When it comes to healing modalities and spiritual practices there was one practice where I had THE most profound spiritual experience, and I haven’t heard anyone talk about – it’s called dhikr. In my 20’s I was very much a seeker. I was trying to understand “why I am here?” and “what is my life purpose?” I was plagued with these existential questions very early on in my life. I was very much an avid reader and somehow, I had come across information on Sufism. If you are not familiar with Sufism, it is basically the esoteric branch of the Islamic faith. I honestly don’t know too much about any of it, other than I found that I resonated with the information that I did find. The main concept that I recall was that you polish the mirror of the heart so that the God within, reflects outward. That basic idea made so much sense to me. It really is about being a better person and working towards that inner recognition of your own divinity. Sufism is very different in that there isn’t a Church. This practice involves having a guru or spiritual teacher called a sheik. And the idea is that when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. And I’ll have to say, if anyone is a Sufi and is reading this and I’m doing a horrible job at explaining it – I apologize. I feel I would never do a good job in trying to explain it – but I’m doing my best.
Anyway, eventually after I finished college and was out in the working world, I ended up meeting a lady who also studied Sufism. She and I would have conversations about it and eventually I ended up buying a few different books based on her recommendations. My focus on spirituality would wax and wane over the years. Some years later, I became focused once more on developing my spiritual side and so had begun doing one of the practices described in one of the books. A practice called dhikr.
Dhikr is basically where with every breath you think ‘God’ (for the Islamic faith – they would say Allah, but God resonated more with me). So instead of entertaining all these random thought in your mind, you just focus on God. The idea is that eventually, you won’t consciously have to ‘think’ of God, but God will just ‘sit in your heart’ and you won’t have to make an effort. I had only been practicing this for a short time – less than a week. So, one day I was driving down the road when suddenly I was overcome with what would be today – the most profound thing I’ve ever experienced. It is very hard to describe, but I would say it was like I saw everything for what it really was – and it was beautiful! I just remember I had this almost like full body orgasm go through my body and then I just experienced this overwhelming feeling of bliss. But it did not last that long, it was almost like I had a glimpse. It is hard to remember how it felt, but it’s almost like this veil dropped for a while and I was able to see the beauty in everything.
I had that experience over 10 years ago, even BEFORE my Kundalini activation. I suspect that when Kundalini is activated, and the crown chakra opens – that is the type of experience someone would have. But apparently, I like to do everything backwards! IF that is what it is supposed to feel like, then wow – what a state to be in! What I find so odd, is that even though I had that the most profound experience using that technique – I actually never engaged in the practice again.
Ultimately, I think the power in that practice is that you are actively engaging with the remembrance of your own beauty, your own inner divinity. To have just a glimpse of what that looks and feels like, was such a gift. As we walk through this life with blinders on, this false reality of what is ‘real’ I think to be able to see the beauty of life and all it’s wonder is something that we all aim to experience – real meaning. I think that is why I like to walk early in the morning and see the stars. It helps me to keep perspective and to see and remember what a vast and mysterious place that we live in.
I’m excited to share that I’ve written a book that is now available on Amazon! One of the most challenging things that I found during the Spiritual Awakening process was that I just needed some basic information. I just felt really frustrated at having to hunt down and try to piece everything together. So, I wrote this book with that in mind – to try and help people going through this process have a basic understanding.
Everyone’s spiritual journey is a little different. For me, mine was triggered largely by Kundalini activation by meeting a Twin Flame. I share my experience and how my journey unfolded after that.
Spiritual Awakening is all about remembering who you are. That process involves a lot of inner work. In my book, I share the various healing modalities that I’ve tried.
I hope that this book provides a source of comfort, understanding and hope for anyone undergoing through this process. I know it can be overwhelming – I’ve definitely been there!
So please feel free to check out my book on Amazon and share with anyone that is going through the spiritual awakening process.
During the spiritual awakening process, there can be a lot of different things that happen, and so it can be overwhelming.
For me, I was confused because I knew I was experiencing things because of the connection I had with one person – and didn’t know the cause (eventually I came to understand that my Kundalini had been activated) and as a result of my Kundalini being activated, my 3rd eye opened which created a bunch of different experiences which I cover in this article:
One of the most traumatic experiences that I had as a result of my 3rd eye opening, was interacting with negative entities.
People have different interpretations on the meaning of these interactions, and to be honest, I get irritated at a lot of people being dismissive and/or blaming the person for these experiences. I literally had PTSD for months after one of these interactions. I couldn’t even talk about it without getting upset. Now, having grown both spiritually and emotionally, I understand these experiences and I do not operate out of fear anymore, but that took me awhile to get there!!
When it comes to perspectives, again, I’ll reiterate that each person is entitled to have their own perspective. Perspectives are based on your own personal experience and understanding, and these can change over time. As I’ve mentioned before, people frequently seek out psychics because these experiences are not something that an every day person will have, so seeking out answers from friends, family members or even therapists is not always helpful. I scheduled psychic readings with 2 different psychics, for different reasons, and during my sessions, I asked them both about my experiences to get their feedback.
I’ll share what they told me after I talk about the specific interactions that I had. But before I go into that, let’s just talk about what exactly ‘negative entities’ are.
To understand what they are, you need to step back and look at things on just an energetic level. We live in a 3D world. There are other dimensions around us, but the beings in these dimensions are vibrating at a higher level and so we may not necessarily experience them. Psychics who are born with certain capabilities and with a particular soul journey have access to these dimensions and so they can experience things that a lot of us would not normally be able to. Most of us came to have a 3D experience and it would be difficult for most of us to go through the day and live this earthly life if we had spirits all around us talking to us day in and day out (and especially at night).
So, when your vibration is raised and your 3rd eye is opened, then you begin to have access to beings in these other realms, or dimensions.
So, what are the beings in these dimensions? Negative entities, angels, ascended masters, ghosts, and other ‘space junk’ as I call it. From my perspective, humans are all souls, and once we die, we go back into other dimensions and then just continue having another experience. There are all sorts of possibilities and to be honest, I don’t focus so much on that, I try to focus on my present now moment.
What are negative entities?
Negative entities are just energy that has been produced that is ‘negative’ in nature. These entities are not connected to God/Source energy and therefore, they cannot survive on their own. They need others energy to sustain themselves. They are generated from negative thoughts from humans. I’m sure there are other causes/sources for their existence, but that is all I know. I don’t spend too much time researching this, I’m just basing it on what I’ve learned through my teachers. This is one of the reasons why you want to make sure that you speak positive words, because words of a hateful, negative nature do create thought forms that affect the environment. One example I can share is when I was looking at homes to buy, I could feel the arguments from the couple that were selling the house. You could feel the anger there.
It is my personal experience that there are varying degrees of complexity of these beings. I’ll cover those in more detail below.
Negative entity experience No. 1
This was one of the first experiences I had after my Kundalini was activated. I remember going to sleep, the light in my bedroom was light enough that I could see, it wasn’t completely dark. Anyway, I saw this black blob, about less than 1 foot long, move across my body – like my chest/stomach area. Then, as I was turning over, I saw it dart down the side of the bed. To be honest, it startled me, but the overall vibe I got from this one, was that it was mischievous. It’s like it was being playful and sneaky. Almost like it knew I saw it and it was messing with me. I remember getting up to use the restroom in the middle of the night, and I saw this shadow hanging out in the bathroom in the corner. But as soon as I looked at it, it would disappear. What was funny about it, was that I had a small black rabbit at the time, and she darted into the bathroom and scared me!
I had started going to acupuncture around this same time. My acupuncturist had recommended that I see an energy healer friend of hers that performed reiki healing sessions. So, I scheduled an appointment and had the reiki session. Afterwards, the lady told me that I had two negative entities attached to me, but that she had asked them to leave. She told me she doesn’t always tell everyone, but she could tell I could handle that information. She told me that once Kundalini is activated – that you kind of ‘light up’ and draw in these negative entities, they are drawn to your light!
