While many of us knew 2020 was going to be a big year, I know I was not personally expecting things to go down like this. Interestingly, normally I’m all about planning trips and fun things to do throughout the year, but intuitively – I was not even thinking about planning anything for the first half of the year. I wasn’t even entertaining the idea of travel.
So, what exactly is going on? We find ourselves in a Twilight Zone of sorts. I wake up thinking – oh yeah – everything is still on pause, everything is still unknown, uncertain …unprecedented times of chaos it seems. Financial meltdowns, self-quarantine, fear of not having enough toilet paper – just had to throw that one in there😊
Life is on hold, with no real clear understanding of what the future will hold. Will we be in this mess for months? For years? How did things turn so quickly? Have we taken everything for granted? Of course, we have. Most of us have not lived through extreme times. Yes, there have been financial crises, yes there have been outbreaks. But something that is sweeping across the globe so widespread, so unseen? Shutting down entire industries like travel, entertainment, even restaurants and stores? No, I don’t think we’ve ever seen anything like this.
So, what gives? I will offer my perspective on what is unraveling. I don’t know what is going on ‘behind the scenes’ as some people talk about. I don’t have any insight or any intuition on that. But here is what I do know. If something this BIG is happening, where it is impacting not just one ‘nation’ or just a few ‘nations’ and instead is impacting the entire world as we know it – then this is HUGE. We must understand that for those of us that have been awake, we know the TRUTH. We know the big picture. We have known that the Earth and its inhabitants have been under a control that’s nefarious.
We know that people are suffering unnecessarily. We know the systems have been set up for the majority of humans to struggle and to be poisoned through various means and then have big pharma charge us an arm and a leg to be ‘healed.’ We know about the GMOs, glyphosate, chemtrails, fluoride, aspartame, high fructose corn syrup, EMFs.
We are aware of the desire to keep down our own inner awareness through various means – to do anything to keep us distracted from our own self-discovery of ourselves as infinite Creators. Through big sports, video games, porn. We try to escape our drudgery through alcohol, gambling, drugs, shopping. This is all on purpose. We are modern slaves, while the elite run the show. Half of the world’s wealth is owned by only 200-300 people. Let that sink in…
But it gets much worse than this. My soul’s purpose is not to focus on this extreme dark side that exists, but I would be remiss if I were to not acknowledge its existence. The dark forces on Earth have no concern for life, other than their own. And that is the basis for understanding that human sacrifice, sex rings and pedophilia is a huge part of their world. We, as human beings with a conscience – can’t even begin to understand it. I, as an extremely sensitive individual cannot spend much time on this aspect, but I am of the belief that it is happening and has been happening.
So how does this tie into what is happening now?
This battle between light and dark has been going on for some time. Many people who are still asleep, may not be aware, and still be living under the illusion of a false ‘reality.’
The Ascension process, or our spiritual evolution, is being triggered by energetic waves incoming from the Galactic Central Sun. These waves of light, consciousness, are reaching the Earth and its inhabitants. This energy is bringing light to dark areas. This darkness can no longer exist in this Light Energy.
The “Lightworkers”, you – reading this, have agreed to come to Earth at this time to assist with this Spiritual Evolution. You have heard the “Call” to help and answered this call as a Benevolent soul.
We have reached the apex of this battle between dark and light. It may be a rude awakening for many. If the ENTIRE WORLD has been thrown into chaos it is because it is not the ‘end of times’ it is just the beginning.
Old structures that do not serve must come down. Systems built on lies and greed must be righted. It is time for each and everyone of us to be able to live a life that is life affirming, not controlled and manipulated as it has been in the past.
So, what now? Have you ever had a life experience that humbled you? Made you appreciate what you had in your life? Made you open to your family, partner, friends or co-workers? Well now is that time.
This is the opportunity that we have been waiting for to open, to connect on a REAL level. No more mundane conversations about the weather or sports. It’s time to get real to ask “How are you doing? How are you REALLY doing? To hug – a real, genuine hug, (as appropriate)… an act of connectedness….
This is bigger than those layoffs that cost you your way of life, this is bigger than that hurricane that destroyed your home. This is about human connection. It’s about recognition of each and everyone of us as souls. When we look at each other in the eyes – it won’t be about fear because we realize that we have each other, because we don’t have a choice now – but to look each other in the eyes to connect. When everything is in chaos, we realize just how precious everything is. We aren’t distracted by our daily schedule or list of things to do. We stop. We give thanks. We reach out. We connect.
