or couldn’t figure out how to make it happen. My friend said that they just surrendered, but I apparently did not know how to do that.

To give context to what is happening internally, I think I had been reading and digesting these various perspectives on “reality” and it all came to a head while reading Dolores’ book.

Some of these concepts included the perspective that “I am God, I create my own reality”. So this understanding to me, really affected my psyche. And I’m not a mental health professional in any way, so I may be totally off base here, but that is my perspective.

I don’t think we appreciate how much our psyche is impacted by our core beliefs. I always had this perspective that there was this “God” out there that I could pray to when I was down, that “had my back.” And now, it was like, well what now? Do I pray to myself? It’s just me??

Not only that, but I had also learned about the Earth’s true history. I had never really understood the concept of Jesus (I’ll do another post on that another time) and I thought the whole Adam and Eve story was weird, but I think I had always believed in humans, the normal story.

But since my awakening began, I had learned about the Annunaki, the Ancient Builder Race, our connection to other galactic races as “Starseeds” incarnating here on Earth, the Reptilians running the show as the Elite. I had learned about the beings from Lyra, Pleiades, Sirius and the Extra Terrestrial beings living here on Earth. So my whole identify and my place in the Universe and how I fit in had been turned upside down.

These two main concepts – I am God and I am not who I thought I was and our place in the Universe is vastly different than what I thought – I believe these were what finally caused me to have my Dark Night of the Soul.

I felt like I had nothing to stand on, my foundational beliefs had been demolished.

I remember I literally felt like I was falling while I was laying on my bed. It was this out of control like feeling and it was terrifying. I remember it felt like a series of mini nervous breakdowns – like each one was getting worse.

I felt this internal struggle going on – like my ego was trying to die, but I wouldn’t let it die. I just remember it was an internal pain like I had never known before.

But, my ego did not die – and I did not achieve ‘enlightenment’ which is what happens to many people after this process. If you are in the Spiritual Community, then you are probably very well aware of the people that have reached a certain level of enlightenment. I consider them my teachers. However, I believe that they are not always the best people to assist others because they are so far advanced – they almost become unrelatable. And I think that is partly why I kept myself at a certain level – in order to help those that are just in the process of waking up.

I believe 2020 is going to be one of those years where people will be forced to wake up – and probably rather abruptly.

These past years of these energetic waves that have been washing over the Earth – they are packets of Consciousness that are bringing darkness to light. We have to deal with our inner demons, this energy is not letting up. The time is up for those that have refused to look within themselves and address their traumas. Many of us have had years to process and work on ourselves and achieve a certain state of inner balance.

My hope for those that are still asleep is that they are able to navigate what is coming with as much assistance and guidance from those that are leading the way through this Great Awakening. Wayshowers – I believe our time is here.

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Heather

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You as God/Source

There are many basic concepts that need to be covered to serve as a foundation on which to grow and one of these concepts is that You are God/Source.

From where I am now, this seems like simple and easy to understand, however, this concept was partially responsible for my “Dark Night of the Soul” that happened a few years into my Spiritual Awakening. In case you aren’t familiar with the Dark Night of the Soul, that is a very distressful part of the process where your ego ‘dies.’ However, mine didn’t completely die, but was one of the most painful internal experiences I’ve ever felt and it’s really hard to describe. It felt like a series of mini nervous breakdowns for me.

This concept was one of the most difficult things to accept because I had always felt like there was this ‘God being’ ‘out there’ that I could pray to for assistance.

So when I came across this concept and pretty much everyone I came across at this time was saying the same thing – then this core foundational belief changed. Until you’ve experienced a core belief shift happen within, it is hard to describe exactly how unsettling this was for me internally. (along with several other lies we have been told all of our lives). I literally remember laying on  my bed, feeling like I was falling through the bed, because I didn’t have that internal foundation to rest on anymore.

God/Source

The idea is that you and God are one in the same. The way that I look at it as, for me, like a round blob, like a Sun. That is God/Source and we all project forth from that one same source.

Part of this understanding includes that, as God, you create, you are a co-creator of God as God. So as you begin to absorb and understand this concept, you start to understand that you create your own reality. And this is where the concept of the “Law of Attraction” fits in, because you create – draw into your life i.e. ‘attract,’ through your thoughts, words, actions and most importantly – through the ‘feeling state.’

This can also lead to a sense of distress, because you start to look around and realize that you created EVERYTHING!! Now, depending on where you are in your life, this can be a harsh reality. You mean I created this crap?? Yep – you did!

This can also lead us to realize that we are not victims of circumstance. Everything we experience is a result of our own creation. So once we become awake and aware, we start to take charge of our lives and create ‘consciously’ rather than how we have before – by creating ‘unconsciously.’

This is also where you may begin to hear the term ‘sovereignty’ because once you become awake and aware – this is also knowing and standing in your own power as a creator being. It is taking back your power because you know now and realize that you have that power.