Negative Entity Experience No. 2
This is the one that caused me to have PTSD. One of the affects of a spiritual awakening is disrupted sleep. At the time, I started sleeping in the upstairs guest bedroom because I was always tossing and turning, trying to sleep. During this experience, I was in this odd state, which I now know is called the hypnagogic state. For me, I am always aware of my surroundings, that I am in my bed, but you are still asleep. It’s an odd state to be in. Anyway, I was in the hypnagogic state and I remember hearing this noise that sounded like claws on the wooden floor that leads to my guest bedroom. I remember thinking to myself, ‘that is odd, I know that I locked the dog downstairs, did he get past the doggie gate?’ and then that is when I saw this negative entity swirling back and forth near the ceiling above me! I was completely freaked out. I could not move. This ‘thing’ was just going back and forth, back, and forth above me. It looked like just two large black blobs connected, like one for the body and one for the head, but for some reason, I remember getting a ‘batlike’ energy from it. I’m not sure why. I remember being utterly terrified because I couldn’t move. It was like it had me pinned down or something? I am not sure. I remember trying to think of different beings to call on to help me, I remember calling Jesus, Archangel Michael and other beings and nothing would help. Finally, I remember eventually ‘waking up’ and coming to, and I was breathing so heavy, it was like I had just run 5 miles I got up and went downstairs and got in my own bed. I don’t know why I didn’t wake up my husband at the time, to tell him about it, but instead I just went to sleep.
Later, I asked a psychic about that experience and she told me that I operate in the hypnagogic state a lot and that when you are in that state, you are in their realm, you can see them, they can see you, but you can’t do anything. I can’t remember exactly what she said, but basically, it’s like a close call, because you have stepped into their realm, but you don’t have control of the situation. She explained to me that the next time I get into that situation, I just have to say “I invoke the I AM in me and I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ and I ask you to leave my space immediately.” And that they must leave. I learned through personal experience and I received guidance from someone who was more familiar with these types of experiences to navigate these experiences.
Negative Entity Experience No.3
One of the things that I’ve learned over time, is that you can pick up negative entities from other people and from places. So, if suddenly you have an experience with a negative entity, one of the things you may want to ask yourself, is did I just visit any place recently or did I interact with anyone? And that is what happened in this next experience. I had visited a relative and had an experience there, that I didn’t think too much about, but of course, when I look back, I see it now. One of the ways that negative entities can attach to you, is when your auric field is reduced. Alcohol is one way that your aura can be diminished and when that happens, negative entities can attach to you. I had a few drinks one night and I remember as I was getting in bed, I felt like something entered the room. I remember being a bit freaked out. I sense energy – that is my strongest ‘clair’ – clairsentience. I remember trying to half-ass get rid of whatever was in the room, by asking it to leave, but I obviously did not do a good job. I ended up keeping the light on while sleeping because I could sense it.
I traveled back home and later that evening I remember being in the hypnagogic state – where you are aware of your surroundings. I remember, I was lying on my side, and I remember feeling like something had grabbed me from behind and was growling, like a dog, I remember it felt like they were trying to pull me off of the bed and I quickly said my “I invoke the I AM in me and I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ and I ask you to leave my space immediately.” And it worked! After that experience, I felt so empowered! One of the problems that I see when people have experiences with other beings is that they act like a victim rather than step into their own power by trying to understand the experience – the ‘how’s’ and ‘whys’ and seek out people to help teach them, rather than live in fear.
Once I woke up, I immediately began to try to understand why I had that experience. I did some research and came across this video by Magenta Pixie, again – one of my favorite teachers, where she talks about asking if you have been somewhere recently as one of the reasons why you have may picked up a negative entity.
This one takes the cake as far as how bad it was, but, again, as all experiences are, I finally got the message. I had been visiting with a person, and again, alcohol was involved. Although I still drink alcohol to this day, I understand exactly how alcohol can contribute to reducing our auric field and allow entities to attach to us.
I remember I went to sleep, and again, in the hypnagogic state, where I am aware that I am in my bed, but also still asleep and so can’t ‘move’. I had the same type of being, which was growling, and grabbing me from behind and this one was spinning me around in my bed. This type is like a dog or wolf is the vibe I get from these. I was trying to say my “I invoke…” but even though I was trying to communicate – through my mind and not my mouth necessarily, it was somehow preventing me from getting my words/intentions out. So, I could not get rid of this one. DANG!! I thought I had it figured out – lol! Anyway, eventually it got off me and I woke up. When I woke up, I was angry at myself for allowing this to happen. When it comes to spiritual growth, one of the things that you learn is about energetic boundaries. After this, I spent more time working with energy clearing and energy protection practices – which I do this to this day. I explain these practices in this video:
I’ve had various other experiences, but those are the main ones that I wanted to share. I do want to advise you if you stay in a hotel room, and are sensitive to energy, you may want to bring some sage spray or do energy clearing practices or bring some black tourmaline with you in order to clear the space.
So, what did I learn? After speaking with various psychics – Pamela Aaralyn and Magenta Pixie, I’ve come to have a better understanding of why I personally have experienced these things.
One, is that as a healer, you must be able to work in other realms in order to assist others with their own shadows. You have to walk both worlds – it’s very shaman like. And according to my readings, I have worked as a medicine woman, healer, in many past lives.
When you first start to open up your psychic abilities, you may start to experience things on the lower realms, and then as you eventually raise your vibrations, then you can experience beings of a higher vibration.
The spiritual awakening process can be scary, but eventually over time and with help I’ve learned to step into my own power and stand in my own sovereignty.
This is something I’ve wanted to write about for awhile, but I needed some time to get centered again. I met not one, but TWO more Twin Flames recently since my initial Twin Flame connection back in 2014.
If you’ve been following this blog for awhile, you may have read my other articles on Twin Flames.
There is no right or wrong, they are just perspectives based on your own personal experience. I find it interesting that some people get mad if you don’t share their same perspective. And when it comes to Twin Flames – this seems to be a very hot topic.
I had never even heard of Twin Flames when I met mine. The thing about this type of connection, is that it is SOOOO different than any other connection that you have had, that you don’t have a choice but to take notice. I know everyone wants to have a Twin Flame connection and are so wanting their connection to be a Twin Flame connection, but BELIEVE ME, this one is very different. You have absolutely no control over it.
Although everyone’s experience will be different, from what I understand, it will trigger a Kundalini activation. And for me, that is exactly what happened when I looked into my Twin Flame’s eye. After my Kundalini was activated, it triggered a series of experiences and it was difficult to understand exactly what was happening to me. All I knew is that I was connected to this person somehow – energetically and psychically and it was very scary, because I didn’t understand it. He kept on showing up in my dreams and telling me things, showing me things. And then, of course all of the other stuff that can happen when your Kundalini is activated – 3rd eye activation, which opens you up to other dimensions which can become a roller coaster. When you have a somewhat normal life, then your sleep is completely disrupted, you feel like you are living a 2nd life in the dreamtime and you are afraid to go to sleep at night because of what you will see, hear and experience, so it can be a very challenging time. I am glad that part of my awakening is over.
So, back to today’s blog post topic – karmic twin flames. So, after my first twin flame left my life, I had several messages from the dreamtime on his journey and mine. I knew he had this path to take and I had mine, but he was supportive in the dreamtime, so I knew that the connection would always be there, even if it was not actually manifested in the physical.
I went through a divorce and he got married – lol! Seems like I got the short end of the stick here.
But in reality, the meeting of Twin Flames triggers an awakening process in both of them, and so they end up moving apart from each other so that each person can work on themselves. The connection is very intense and staying together after the initial connection is probably rare.