My desire for you is that you read this and take away a message of hope. I know it may seem as if there is so much unknown at this time. And while I acknowledge that, I also have faith in humanity that we can use this as an opportunity to finally really see each other and use the power of togetherness to continue our paths – in one of Love, Truth and Unity.
I thought I’d share a little information about what I have learned about myself from doing psychic readings.
Auras are our energetic signature. Some people can see them. I probably could if I tried, but I honestly don’t spend too much time practicing this. From what I understand, there are various different colors and those colors have different meanings (and these can vary from one person to another). So, you may come across different information from different people depending on how they interpret the colors.
The person that I resonate with the most regarding reading auras is Pamela Aaralyn. In fact, her website used to be called aura reader.
If you have been in the spiritual community, you have probably heard of the term “Indigos” and “Crystals.” And recently, the term “Rainbow” has come up regarding groups of souls that have certain colors and associated traits.
When I heard of the term Indigos – that always seemed to me to mean these were the system busters, the people who didn’t agree or align with the status-quo. I regarded them as leaders, who were more aware of the BS in which our typical lives unfold. I think they question our typical lifestyle of trying to acquire a bunch of crap and work for years at unfulfilling jobs. And I believe a lot of these people were waiting for the systems to fall, and it hasn’t yet, so they are rebelling and not necessarily going after the typical jobs and/or they choose their own path – one that is more in alignment with their soul. Maybe they decide to work some, then travel. They may also believe in having a simpler lifestyle – not just settling down into a large house that they are tied to for 30 years.
And then there are the Crystals. These are the sensitive souls. They are the ones that are here to help heal. In fact, Crystals are the most powerful healing type of souls because they can absorb and transmute other people’s energy. This may be controversial, and my intention is never to offend anyone, but I believe that a lot of the individuals that have been classified as ‘autistic’ are actually some of these highly evolved souls known as Crystals. I believe that they come into this world and this world is so different, so low energy as 3D and it’s almost like a shock to their system on a lot of different levels. From sounds, noises, chemicals, as well as the violence that exists on our planet.
Back in 2016, when I did one of my first readings, Magenta Pixie told me I was born an Indigo and was transitioning to Crystal. At the time, I really didn’t know what that meant. I had heard of these terms, but I didn’t understand the whole concept of transitioning.
Later, I did a reading with Pamela Aaralyn and she told me the same thing, except she said I was an “Aquamarine” aura transitioning to Crystal. She also said that I would either stay 50/50 or I would completely transition to Crystal. She also referred me to an article that she had written called “The Great Spiritual Awakening.” I actually didn’t read that article until sometime later – but once I did, it made so much sense!
According to Pamela, there was this overall plan for the Indigos to come in, blaze these new paths, and then the Crystals would come in, and help heal.
However, when the Crystals incarnated, a lot of them were not surviving to carry out the collective mission. So, the plan changed, for a lot of the Indigos, Aquamarines and others to transition to Crystal auras in order to keep the overall plan going.
What it feels like
Okay, so now I thought I’d talk a little bit about my own personal experience of what this has meant to me. I know I have always been someone who has been sensitive emotionally, but I’ve always been able to hide my emotions on the outside. I always kind of defined myself as a Scorpio with a poker face. I knew I was more sensitive on the inside – I just wouldn’t let people see that side of me. I would contain my emotions until I was in the comfort of my own environment.
However, I noticed in the last few years, I became VERY sensitive. In fact, I distinctly remember looking at a picture of a pink crystal on Pinterest and tears just started streaming down my face thinking that it was so beautiful. I think that was the first sign that I was like – okay, something weird is going on here. And as the months progressed, I started to get even more sensitive to stories – both good and bad. If it was a sad story, I would almost be traumatized and had some very tough times. Once I started to become more aware of this, I really, really backed off social media and my exposure to sad stories.
I would also get emotional to touching stories as well. The ones where the soldier reunites with their kids, the dog showing sadness when its owner died – I literally am getting choked up and crying right now as I even just THINK about this last scenario.
So, it doesn’t matter if it’s Pinterest, LinkedIN, Facebook – you name it, it has become a landmine for me emotionally. I have culled out friends that post sad stories, unfollowed everyone that posts anything remotely sad – even GOOD friends – I’m not kidding. I just can’t take it.