Unity Consciousness – We are All One

This was one of the concepts that I kept hearing about and was completely confused. How can we all be one, if we are separate individuals? Well eventually I began to understand the concept because we are ultimately all from the same God Source. So when you look at others as yourself, that is when you are able to recognize the God within others as yourself.

Have you heard the phrase “Namaste?” it means ‘the Divine in Me, recognizes and honors the Divine in you’. So that acknowledgement is very humbling in that you can see yourself within another.

If not God, then who?

If you grew up praying to God as I did, well then now what? Do I pray to myself?? This caused a bit of distress as I liked to feel comforted knowing I was protected somehow, that I could rely on this as a pillar of strength for me.

Well, from my current perspective, I call on different beings that I may feel would be helpful depending on the situation. I call upon my spirit guides, Jesus, Archangel Michael, etc.

I think that although we may know internally that ‘we are source’ being able to call upon these beings who are accessible to us and who have agreed to assist us during our life here on Earth has given me comfort.

Consciousness exists in everything

As you continue along this journey, you will start to become more aware of the consciousness within everything. One of the most amazing experiences I had on my spiritual journey was when I was at a plant nursery and I picked up an orchid that was on the sale rack and I heard (in my voice, in my head) “please take me home.” To this day, that was one of the most humbling experiences that I’ve ever had.

I had always felt bad whenever I planted something in my backyard and then decided it didn’t work, so I’d dig it up and take it to the trash or even trimming my plants.

There is a book called the Intention Experiment which talks about many experiments with plants. It talks about how they measured reactions in plants even when someone THOUGHT about harming them!

To me, this is where saying prayers of gratitude for our food when we eat, because they are thanking them for what they are providing to us.

So there is this consciousness, God/Source, in all things. Once we become more aware of this, I think we become more conscious of our choices in life and we have more reverence and respect for Nature.

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Heather Burket

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Spiritual Awakening – An Overview

My intention with this blog is to help others who may be going through a Spiritual Awakening process and might not understand what is happening and need support on their journey. I intend to try to explain things in a somewhat logical order although that won’t always be the case as this topic has a lot of twists and turns.

So what is a Spiritual Awakening? Spiritual Awakening is an awakening to who you truly are as a soul. It is happening collectively, but it is an individual process. And the process is different for everyone. For some – it can be dramatic – as in a Kundalini Awakening. For others, it may just start as a feeling of discontent and/or you may begin to question things. And then there are others who are born ‘awake’ but that is rare.

Since everyone is at a different place, I’ll begin with some basics of what you may be experiencing:

  • You may feel upsetting emotions (anger, sadness, fear) that you can’t exactly determine why you feel that way
  • You may begin to feel disconnected from those around you – like you don’t really enjoy their company anymore. This can apply to friends, coworkers and even family members. And this feeling of disconnection can make you feel very lonely.
  • You may have odd sleeping patterns – waking up in the middle of the night and unable to go back to sleep.
  • You may experience bouts of fatigue and/or anxiety
  • Your body may become sensitive to certain foods, alcohol, and products
  • You may begin to notice that you see the same numbers like 11:11 and other repeating numbers like 333, 444, etc.
  • You may be to experience a myriad of different physical symptoms (I’ll discuss more in another article)
  • You may develop a sudden interest in your health – such as becoming vegetarian, vegan and learning more about mindfulness and alternative forms of healing – such as yoga, meditation and acupuncture
  • You may become interested in learning more about esoteric topics
  • You work may become so dissatisfying that you may begin to question your current line of work
  • You may begin to feel out of control emotionally – dark night of the soul
  • You may experience vivid dreams
  • You may begin to experience more supernatural types of experiences such as
    • Seeing or feeling spirits or entities
    • Seeing energy such as auras around people
    • Hearing voices
    • Having out of body experiences

What is happening is that you are becoming more in alignment with your true self – what resonates with you who you truly are and becoming more aware of the Truth that has been hidden from you. As you begin this process, every area of your life becomes into clear focus for review to determine if it matches you. If not, it will be released to allow that which does to enter your life.

You will start to seek others, either consciously or unconsciously that are similar to you – that match your current vibration.

You soul will begin to direct the course of your life.

Once you realize what is happening, things will start to make more sense. I had a lot of issues early on because I had my 3rd eye open due to a Kundalini Awakening. It was experiencing a lot of supernatural things and couldn’t figure out how to make it stop. I was afraid to go to sleep at night. I don’t think most people are experiencing that, but I do plan to discuss that in more detail in a later article.

Besides all of the weird phenomenon I was experiencing, the most difficult part was not having anyone to talk about who could provide any explanation or to assist me in this process. What ended up helping me the most – emotionally – was finding other like-minded people that I could learn from and share information and to provide emotional support. It was probably the single best thing that helped me – as being isolated during this process makes it extremely challenging.

So fear not! We are all on this journey together! Although the process can be challenging, the rewards of living in alignment with your true self is worth the struggles you may encounter. My intention is to provide as much information and tools as possible to assist you on this journey!

Here’s my video on this topic:

In love, light and gratitude!

Heather