I know that he and I have had several lifetimes together. And that is where the concept of Karmic Twin Flames comes into play.
Although we are the same energy frequency, you can actually share your same energy frequency with multiple people because we are fractals of the same energy.
During the spiritual awakening process, it can be very confusing and many of us seek out psychics to help us through some of these experiences that are hard to comprehend. Because these experiences are not really something a typical therapist could assist with. (Can you imagine me going to a therapist saying “I heard a disembodied voice saying to me “F you” as I was going to sleep??”)
So after I met my Twin Flame, I did readings with 2 very well known psychics. One of them, before I even said anything to her, actually said, “You have the Twin Flame energy around you.”
In fact, this particular psychic did a video shortly after my reading with them, which I felt was about the exact experience I had – losing your twin flame.
So, because I am familiar with the type of Twin Flame energy connection, I recently had 2 very similar experiences – one in April and one in August.
I want to share those experiences and what I’ve learned from them.
I actually met both of them through an online dating App – called Bumble. IT IS POSSIBLE TO MEET A TWINFLAME ONLINE – lol!
Twin Flame Connection # 2
I saw this guy’s picture – and I was immediately drawn to him. You could just tell he had his own inner happiness, he wasn’t seeking happiness outwards. He was smiling with his whole being. It was an energy about him that I was drawn to immediately.
And of course, he didn’t live in my town, in fact, he didn’t even live in my state. So, we must have matched when he was nearby.
So, we started texting, and then we started having phone conversations. I think it was Day 3 of connecting with him, that I thought – this is different…
So, I want to list out some ways that I was able to determine this was a Twin Flame connection:
Drawn to them – immediately
Can’t stop looking at their photo – it feels like a mystery that you can’t understand
Dream time experiences
Astral sex (if you are lucky – lol!)
Bubble type love feeling being in their presence
Warm, honey type feeling through touch
Extreme heart-centered emotions that are very strong, very emotional
From my perspective, the Twin Flame connections will differ somewhat depending on where you are on the journey and what experience that you need to have. So, there isn’t a list of items that must happen, but there are a few tell-tale signs that it is a Twin Flame connection:
It feels SUPERNATURAL – because of the dreamtime connection, the psychic connection (that can manifest in various forms) and the bliss-like feeling being with them.
I’ll explain in detail what I experienced. After we talked for awhile, we decided to meet in the middle of where we both lived. We actually even got in an argument before we met, and I went anyway and he told me he wasn’t going.(I was going to go birding at the place that we were going to meet). So, there was some drama even before we met. For some reason, we kept on talking and because of his home circumstances, he couldn’t leave as easily as I could. So, I took off, and literally drove 3 hours directly to his house. I know that sounds absurd in these days, but I saw 11:11 on the clock before I left (a twin flame sign) and also, I had this inner knowing. Now, I do not recommend other people do this. I have intuition, so I feel like I can trust my inner knowing.
I felt a little nervous before arriving at his house, but I just walked up the stairs to his home. He opened the door and he was actually so much cuter in person (score) lol. Anyway, after the initial awkward meeting, we sat down and chatted on the couch for hours. His energy was so amazing. It was stormy outside and we just sat and talked – it was just so perfect.
Anyway, just thinking about this, I am getting emotional. It felt so good to be in his presence.
I’ll talk about the specific experiences I had in more detail.
He had a son, and I had 3 dreams of him, his son and me. Those dreams were very curious, there is always a lot of meaning in dreams.
I also had an experience of astral sex – before we even met. That was the most mind-blowing experience I’ve ever had in my life. The best way I can explain it is it with your whole body, not just your nether regions. It makes 3D sex pretty damn boring TBH.
I had heard that the reason that this happens is because it is to prepare the body so that you don’t blow each other up, when you do actually (if you do) have sex. Lol.
I also felt, and I felt this with my first TF, these energetic rushes, it feels like the shape of a human being, coming from behind you (or the side) – but it’s this rush of energy. Sometimes it feels like they are hugging you, sometimes it feels like it goes through you – raising your energy.
Bubble type love feelings
This is the most amazing thing. When you are with them, and your energies merge somewhat, you feel like your whole energetic field is in a higher state. It’s hard to describe, but it feels like heaven. At one point, he even said “I feel like I’m on cloud nine right now.” He felt it too…
Warm, honey, type feeling during touching
This was I think a part of that bubble type energetic feeling, except for this is in regards to actual touch – it feels so warm, and again…heavenly. Like I could just live on that experience alone.
Very strong emotions
When you are just getting to know someone, it really isn’t normal to have strong emotional feelings with someone. When it comes to Twin Flame connections and especially the Karmic variety – the strong emotions that are felt are due to past life connections, where that energy of the past is just stirred up so it feels stronger. I looked at a photo of him recently and I got emotional. Feelings don’t just die overnight.
In the end, he was not ready for the connection. Just like most Twin Flame connections, there are usually significant differences in some shape or form. For us, it was an age difference – which is quite common – 20 years in our case. Also, the physical distance. But in reality, for a Twin Flame connection to last, both parties have to be where they need to be spiritually.
I did a psychic reading a few months after that connection ended. I think I needed confirmation from someone else, and I wanted to know more about it.
They confirmed that they were a Twin Flame, but they also shared something that was very helpful to me.
They likened the twin flame connection to a hand where you are all the same energy, but the fingers represent the fractals of the same energy. You have multiple people that are twin flames – mostly karmic, but then there is the dharmic twin flame – which you will reach once you go through the karmic connections. They explained it to me that there were anywhere from 3-5 karmic twin flames.
Twin Flame connections have a purpose. It isn’t to say that people that have a Twin Flame connection are special in any way, it’s just that they have a particular mission to fulfill. And the Twin Flames need to work together on the same path towards this purpose. That was how it was explained to me.
Onto the next karmic connection… I’m on a roll!!
Twin Flame Connection # 3
Oh….this was soooo gooood…. So, again, was on the dating app Bumble, saw someone and was like “OMG” totally in love, right away. It’s the energy. This guy was just, well besides the fact that he was absolutely great looking, his smile was just beaming of good energy. Again, it was this feeling of self-fulfilled energy, not energy from any external source or reason.
Again, this person was NOT IN TOWN, in fact, they lived even further, 8 hours away!! But, they were in town, and we just happened to both be attracted to each other. He wanted to meet right away, so even though we didn’t even hardly exchange any texts, we agreed to meet for a glass of wine.
The entire conversation just flowed, it was so easy, totally enjoyed my time with him. Because of the the pandemic, restaurants shut down early, so after the place closed, we hung out on the sidewalk and were both just in state of bliss outside for about an hour.
As I was driving home, I literally was just in this bubble state of love. I felt like, I didn’t even care if we never met again after that. I was just so thrilled to experience those feelings and that type of connection and to know that what I was feeling was possible.
When I got home, he was sending me texts about how great it was meeting me, how much he enjoyed spending time together.
Besides the amazing bliss-like feelings I had being with him, I had other Twin Flame signs as well including dreams, seeing 11:11 as soon as I got back to my car, and when I saw his text the next day.
With him, I also experienced seeing these black and white swirls (yin and yang energy) after we met. It’s a psychic vision I see when I close my eyes, usually at night. I haven’t heard many other people talk about this – but I experienced this after I met my first twin flame.
Anyway, as the psychic I follow explained, the connections seem to be getting deeper as I meet more of them. So, with the first one, there was no physical connection at all. With the 2nd one, there was, so I was able to feel that bliss-like state, with the last one, the energy was even MORE intense.