I’ve had coworkers start to tell me a sad story and I’ll start crying FOR THEM. It’s not even my situation, but I put myself in their shoes and just feel horrible. Now, I know this is an issue with boundaries – and I am working on that.
Food
The emotional aspect has been the toughest. But the other aspects are becoming more sensitive to everything in general. I have noticed that I go through phases of my body becoming sensitive to chemicals. Here are a few examples – I have tasted preservatives in a popular low-calorie alcoholic beverage (I won’t name names here). All I could taste was the chemical.
I used to drink coffee with flavored creamer – it began to taste like chemicals to me, so I stopped using them.
When I eat eggs, I only eat organic, I’ve eaten eggs at someone else’s home, and they didn’t use organic eggs and the eggs tasted horrible – I couldn’t eat them. Sometimes cheese (like normal shredded cheese) tastes like plastic to me. Sometimes the smell of meat smells like a dead animal to me and makes me want to gag.
So, your body becomes more sensitive to chemicals and preservatives. Recently I ate a meat kielbasa that was made with gluten. I did not realize I was sensitive to gluten and had a very bad reaction that had me out for a least a day. At one point, I was doubled over with stomach pain.
If this is happening to you – you will need to listen to your body, your body will start telling you what is and isn’t okay to eat.
Sensitive to Crowds/People and Certain People
I have periods where I cannot be in crowds at all, like I might have an anxiety attack. And in general, I avoid crowds by going early in the morning or shopping online if I must be around people. My backyard has become my personal sanctuary where I recharge.
At some points I have felt like my energy almost rejects other people sometimes – like I don’t even have control over it. It is like my tolerance for other peoples BS is at its limit and I just can’t do it. To me, if they aren’t in alignment with my own energy – them my energy won’t have anything to do with theirs.
I’ve also felt the need to be alone – a lot!
Clothing
Another thing that I’ve noticed is that certain fabrics get on my nerves. If fabric feels slimy or itchy – like it has some sort of synthetic fibers – then it gets on my nerves. I’ve heard a lot of people end up having to wear only organic cotton. It really depends on the persons level of sensitivity. I find myself only wanting to wear super comfortable clothes – not anything uncomfortable or anything irritating to me – it can even be the style of clothes – such as long flowy sleeves.
Electronics
I have noticed that my dining room lights seem to flicker after I’ve had energy treatments and my energy is higher than normal. I usually just put out a few grounding crystals such as black tourmaline and hematite to even out everything. Recently, my car battery went out – I’m on my 3rd one and my car is only 4 years old, so I’m really wondering if I’m draining the energy out of it? I don’t know.
The spiritual awakening process overall to me is about becoming more self-aware. The more that we wake up and become in tune and in alignment with our true nature, then our surroundings and our experiences inevitably change. The key is to take note and follow your own intuition and guidance. There you will find your own sense of peace.
I want to talk about this concept because I feel that this might soon be happening to a lot of people. And of course, this is my perspective, other people will have their own unique experience.
My awakening began in earnest after my Kundalini activation in Nov. 2014. You can read more about that in my previous articles – Kundalini Activation through meeting Twin Flame and Kundalini Activation – Snake Dreams, Twin Flame Dreams.
The phase called “Dark Night of the Soul” will be different for everyone, but for me the Kundalini activation began a process where the energy began clearing blocks in my chakras – which takes time. For some, the activation can lead to enlightenment right away.
So as this energy does it’s thing – a lot of soul searching activity goes on. For me, this led to a lot of researching online and through reading books.
A lot of people somehow quite mysteriously, all seem to come across the work of Dolores Cannon. In case you don’t know who she is, she was a hypnotherapist who worked with clients who eventually began telling her some very interesting things that she documented through books. I had read one of her books “The Three Waves of Volunteers” and I had begun reading another one of her books called “The Convoluted Universe” and it was probably for the me, the straw that broke the camel’s back and thus my Dark Night of the Soul began in about March/April 2016.
It’s hard to remember the pain, and even harder to describe the type of pain that I was in.
I actually talked to someone else who had a Kundalini activation and they experienced the same – except for they had more of an enlightening experience after they experienced the “Dark Night of the Soul.”
I feel like it was my ego trying to die, but it wouldn’t, or couldn’t figure out how to make it happen. My friend said that they just surrendered, but I apparently did not know how to do that.
To give context to what is happening internally, I think I had been reading and digesting these various perspectives on “reality” and it all came to a head while reading Dolores’ book.