I literally fell in love with him during that first date – I have absolutely no doubt about that. Sadly, he started pushing me away and I believe it had a lot to do with the age difference. This is going to sound really crazy, but he was actually even younger than the other two. There was a 25-year age difference between us. I didn’t even think about that until he said that, but it’s true.
Being on the spiritual path, you start view things more from an energetic resonance perspective and to view things from a soul level, not necessarily a checklist that a partner must meet. And at the end of the day, we are souls, souls who have spent many lifetimes together, and that recognition is there.
Additionally, prior belief systems and constraints that society places on us, just don’t fit anymore.
I continue along this journey for now, getting glimpses of the Twin Flame energy and how amazing these connections can be, but still continue my solo path for now. I am grateful for the experiences – what they are teaching me about myself and showing me just how mysterious this life is as well, and ultimately – just how deep and intense our soul connections with others can be.
I want to talk about this concept because I feel that this might soon be happening to a lot of people. And of course, this is my perspective, other people will have their own unique experience.
My awakening began in earnest after my Kundalini activation in Nov. 2014. You can read more about that in my previous articles – Kundalini Activation through meeting Twin Flame and Kundalini Activation – Snake Dreams, Twin Flame Dreams.
The phase called “Dark Night of the Soul” will be different for everyone, but for me the Kundalini activation began a process where the energy began clearing blocks in my chakras – which takes time. For some, the activation can lead to enlightenment right away.
So as this energy does it’s thing – a lot of soul searching activity goes on. For me, this led to a lot of researching online and through reading books.
A lot of people somehow quite mysteriously, all seem to come across the work of Dolores Cannon. In case you don’t know who she is, she was a hypnotherapist who worked with clients who eventually began telling her some very interesting things that she documented through books. I had read one of her books “The Three Waves of Volunteers” and I had begun reading another one of her books called “The Convoluted Universe” and it was probably for the me, the straw that broke the camel’s back and thus my Dark Night of the Soul began in about March/April 2016.
It’s hard to remember the pain, and even harder to describe the type of pain that I was in.
I actually talked to someone else who had a Kundalini activation and they experienced the same – except for they had more of an enlightening experience after they experienced the “Dark Night of the Soul.”
I feel like it was my ego trying to die, but it wouldn’t, or couldn’t figure out how to make it happen. My friend said that they just surrendered, but I apparently did not know how to do that.
To give context to what is happening internally, I think I had been reading and digesting these various perspectives on “reality” and it all came to a head while reading Dolores’ book.
Some of these concepts included the perspective that “I am God, I create my own reality”. So this understanding to me, really affected my psyche. And I’m not a mental health professional in any way, so I may be totally off base here, but that is my perspective.
I don’t think we appreciate how much our psyche is impacted by our core beliefs. I always had this perspective that there was this “God” out there that I could pray to when I was down, that “had my back.” And now, it was like, well what now? Do I pray to myself? It’s just me??
Not only that, but I had also learned about the Earth’s true history. I had never really understood the concept of Jesus (I’ll do another post on that another time) and I thought the whole Adam and Eve story was weird, but I think I had always believed in humans, the normal story.
But since my awakening began, I had learned about the Annunaki, the Ancient Builder Race, our connection to other galactic races as “Starseeds” incarnating here on Earth, the Reptilians running the show as the Elite. I had learned about the beings from Lyra, Pleiades, Sirius and the Extra Terrestrial beings living here on Earth. So my whole identify and my place in the Universe and how I fit in had been turned upside down.
These two main concepts – I am God and I am not who I thought I was and our place in the Universe is vastly different than what I thought – I believe these were what finally caused me to have my Dark Night of the Soul.
I felt like I had nothing to stand on, my foundational beliefs had been demolished.
I remember I literally felt like I was falling while I was laying on my bed. It was this out of control like feeling and it was terrifying. I remember it felt like a series of mini nervous breakdowns – like each one was getting worse.
I felt this internal struggle going on – like my ego was trying to die, but I wouldn’t let it die. I just remember it was an internal pain like I had never known before.
But, my ego did not die – and I did not achieve ‘enlightenment’ which is what happens to many people after this process. If you are in the Spiritual Community, then you are probably very well aware of the people that have reached a certain level of enlightenment. I consider them my teachers. However, I believe that they are not always the best people to assist others because they are so far advanced – they almost become unrelatable. And I think that is partly why I kept myself at a certain level – in order to help those that are just in the process of waking up.
I believe 2020 is going to be one of those years where people will be forced to wake up – and probably rather abruptly.
These past years of these energetic waves that have been washing over the Earth – they are packets of Consciousness that are bringing darkness to light. We have to deal with our inner demons, this energy is not letting up. The time is up for those that have refused to look within themselves and address their traumas. Many of us have had years to process and work on ourselves and achieve a certain state of inner balance.
My hope for those that are still asleep is that they are able to navigate what is coming with as much assistance and guidance from those that are leading the way through this Great Awakening. Wayshowers – I believe our time is here.
One of the reasons I started this blog was to help provide answers/assistance to others on a Spiritual path. When my spiritual awakening happened, my Kundalini was activated which ended up opening me up pretty rapidly to psychic experiences. This included being very sensitive to energy. Things were kind of confusing at the onset, because I knew ‘something’ had happened related to my Twin Flame, but at the time I did not know it was a Kundalini activation nor did I know what all would happen. But one of the things that I started to experience was related to ‘feeling’ things and I thought it was connected to my Twin Flame. It was all very confusing. But before I get into more details about that, I’m just going to break down the various different energy experiences I’ve had and my current beliefs on what these experiences mean. As always – follow your own intuition for if my information resonates with you or not.
One of the frustrating things about this process is that it is hard to find information about what you experience. The way that I have learned is through listening and watching other people’s videos and reading books. However, a lot of the times, people will just throw out a nugget in the middle of an interview, or it is on a video where people are just asking random questions – so you end up just picking up information by chance. And good luck if you remember what video it was you were watching or what minute in the interview in case you want to go back and refresh your memory. So, I’m trying to develop articles about topics and name them appropriately so people can find the information that they are looking for – at least that is my hope…
Energetic rushes throughout my body
I started to experience this actually before my spiritual awakening. My dog of 14 years died in December of 2013. In dealing with the grief, I would sometimes wake up in the middle of the night and freak out realizing that he was gone. During those times, I would feel this energetic rush go throughout my body and I felt ‘love.’ The energy felt warm and comforting and definitely made me feel better. I always thought at that time, it was a sign from by dog, Bailey, that he was with me. Years later, I was watching a video by Psychic Bob and he said that these energetic rushes are your spirit guides way of raising your energy when you are in a low vibration due to grief/sadness. I thought that made sense. It’s comforting to know that we are receiving help – especially when we are going through hard times.
Goosebump ‘touches’ or ‘Truth Bumps’
This was one of the experiences that I first had that was really confusing. I was always feeling like someone was touching the top of my forearms. Again – since I knew everything was happening because of meeting my twin flame, at one point I thought it was him touching me and it was freaking me out. I would look down and find this little round patch of goosebumps. From what I understand, that is your spirit guides and what they do is temporarily lower their energy in order to match yours in order to communicate with you. They are also called “truth bumps.” I’ve also experienced these while journaling and thinking about something and my spirit guides will ‘touch’ me to give me a ‘yes’ to what I was currently thinking. These experiences kind of come and go at this point. I still experience it, but it was very prevalent early on after my kundalini activation.
Feeling light, no physical ‘body’
One of the ascension symptoms that I have felt is that when we get these incoming energy waves, sometimes I’m lying on my bed and I feel like I don’t have a physical body. It’s a very odd sensation, that is kind of cool, so when it’s happened, I’ve kind of just sat with that feeling. It’s like your body kind of disappears and you have an awareness of yourself, but the density of your physical body has lessened.
My body must have adjusted to the energy, because I haven’t felt this in a while, but it was very cool.