Some of these concepts included the perspective that “I am God, I create my own reality”. So this understanding to me, really affected my psyche. And I’m not a mental health professional in any way, so I may be totally off base here, but that is my perspective.
I don’t think we appreciate how much our psyche is impacted by our core beliefs. I always had this perspective that there was this “God” out there that I could pray to when I was down, that “had my back.” And now, it was like, well what now? Do I pray to myself? It’s just me??
Not only that, but I had also learned about the Earth’s true history. I had never really understood the concept of Jesus (I’ll do another post on that another time) and I thought the whole Adam and Eve story was weird, but I think I had always believed in humans, the normal story.
But since my awakening began, I had learned about the Annunaki, the Ancient Builder Race, our connection to other galactic races as “Starseeds” incarnating here on Earth, the Reptilians running the show as the Elite. I had learned about the beings from Lyra, Pleiades, Sirius and the Extra Terrestrial beings living here on Earth. So my whole identify and my place in the Universe and how I fit in had been turned upside down.
These two main concepts – I am God and I am not who I thought I was and our place in the Universe is vastly different than what I thought – I believe these were what finally caused me to have my Dark Night of the Soul.
I felt like I had nothing to stand on, my foundational beliefs had been demolished.
I remember I literally felt like I was falling while I was laying on my bed. It was this out of control like feeling and it was terrifying. I remember it felt like a series of mini nervous breakdowns – like each one was getting worse.
I felt this internal struggle going on – like my ego was trying to die, but I wouldn’t let it die. I just remember it was an internal pain like I had never known before.
But, my ego did not die – and I did not achieve ‘enlightenment’ which is what happens to many people after this process. If you are in the Spiritual Community, then you are probably very well aware of the people that have reached a certain level of enlightenment. I consider them my teachers. However, I believe that they are not always the best people to assist others because they are so far advanced – they almost become unrelatable. And I think that is partly why I kept myself at a certain level – in order to help those that are just in the process of waking up.
I believe 2020 is going to be one of those years where people will be forced to wake up – and probably rather abruptly.
These past years of these energetic waves that have been washing over the Earth – they are packets of Consciousness that are bringing darkness to light. We have to deal with our inner demons, this energy is not letting up. The time is up for those that have refused to look within themselves and address their traumas. Many of us have had years to process and work on ourselves and achieve a certain state of inner balance.
My hope for those that are still asleep is that they are able to navigate what is coming with as much assistance and guidance from those that are leading the way through this Great Awakening. Wayshowers – I believe our time is here.
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Once you start to awaken spiritually – you will start to change on a lot of levels. One of the most profound changes for me was that I just felt ‘different’ internally. On the outside, I looked the same, and I can see how no one would know or not understand how I had changed, but I knew I had.
Part of this process comes with this longing to connect with others that are going through what you are going through. You start to feel isolated, alone and unable to relate to your partner, friends, family and co-workers. It can cause a real sense of distress.
Some people may even call this a “lonely path.” But it doesn’t have to be!
I believe as Starseeds, we agreed to come to Earth to assist during the Ascension. Part of that agreement involved having pre-planned “Blueprints” to meet up with our fellow Starseeds, and specifically our “Soul Tribe.”
My Kundalini activation happened in Nov. 2014. I discuss that in these articles
During that period of great searching, I came across a website called In5D.com
I was so excited and thrilled to finally come across some information on topics that I was interested in. I devoured the articles and searched the database for anything I could read.
One day, I came across an article on “High Vibe” food. The article totally made sense and one of the things that stood out to me the most that I loved, was this communication that everyone’s needs are different. The author was not trying to shove her beliefs onto everyone.
I immediately looked up the author – Bridgett Nielson and found that she had a retreat in the next 2 months in Sedona, Arizona! It was preparing high vibe food, meditation and visiting a few sites. I thought that sounded perfect! I was excited about it – but at the same time scared!
What happened next is to me what I find so intriguing. And on this journey, you will find things such as this, and others that are both intriguing and mysterious.
As I was sitting at the computer pondering if I should sign up for this retreat or not, I literally felt as if my arm was being guided (pushed really) to sign up for the class. I believe that this was one of my Spirit Guides encouraging me to attend.
The next day, I woke up in shock. Did I really sign up for that class? What was I thinking? I was absolutely terrified!
I am an introvert and I absolutely HATE group pow wows – it is so not me!
After a while, I got over it and actually made the trip a few months later.
It was interesting because I think the group of us at the retreat all knew something was up. It felt different. I think we all knew it was special – but I personally didn’t know exactly why. Later I realized it was because I had met my Soul Tribe – people that were going to be instrumental to me on this journey and that we had known each other before. I believe that Bridgett brings soul families together through her retreats.
Being alone on this journey beforehand and now meeting up with all of these people on their own unique journey and all of them having very high energy – it was exciting and overwhelming at the same time.
Several of the people at this retreat had met during other retreats. I was ‘new’ to the group, as well as a few others.
During the retreat we learned a lot, connected, shared out experiences, books and all sorts of helpful information.
But one of the most profound experiences for me – was the triggering of memories!
After this retreat, I had many, many dreams, several of which I have no idea where or when these ‘past life’ experiences happened or the meaning, but meeting everyone activated these memories.
I remember meeting one couple, who I instantly adored, and later having a dream together with them where it was clearly Atlantis!
One of the benefits of meeting our Soul Tribe, is to receive activations from being in each other’s presence.
After the retreat was over, we stayed connected through Facebook.
The following year, a couple of the ladies from this retreat planned a trip to swim with the dolphins in Bimini (Atlantis).
If you are interested, you can watch my video on that experience here:
Again, this put me out of my comfort zone, as I am terrified of the ocean, but I thought this must be something that I’m supposed to go to, so I agreed to attend.
Again – this trip was probably the most ‘activating’ I have experienced. And I think part of these activations happen because other activations have happened previously – both by being in high vibe locations as well as meeting other people.
The following year, one of the guys in our group had read about how important it was to travel to Hot Springs, Arkansas – because of the vast expanse of crystals underneath the Hot Springs area had been activated. So, a group of us traveled there to meet up, connect, and dig for quartz crystals!
What was interesting about this trip, was the very first night I was there I had this really weird ‘explosion’ type of experience – like over my head. It’s hard to explain. I felt like I definitely had some sort of activation while being there.
If you’ve ever had a Kundalini activation, sometimes there is this blinding white light and an associated ‘explosion’ type of experience that I believe is your 3rd eye activating. This experience was very similar to that.
And just last year, 2019, several of us traveled together for the most amazing experience in Peru and Bolivia for 2 weeks visiting all of the sacred sites including Machu Picchu, Puma Punka and Tiahuanaco as a few examples.
And when we are not traveling, we stay connected through WhatsApp (texting app) sharing our experiences, getting feedback and support from each other during the year.
On this journey, I think that there are a few different scenarios that we can experience as it relates to connecting with others on our spiritual journey. We might have friends and family that listen to us – but don’t really understand, because they aren’t at the same place. That kind of interaction is okay, but it can still feel very isolating. When you find your Soul Tribe, you finally feel like you can breathe a sense of relief. These are people who are going through what you are going through. You feel connected, you don’t feel so alone and isolated. This is the goal. We want to be able to connect on a deep level. The journey is ultimately about remembering our own Divinity. This process is not easy and requires a lot of inner work. These people will walk through the mud with you. You can open up, share your vulnerabilities, cry, laugh and learn together. It’s such a blessing to have. I truly wish each and everyone reading this that you find your Soul Tribe – because it’s been a lifesaver for me.
One of the reasons I started this blog was to help provide answers/assistance to others on a Spiritual path. When my spiritual awakening happened, my Kundalini was activated which ended up opening me up pretty rapidly to psychic experiences. This included being very sensitive to energy. Things were kind of confusing at the onset, because I knew ‘something’ had happened related to my Twin Flame, but at the time I did not know it was a Kundalini activation nor did I know what all would happen. But one of the things that I started to experience was related to ‘feeling’ things and I thought it was connected to my Twin Flame. It was all very confusing. But before I get into more details about that, I’m just going to break down the various different energy experiences I’ve had and my current beliefs on what these experiences mean. As always – follow your own intuition for if my information resonates with you or not.