Energetic Dust Bunnies
These are kind of funny. I came across that term at some point – and it really is apropos. Sometimes, I’ll feel almost like this little energy ball rolling down my arm. I believe that it is other people’s energy that has just kind of made its way into your energy field. I’m not exactly sure why, but my gut instinct is that that person might be relying a little bit too much on you, so their energy might just ‘stick’ on you. This is one of the reasons I’m an advocate for clearing your energetic field on a daily basis. It’s just a good practice.
Physical touch – Hand on my arm
At one point, I had an Out of Body Experience and I remember as I was going back into my body, I remember thinking – oh, gosh I’m sliding down the bed, I’m going to run into my dog. That is when I felt this literal hand on my upper arm, grabbing me. I remember feeling freaked out and thinking “Please let me go, you are scaring me.” And then I felt the same energetic rush throughout my body after my dog had died like Experience No. 1. It felt like love and comfort. Later, I asked a psychic about this experience and they told me that when you go out of body, a lot of times, it’s a difficult transition to get back into the body, so your spirit guides have to help you sometimes. The energetic rush and feeling I experienced afterwards was them trying to let me know it’s okay – that it was them.
Energy sensations – tingling – face
I am working with a crystal right now called a Sentient Plasma Quartz Crystal. There isn’t much information written about it. But, one of the things that I experience when I hold it and meditate with it is that it makes my face tingle. I’m assuming that it is moving energy. It feels much like when you feel your 3rd eye tingle when you meditate, except this is on my cheeks.
Energetic rush – shape of a human
This is a cool one. I’ve felt it several times, and I felt this one quite recently. It’s an energetic rush that comes from the outside into your body, that is in the shape of a human, and sometimes it feels like they are hugging you. This is different than the energetic rush that goes through your body in Experience No.1. This one comes externally INTO your body. I believe that these are tied to people that we are involved with. I am not sure if it is their higher self or if it’s just their energy coming to you. But I believe that even though our ‘human’ selves might not physically be with one another, I believe our energy can have a will of its own and go where it damn well pleases – lol! I also feel that this experience happens when there is some deeper connection with another person. Maybe their 3D ego self acts like they are not interested, but either their higher self or some aspect of them has a different idea. So maybe they decide to come visit and give you a hug to let you know that they care about you.
Psychic cording is when we form energetic connections to other people through our chakras. These connections are not all bad, but sometimes they can be when other people have an unbalanced energetic pull on us and can drain our energy. We form them through our bonds with other people. So, I had this one experience where I actually felt someone cord to me. I feel like my whole spiritual awakening process is one big lesson. And I learned a lot from this particular experience. I think that are some people out there that are psychic, and they don’t know it, and they don’t know how powerful they are. In this case, I don’t think this person was actually aware at all of what they were doing – but I definitely think it is a pattern for them. I also learned that I apparently don’t have good energetic boundaries – lol! So, this person, was in general, emotionally needy. They looked at me very strongly and directly and the next thing I know, I feel this tug at my sacral chakra and I immediately felt sad and energetically drained. They had corded to me!!!!!!!!!! Of course, being naïve at the time, I immediately interpreted my experience to mean that ‘we must have had a past life together’ that’s why there is such a strong connection! However, later I realized no, that was someone cording to me and so I went through the process of cord cutting. Another energetic practice that I recommend on a daily basis.
Scratch on face/touching
At one point, I woke up in the middle of the night because I felt what resembled a fingernail scratching my face. Needless to say, it was unnerving. My dog does sleep in the bed with me, but he was not the perp. I turned on the lights and honestly think I kept the lights on the rest of the night. I am not sure what that was – a ghost? What was funny about it, is that I keep a huge piece of selenite on my nightstand to keep spirits away from me while I sleep. However, I just HAPPENED to have left my large selenite piece upstairs the same night that happened. Coincidence? I don’t know.
Another thing that people might experience is someone touching them. I have not had this experience, but I have family members who have. I believe that these are ghosts. They are just trying to get your attention. I personally would be doing some activities to get them out of my house – but that’s just me – to each their own. I have a portal in my guest bedroom upstairs – so I know ‘spirits/entities’ come into my house, but I keep the energy clear in my home through various practices.
Okay, so this is an odd one. One of the people that I feel is very connected to the spirit realm and who is gifted in helping other through their tools, is Cassady Cayne. I started following her work and purchasing her tools back when I met my Twin Flame. She has a lot of great energy clearing tools. One of them is a meditation to listen to. While I was listening to it, the first time, I literally felt these electrical currents go down my back. I have no idea how this stuff works – but something was happening! I’m assuming that it was energy being moved in my body where it needed to be moved and/or energy clearing that needed to happen. It was very unusual, and I’ve only experienced it that one time, while listening to one of her audios.
I also experienced this while listening to the same audio by Cassady Cayne. In fact, in the audio, in the exact moment that I felt something – she asks, “Did you feel that?” It was an audio that was clearing the chakras, and when the audio came to the heart chakra – I felt this energy sensation much like when you put a healing ointment on – such as Ben Gay where it’s kind of a cool burn. Again – I believe that this is clearing out energy.
Champagne bubbles in sacral chakra
Before my Kundalini energy unwound, I had this experience of this bubbling type sensation in my sacral chakra area. I came across an article that described this energy experience as “champagne bubbles” and that is EXACTLY what it felt like. I only experienced this for maybe a couple of days before my Kundalini was activated fully.
Kundalini ‘whip-like’ energy
Okay so this is an odd one, and not sure a lot of people will experience this, but if you have had your Kundalini activated, one of the things that can happen is that your body may jerk involuntarily. I’ve read different ways in which people may experience this – some people may have uncontrolled hand movements. For me, I have had these experiences where I’m laying in bed, and all of a sudden my entire body jerks and is lifted off of the bed rather violently and the best way I can describe it is whip-like, because it’s just quick and short. I noticed that this coincided when we had very strong energy waves. This happened a few years ago, and I haven’t had that those experiences recently. All I know is that it is related to Kundalini energy. I haven’t studied it that much to be honest. And that is one of the things – we just read and pick up what we can, there is just so much going on during a spiritual awakening – and it isn’t like you were taught about this growing up.
This is another experience related to Kundalini. Again – it’s very personal to each person, but I remember literally dancing around my house for 3 hours straight. You have all this energy and you don’t know what to do with it – so I ended up just dancing. However, the next day, I remember I couldn’t get out of bed – lol! I believe that you need to try and regulate these energy bursts – maybe through more structured means like running a bit, walking. Not going full on like I did and then burning yourself out.
So those are some examples of the various things that you may being to experience related to energy. I think it’s great that there are people out there that understand what the meaning is when things happen – however, that really hasn’t been my experience. I experience things and then try to figure out the meaning. I hope what I’ve shared has helped you if you are
One of the things that you may begin to experience as you begin your spiritual awakening process is that your psychic abilities may open. Everyone’s experience will vary, but some people may open quickly and that can cause a lot of emotional distress.
One thing that people may not be aware of, is that everyone has these capabilities. We tend to think of psychics as people who are ‘gifted’ with special abilities, however, we all have these abilities – it’s just a matter of developing them. Some people incarnated here with their abilities already developed because of their soul’s blueprint. There are a few reasons why we don’t all experience these abilities:
1) Belief systems – belief systems are extremely important, because we create our own reality through our thoughts, words, actions and most importantly – our feelings. So, if we believe that we don’t have them – then that is true for us – because we shape our own reality.
2) Fear – the ability to experience beings in other dimensions may cause fear in us because we don’t understand it and it may freak us out, thereby limiting our ability to experience those other realms
3) Pineal gland calcification – our pineal gland (also known as the third eye) is the main source of these abilities. Through various means – our pineal gland can become calcified over time, which will inhibit these abilities. One of the main causes is through fluoride in our water and toothpastes.