One of the frustrating things about this process is that it is hard to find information about what you experience. The way that I have learned is through listening and watching other people’s videos and reading books. However, a lot of the times, people will just throw out a nugget in the middle of an interview, or it is on a video where people are just asking random questions – so you end up just picking up information by chance. And good luck if you remember what video it was you were watching or what minute in the interview in case you want to go back and refresh your memory. So, I’m trying to develop articles about topics and name them appropriately so people can find the information that they are looking for – at least that is my hope…
Energetic rushes throughout my body
I started to experience this actually before my spiritual awakening. My dog of 14 years died in December of 2013. In dealing with the grief, I would sometimes wake up in the middle of the night and freak out realizing that he was gone. During those times, I would feel this energetic rush go throughout my body and I felt ‘love.’ The energy felt warm and comforting and definitely made me feel better. I always thought at that time, it was a sign from by dog, Bailey, that he was with me. Years later, I was watching a video by Psychic Bob and he said that these energetic rushes are your spirit guides way of raising your energy when you are in a low vibration due to grief/sadness. I thought that made sense. It’s comforting to know that we are receiving help – especially when we are going through hard times.
Goosebump ‘touches’ or ‘Truth Bumps’
This was one of the experiences that I first had that was really confusing. I was always feeling like someone was touching the top of my forearms. Again – since I knew everything was happening because of meeting my twin flame, at one point I thought it was him touching me and it was freaking me out. I would look down and find this little round patch of goosebumps. From what I understand, that is your spirit guides and what they do is temporarily lower their energy in order to match yours in order to communicate with you. They are also called “truth bumps.” I’ve also experienced these while journaling and thinking about something and my spirit guides will ‘touch’ me to give me a ‘yes’ to what I was currently thinking. These experiences kind of come and go at this point. I still experience it, but it was very prevalent early on after my kundalini activation.
Feeling light, no physical ‘body’
One of the ascension symptoms that I have felt is that when we get these incoming energy waves, sometimes I’m lying on my bed and I feel like I don’t have a physical body. It’s a very odd sensation, that is kind of cool, so when it’s happened, I’ve kind of just sat with that feeling. It’s like your body kind of disappears and you have an awareness of yourself, but the density of your physical body has lessened.
My body must have adjusted to the energy, because I haven’t felt this in a while, but it was very cool.
Energetic Dust Bunnies
These are kind of funny. I came across that term at some point – and it really is apropos. Sometimes, I’ll feel almost like this little energy ball rolling down my arm. I believe that it is other people’s energy that has just kind of made its way into your energy field. I’m not exactly sure why, but my gut instinct is that that person might be relying a little bit too much on you, so their energy might just ‘stick’ on you. This is one of the reasons I’m an advocate for clearing your energetic field on a daily basis. It’s just a good practice.
Physical touch – Hand on my arm
At one point, I had an Out of Body Experience and I remember as I was going back into my body, I remember thinking – oh, gosh I’m sliding down the bed, I’m going to run into my dog. That is when I felt this literal hand on my upper arm, grabbing me. I remember feeling freaked out and thinking “Please let me go, you are scaring me.” And then I felt the same energetic rush throughout my body after my dog had died like Experience No. 1. It felt like love and comfort. Later, I asked a psychic about this experience and they told me that when you go out of body, a lot of times, it’s a difficult transition to get back into the body, so your spirit guides have to help you sometimes. The energetic rush and feeling I experienced afterwards was them trying to let me know it’s okay – that it was them.
Energy sensations – tingling – face
I am working with a crystal right now called a Sentient Plasma Quartz Crystal. There isn’t much information written about it. But, one of the things that I experience when I hold it and meditate with it is that it makes my face tingle. I’m assuming that it is moving energy. It feels much like when you feel your 3rd eye tingle when you meditate, except this is on my cheeks.
Energetic rush – shape of a human
This is a cool one. I’ve felt it several times, and I felt this one quite recently. It’s an energetic rush that comes from the outside into your body, that is in the shape of a human, and sometimes it feels like they are hugging you. This is different than the energetic rush that goes through your body in Experience No.1. This one comes externally INTO your body. I believe that these are tied to people that we are involved with. I am not sure if it is their higher self or if it’s just their energy coming to you. But I believe that even though our ‘human’ selves might not physically be with one another, I believe our energy can have a will of its own and go where it damn well pleases – lol! I also feel that this experience happens when there is some deeper connection with another person. Maybe their 3D ego self acts like they are not interested, but either their higher self or some aspect of them has a different idea. So maybe they decide to come visit and give you a hug to let you know that they care about you.