For most of us, we usually have a primary gift or two. If you want to open your psychic abilities, there are several things that you can do:
1) Evaluate your belief systems
2) Begin meditating
3) Put the intention out to the Universe through thoughts or statements “I have psychic abilities, I am psychic, etc.”
4) Work with a spiritual teacher
5) Research through videos, books, etc. and begin their specific practices or techniques
6) Reduce fluoride exposure
7) Research pineal gland decalcification practices – such as eating cilantro, raw cacao, etc.
8) Incorporate crystals that enhance psychic abilities such as amethyst, (pictured), lapis lazuli, labradorite, apatite and iolite are a few
So, what exactly are these abilities? Here are a few of the more common ones:
• To feel – Clairsentience
• To see – Clairvoyance
• To know – Claircognizance
• To hear – Clairaudience
• To smell – Clairolfactance
I’ll go over a few of the psychic experiences that I had after I had my Kundalini activation, which triggered my third eye opening (pineal gland activation).
One of the first things that happened psychically, was that I began to see black and white swirling patterns with my eyes closed as well as opened. I believe that this represented the yin and yang energy – masculine and feminine energy.
My clairaudience abilities also began to open and I started to hear what sounded like static – like in between radio stations. I felt like I could hear something being said, but I couldn’t quite hear it. One technique I’ve since learned about – is to act like you are physically turning a knob on the side of the head to see if that helps focus the sound so that you can hear clearly.
One of the more unnerving things that I began to experience was hearing disembodied voices. I remember trying to sleep at night and heard someone say “F” you – in my ear. I also remember someone in a British voice saying “hello.” I’ve heard my mom say my name, I’ve heard what sounded like a door opening in another dimension. Oddly, I also heard what sounded like a toilet lid slamming down. Some months later, I heard that while in hotel in Fort Lauderdale that apparently had very thin walls.
My guest bedroom has a closet that I always felt had weird energy located in the top of the closet. I can’t really explain the feeling, it just felt different. During one of my ‘no sleeping’ episodes, I had gone upstairs to sleep. While hanging out in bed, I began to hear someone that appeared to be walking across the attic – right where that weird energy was located. The attic boards were creaking very loudly, and I was fully expecting someone to just come walking out of the closet. Oddly, I was not afraid. Later, I asked a well-known psychic about that experience. She told me that was a portal, and I was hearing a ghost (an earthbound spirit).
One unusual thing that I also experienced was that I started to smell these phantom smells – smells that did not come from my personal physical experience. Some of the random scents that I experienced included: basil, mint, bubblegum, cigarette smoke, poop, sage burning and fresh baked cookies.
I also began to be more sensitive to energy. Some of this increased sensitivity included feeling energy coming through my body – which appeared to be in the same shape/form as a human. I normally felt this come through from my right-hand side. I’ll be honest – I’m not sure what that was about. I also began to experience these energetic touches – which looked like a small circle of goosebumps – that normally appeared on my forearms. I have since come to believe that these are a few different things. One thing is that I think your spirit guides temporarily lower their vibration in order to meet yours causing “Truth bumps.” So, this is feedback to let you know whatever you had been thinking about when you experienced these sensations is true. I’ve also experienced what I believe are ‘energetic dust bunnies’ which feels like a light energetic touch running down your arm. I’m not exactly sure why this happens, but I believe it’s associated with people in your environment who’s energy attaches to you – for some reason.
One of the more startling experiences I had – were interactions with negative entities. One evening I was trying to go to sleep and saw this small oval to round shape – about 1 foot long, fly across my body – near my stomach. I also saw it fly down the side of my bed when I was turning over towards the side of my bed. Later, I got up to use the restroom and saw a black shadow hovering near the ceiling. Once I looked at it, it disappeared. Sometime later, I decided to go see a reiki practitioner. After the session was over, she told me that I had two negative entities attached to me, but that she removed them. She explained that they are drawn to my light. I have since learned that once we open spiritually, and probably more so in a Kundalini activation, that our light suddenly gets brighter and becomes visible to the other realms. As we also open psychically, we can begin to see and experience them. So, these little entities are not connected to Source and so need our energy in order to sustain themselves. Although they were startling at first, their behavior was playful and mischievous.
I also experienced a traumatic event with a negative entity. I was again, not able to sleep and so had gone upstairs to the guest bedroom. I was in the hypnagogic state – which is where you are half asleep, half awake. I remember hearing these what sounded like claws, on the wooden floor on the 2nd floor where I was sleeping. I remember thinking to myself, well that can’t be the dog, because I blocked him off from coming upstairs, when suddenly, I saw this large black cloud going back and forth across the ceiling in the bedroom above me.
It had an oblong shaped ‘body’ and another round smaller area, which would be the ‘head.’ All I remember is being utterly terrified. I could see it, and I couldn’t move. I was trapped and it kept on going back and forth across the ceiling. In my mind, I was calling every person I could think of – Jesus, Mary, Archangel Michael, and no one was helping me. I was just trapped there. Once I finally ‘woke up’ my heart and chest were pounding so much – it was like I had just run 5 miles (and I don’t run). I went back downstairs to try and sleep. Later, I had asked a few psychics about these experiences. They basically said that some people have these experiences because they are going to help other people. You must understand the full landscape that exists in these realms to be able to work with them in order to help people.
Another ability that you may begin to experience is precognitive dreams. Precognitive dreams are dreams about events that are going to occur. I usually experience these right as I’m drifting off to sleep and they are usually startling. I experienced these before my Kundalini activation as well. One of the dreams I had was I saw blood on my big toe – like it had been cut. A few days later, I went to acupuncture and she hit a vessel on my big toe, and it started to bleed. (this isn’t normal during acupuncture in case anyone is wondering)
I also had a vision of a dog running out in front of a car. Again, this was very startling. Later, I ended up seeing a dog run in front of a car, but it did not get hit. Sadly, I heard that this dog eventually did end up getting hit and killed by a car.
Out of Body Experiences (OBEs)
Out of body experiences are really cool. You have an astral body that can project and leave your physical body. You feel free from your physical body and you just ‘fly’ through space and objects. One OBE that I had, I left my body and was traveling through this gray tunnel. The tunnel had writing on the wall. I remember being excited thinking that these were the Akashic records. (Akashic records are records of everything that has happened to you as a soul). As I slowed down to read what it said, there was a light on the words as I was trying to read it. But for some reason, as soon as I started to read it, I was whisked away to another area and never got to read it. As I was going back into my body, I remember doing this funny little loop above my body before I went back into my physical body. As I was going back in my body, I remember feeling like I was sliding down to the edge of the bed at the bottom. I remember thinking “I’m going to run into my dog” because he was sleeping at the foot of the bed. While this was happening, I remember feeling a physical hand grab my upper arm. I remember being scared and told them “please let me go, you are scaring me.” As I got back into my body, I felt this energetic rush and I felt this sense of love. Later, I asked a psychic about this experience and she told me that getting back into the body can be difficult and a lot of times your spirit guides must help you. She said that the energetic rush and feeling of love was them communicating to me to let me know it was okay and it was them.
• I would save up a list and ask a psychic about some of the experiences that you have so that you can have a better understanding of their meaning. People that I’ve done readings with and recommend Pamela Aaralyn, Magenta Pixie (not sure if she still does personal readings), and Psychic Bob.
• If you are having a bunch of psychic experiences and it is causing you distress – I’d recommend being grounded – this will help minimize the experiences. Your top chakras may be too open.
o Walk on the ground barefoot, or put your feet on the ground outside while sitting on a chair, etc.
o Do various grounding techniques – such as visualization
o Keep black tourmaline on you or any other grounding crystal (smoky quartz, hematite, red jasper)
o Burn sage throughout your house to keep the space energetically clear
o I also use the violet flame – I just imagine a violet flame engulfing me, my house and my yard – energy work is all about intention.
• If you encounter unwelcome spirits, just ask them to leave (you can do this telepathically or state it out loud “I ask you to leave my space immediately”). One thing that I’ve been taught to say regarding negative entities is “I invoke the I Am in me and ask you to leave in the name of Jesus Christ.”
• You can work with a healer
While psychic abilities are useful, they can also cause distress until you understand the meaning and have better control in utilizing these abilities. Some of us are thrown headfirst into these experiences and so just wing it until we figure it out. The main thing to know is that you are a sovereign being and can manage your interactions with entities in other realms. I had to learn that and now I feel more comfortable – but I certainly did not in the beginning. See other articles on Kundalini down below
I’ve been a bit behind on getting this post out weekly as I had planned. I think I’ve bit off more than I can chew. I plan to be better at getting this posted as I had originally planned, so expect a few posts today to get caught up to date!
As I was developing these posts, I decided to go through my old journals to review what happened. There were definitely a few things that I remember, as well, that stood out from this process. Those were:
Trying to understand the connection with the Twin Flame
So, this week, I plan to continue my discussion on Kundalini activation – and specifically the dreamtime experience as they seemed to be ALL CONSUMING after my activation occurred.
And I’m actually very glad that this part in the process is over and I’m in a much better place now. The Kundalini activation, and spiritual awakening process in general, starts an internal journey that is very confusing and mentally exhausting.
You begin to process emotions through the subconscious by way of dreaming. You must really pay attention to what is coming through your dreams because it is your subconscious bringing messages to your conscious to help you process emotions that you haven’t addressed.
The goal is to help you release these traumas because otherwise they are just stuck in your energetic field causing all sorts of problems.
One of the key signs of Kundalini activation is dreaming of snakes. This was one of the marked dream time characters that showed up in my dreams. The key is to pay attention to what is happening with the snakes and to evaluate the meaning. This will help you understand where you are in the process. The Kundalini energy is represented as 2 serpents and if you look at Egyptian statues – you will see a snake coming out of the 3rd eye area. It is also common to dream of two snakes as well. Currently, I continue to have dreams about snakes.
One of the things you may notice as well, is that various animals show up in your dreams. Some of the animals that showed up in my dreams included: turtles, guinea pigs, butterflies, alligators, sharks, owls, birds, jaguars, elephants, tigers, (a white tiger showed up once and to this day – that was one of my favorite dreams!), and wolves – literally I think almost every animal out there has shown up in my dreams!
The key to keep in mind here is that there are archetypal representations for animals, as well as your own personal feelings about those animals. While trying to understand the meaning, I would look up the overall representation as well as your own personal feelings about that particular animal.
As you try and understand the dream, what I would do is to write down the archetypal meaning as well as my own personal meaning and review them both and try to piece together what resonates best with what the meaning could be. As you review them, you may get a feeling inside as an internal resonance of ‘this rings true’ for me. That is your internal guidance system that is there to help guide you to your own personal truth.
Dreams about Twin Flame
One of the other prominent dreamtime experiences that you may have if you have met your Twin Flame – is to have them show up in your dreams. One of the reasons that I recommend writing down your dreams is because if you look back – you may find clues as to what will happen. In my case, I dreamt about both my twin flame coming into my life, as well as him leaving my life – both dreams I had before I met him. It was only until later as I was reading through my old journals that I could piece together several key points in the dream that indicated these situations that would occur later.
After meeting him, he then began to show up in my dreamtime quite frequently. At the time, I was very confused as to why. When it comes to people showing up in your dreams – there are a few things that can be happening. One is that they can represent an aspect of yourself. They can also be actual interactions in another plane of existence. From my perspective, they can also be other lifetimes, future events to occur, as well as interactions of your higher selves with each other. Sometimes I know that I have dreams about people after I encounter them in real life. In the case of the Twin Flame dreams – he was showing up way more than he normally would if it was the latter case, because I wasn’t interacting with him in the physical world that frequently.
I was very confused as to why he was showing up, because he appeared to be teaching me or guiding me in the dreams. Overall, I was freaked out because I couldn’t understand why he kept appearing in my dreams.
Although dreams are personal, I’ll share a few themes that showed up for me:
The purpose of the relationship – he was helping me as a spiritual guide
Dream with him in it indicating the Kundalini activation
Later – dreams about what was going on in his life and our connection
I could ask him a question (in my mind) before I went to sleep, and he would provide an answer in the dreamtime. I still have dreams about him. As we continue our spiritual evolvement, psychic connections and telepathy will continue to increase with everyone, regardless of the connection, but certainly easier with those we are closest to.
If you are having a Twin Flame connection, my recommendation would be to try and not focus so much on the connection itself. Instead, try to focus on doing your own inner work. The purpose of the connection is to serve as a spiritual catalyst. Most of us are not exactly ‘whole’ within ourselves and the intention, ultimately, it is to be a balance of the divine masculine and divine feminine within. We must learn to love ourselves and once we do, then we can have the unconditional love relationship that we are evolving towards. But we must heal internally first. Most of us have unhealed parts of ourselves that need to be examined and that process is best completed on our own.
If I could go back and do over or if there was someone there to guide me through the process I would:
Hang out with friends – get your mind off everything that is happening
To process the energy, exercise and do yoga regularly – exercise will help get your energy flowing and yoga will help with calming the mind
Do the internal work – counseling, doing research on your own – videos, books, blogs, etc.
Seek out reiki and acupuncture
Journal – to process and understand the dream meanings
o Symbols have universal meanings as well as your own internal meaning – so do research to allow for a full picture in order to develop your own conclusion as to the meaning
o Take apart each dream separately and analyze them and then try to piece together the meaning
o Over time, review the dreams and see if there is a storyline that connects the dreams
Incorporate energy clearing work/techniques. One website that has tools available for free and for purchase is http://www.twinflames1111.com Cassady Cayne runs that site and is very connected to the Collective Energy of twin flames. She provides a lot of energy programs – audio meditations, chakra clearing, karmic release, etc. I have purchased some of her programs and have had amazing experiences with them. One of her audios I purchased was an energy clearing one. As the energy clearing process went to my heart chakra – I could feel this hot/cold sensation – kind of like the bengay muscle pain reliever. And another time, I felt these electric sensations on either side of my spine that went down my back. She also has weekly forecasts as well as information on dream time interpretations.
So now that we’ve covered a bit about what to expect for the Spiritual Awakening process – both physical as well as emotional aspects to it, I thought I would describe my personal spiritual awakening process. My process involved Kundalini Activation after meeting my Twin Flame.
What is Kundalini?
I first learned about Kundalini in my early 20’s. It is an energy that is stored at the base of your spine. Once it is activated, it travels up through your chakras with the ultimate result of enlightenment. Everyone’s experience will be unique for them. For some, it can result in spiritual enlightenment – but that is probably more rare. Most of us have blocks in our chakras, so it initiates an internal spiritual awakening process that forces us to work through our issues, with the ultimate goal of reaching enlightenment. For some, the process can be traumatic and cause psychological issues which can result in varying degrees of mental distress.
What activates the Kundalini energy to be released?
I believe that there are a few different ways Kundalini energy is activated. A traumatic car accident can rattle the energy loose, or a near death experience.
It can also arise through spiritual practices such as through meditation and yoga. Many times people undergoing a spiritual awakening, I believe can have a Kundalini activation as they go through the “dark night of the soul.”
For others, it can be activated by someone who is already awakened – through looking through their eyes or through touch – a process called Shaktipat.
For others such as myself – it can be triggered as a result of meeting your Twin Flame – which is another person who shares the same energetic blueprint as you.
The Kundalini experience
The Kundalini experience is different for everyone. For some people it can be dramatic and people can end up in mental hospitals because their bodies/minds are not ready to handle that amount of energy and it can be very distressful all of a sudden having these chakra openings – such as the third eye. It can be very disorienting. People can also have extreme physical movements that are uncontrollable, so it can look like a seizure. I’ve experienced this a few times while going to sleep at night, and it is quite shocking. For me – it’s like I’ve been touched by a cattle prod or something – my whole body will jerk violently and lift off of the bed. That’s only happened a few times. (Thank God! – lol!)
So the Kundalini energy – once it unwinds, it moves up through the chakras, with the ultimate result of being enlightened. However, most people have blocks in their chakras, so what happens is that it triggers an internal process where the blocks are worked through. You kind of can’t help it. So this is what triggers the vivid dreams, the internal processing of emotions – you start to have emotions and you may never know the actual cause. It can open up your 3rd eye, so then all of a sudden you are dealing with all that comes with that.
Who experiences Kundalini activation or awakening?
I believe that it has to do with your soul’s journey and plan before you come to earth. Not everyone will have their Kundalini activated. From my perspective, the spiritual awakening process can occur without the Kundalini energy being activated. Having Kundalini activation is just a more intense spiritual awakening process.
The Initial Activation
So here’s my story. I met a person who I could tell was spiritually ‘awake’. When I first met them – I remember feeling this weird jittery feeling in my heart chakra area – like excitement. Much later, I eventually realized that this was indicative of a ‘soul recognition.’ Where your soul recognizes another soul. I also remember thinking to myself (oddly) that they ‘reminded me of myself when I was younger.’
They had a very strong energy and stood apart from everyone else – at least they did to me. They also had what I would call an ‘old soul eye’ that looked half dark on one side of the eye – the eye itself. It’s kind of hard to describe, because I’d never seen that before. But I noticed when this ‘old soul eye’ was ‘on’ – they would never make eye contact with me. I didn’t see it all the time, only sometimes.
Then one day, the ‘old soul eye’ was ‘on’ and I was trying really hard for them to make eye contact with me. Because I wanted to see what was in that ‘old soul eye.’ Well, telepathically, I heard “I see you wanting to look in my eye, so here…” and then they looked at my eye. I remember looking into this blackness and having this deep experience like I was observing the Universe and that I wanted to crawl into that space (odd I know).
Well, what I didn’t know is that by looking at my eye, he ‘activated’ my Kundalini – because he was my Twin Flame.
Magenta Pixie is the only person that I’ve come across that has the most accurate description of what happened to me. You can find the video called “Soul Recognition” at about minute 9:39…. She accurately describes what happens as ‘matter meets anti-matter.’ And the end result of that what the eye contact initiates.
So I’ll describe what happens next, I started to have these weird sensations, I remember sitting in my bed and feeling like I was physically being magnetically pulled towards him – even though he wasn’t there – it is hard to describe. Sounds odd – I know, but I physically felt my energy going toward him.
And then I started to feel these odd sensations in my sacral chakra area. I have heard it described as ‘champagne bubbles’ and that’s exactly what it felt like. I had these bubbles happen for a few days.
At this time, my sleep also became disrupted. So I remember going to sleep on the couch.
What is so funny is that I felt so weird about what happened next, that I didn’t even write it down in my journal. I was actually embarrassed, because I did not know what just happened.
The Kundalini Activation
So here’s what I remember, I was lying on my back, and I felt this really strong movement near the front of my spine/sacral chakra area, like something moving in there. I thought I was having spiritual sex or something – at the time, I did not understand what was happening. The energy was actually unwinding, or uncoiling – it felt very physical to me.
As it unwound, I felt these 3 – the best way to describe them would be – full body orgasms. And I also felt like my Twin Flame’s head or face was over to the top left side of the ceiling. It felt like he was there, but just his face.
Kundalini Effects – Chakra openings
There were a lot of different things that happened next, so these are not necessarily in the order in which they happened. So I started to hear this static-like sound in my ears, like I was in between radio stations – but I couldn’t quite hear what was being said.
When I would go to sleep at night, I could feel my heart pounding very strongly. This is the heart chakra being activated.
I also began to see (and I still experience this), both with my eyes closed and open, these black and white swirling clouds – that are connected at a point in the middle, and they just go around and around each other. But they get diffuse the further away from the middle where they are connected. The only thing that I can think of what this is, is the yin and yang energy – but I have not come across anyone else that has experienced this. I would usually see it when I would go to sleep at night.
There are so many things that happen as a result of Kundalini activation. In my next article, I’ll continue this discussion and focus on what happened when my third eye opened.
See links to other articles on Kundalini down below.
My intention with this blog is to help others who may be going through a Spiritual Awakening process and might not understand what is happening and need support on their journey. I intend to try to explain things in a somewhat logical order although that won’t always be the case as this topic has a lot of twists and turns.
So what is a Spiritual Awakening? Spiritual Awakening is an awakening to who you truly are as a soul. It is happening collectively, but it is an individual process. And the process is different for everyone. For some – it can be dramatic – as in a Kundalini Awakening. For others, it may just start as a feeling of discontent and/or you may begin to question things. And then there are others who are born ‘awake’ but that is rare.
Since everyone is at a different place, I’ll begin with some basics of what you may be experiencing:
You may feel upsetting emotions (anger, sadness, fear) that you can’t exactly determine why you feel that way
You may begin to feel disconnected from those around you – like you don’t really enjoy their company anymore. This can apply to friends, coworkers and even family members. And this feeling of disconnection can make you feel very lonely.
You may have odd sleeping patterns – waking up in the middle of the night and unable to go back to sleep.
You may experience bouts of fatigue and/or anxiety
Your body may become sensitive to certain foods, alcohol, and products
You may begin to notice that you see the same numbers like 11:11 and other repeating numbers like 333, 444, etc.
You may be to experience a myriad of different physical symptoms (I’ll discuss more in another article)
You may develop a sudden interest in your health – such as becoming vegetarian, vegan and learning more about mindfulness and alternative forms of healing – such as yoga, meditation and acupuncture
You may become interested in learning more about esoteric topics
You work may become so dissatisfying that you may begin to question your current line of work
You may begin to feel out of control emotionally – dark night of the soul
You may experience vivid dreams
You may begin to experience more supernatural types of experiences such as
Seeing or feeling spirits or entities
Seeing energy such as auras around people
Having out of body experiences
What is happening is that you are becoming more in alignment with your true self – what resonates with you who you truly are and becoming more aware of the Truth that has been hidden from you. As you begin this process, every area of your life becomes into clear focus for review to determine if it matches you. If not, it will be released to allow that which does to enter your life.
You will start to seek others, either consciously or unconsciously that are similar to you – that match your current vibration.
You soul will begin to direct the course of your life.
Once you realize what is happening, things will start to make more sense. I had a lot of issues early on because I had my 3rd eye open due to a Kundalini Awakening. It was experiencing a lot of supernatural things and couldn’t figure out how to make it stop. I was afraid to go to sleep at night. I don’t think most people are experiencing that, but I do plan to discuss that in more detail in a later article.
Besides all of the weird phenomenon I was experiencing, the most difficult part was not having anyone to talk about who could provide any explanation or to assist me in this process. What ended up helping me the most – emotionally – was finding other like-minded people that I could learn from and share information and to provide emotional support. It was probably the single best thing that helped me – as being isolated during this process makes it extremely challenging.
So fear not! We are all on this journey together! Although the process can be challenging, the rewards of living in alignment with your true self is worth the struggles you may encounter. My intention is to provide as much information and tools as possible to assist you on this journey!