Psychic cording
Psychic cording is when we form energetic connections to other people through our chakras. These connections are not all bad, but sometimes they can be when other people have an unbalanced energetic pull on us and can drain our energy. We form them through our bonds with other people. So, I had this one experience where I actually felt someone cord to me. I feel like my whole spiritual awakening process is one big lesson. And I learned a lot from this particular experience. I think that are some people out there that are psychic, and they don’t know it, and they don’t know how powerful they are. In this case, I don’t think this person was actually aware at all of what they were doing – but I definitely think it is a pattern for them. I also learned that I apparently don’t have good energetic boundaries – lol! So, this person, was in general, emotionally needy. They looked at me very strongly and directly and the next thing I know, I feel this tug at my sacral chakra and I immediately felt sad and energetically drained. They had corded to me!!!!!!!!!! Of course, being naïve at the time, I immediately interpreted my experience to mean that ‘we must have had a past life together’ that’s why there is such a strong connection! However, later I realized no, that was someone cording to me and so I went through the process of cord cutting. Another energetic practice that I recommend on a daily basis.
Scratch on face/touching
At one point, I woke up in the middle of the night because I felt what resembled a fingernail scratching my face. Needless to say, it was unnerving. My dog does sleep in the bed with me, but he was not the perp. I turned on the lights and honestly think I kept the lights on the rest of the night. I am not sure what that was – a ghost? What was funny about it, is that I keep a huge piece of selenite on my nightstand to keep spirits away from me while I sleep. However, I just HAPPENED to have left my large selenite piece upstairs the same night that happened. Coincidence? I don’t know.
Another thing that people might experience is someone touching them. I have not had this experience, but I have family members who have. I believe that these are ghosts. They are just trying to get your attention. I personally would be doing some activities to get them out of my house – but that’s just me – to each their own. I have a portal in my guest bedroom upstairs – so I know ‘spirits/entities’ come into my house, but I keep the energy clear in my home through various practices.
Electrical currents
Okay, so this is an odd one. One of the people that I feel is very connected to the spirit realm and who is gifted in helping other through their tools, is Cassady Cayne. I started following her work and purchasing her tools back when I met my Twin Flame. She has a lot of great energy clearing tools. One of them is a meditation to listen to. While I was listening to it, the first time, I literally felt these electrical currents go down my back. I have no idea how this stuff works – but something was happening! I’m assuming that it was energy being moved in my body where it needed to be moved and/or energy clearing that needed to happen. It was very unusual, and I’ve only experienced it that one time, while listening to one of her audios.
Warming sensation
I also experienced this while listening to the same audio by Cassady Cayne. In fact, in the audio, in the exact moment that I felt something – she asks, “Did you feel that?” It was an audio that was clearing the chakras, and when the audio came to the heart chakra – I felt this energy sensation much like when you put a healing ointment on – such as Ben Gay where it’s kind of a cool burn. Again – I believe that this is clearing out energy.
Kundalini Energy
Champagne bubbles in sacral chakra
Before my Kundalini energy unwound, I had this experience of this bubbling type sensation in my sacral chakra area. I came across an article that described this energy experience as “champagne bubbles” and that is EXACTLY what it felt like. I only experienced this for maybe a couple of days before my Kundalini was activated fully.
Kundalini ‘whip-like’ energy
Okay so this is an odd one, and not sure a lot of people will experience this, but if you have had your Kundalini activated, one of the things that can happen is that your body may jerk involuntarily. I’ve read different ways in which people may experience this – some people may have uncontrolled hand movements. For me, I have had these experiences where I’m laying in bed, and all of a sudden my entire body jerks and is lifted off of the bed rather violently and the best way I can describe it is whip-like, because it’s just quick and short. I noticed that this coincided when we had very strong energy waves. This happened a few years ago, and I haven’t had that those experiences recently. All I know is that it is related to Kundalini energy. I haven’t studied it that much to be honest. And that is one of the things – we just read and pick up what we can, there is just so much going on during a spiritual awakening – and it isn’t like you were taught about this growing up.
Hyper energy
This is another experience related to Kundalini. Again – it’s very personal to each person, but I remember literally dancing around my house for 3 hours straight. You have all this energy and you don’t know what to do with it – so I ended up just dancing. However, the next day, I remember I couldn’t get out of bed – lol! I believe that you need to try and regulate these energy bursts – maybe through more structured means like running a bit, walking. Not going full on like I did and then burning yourself out.
So those are some examples of the various things that you may being to experience related to energy. I think it’s great that there are people out there that understand what the meaning is when things happen – however, that really hasn’t been my experience. I experience things and then try to figure out the meaning. I hope what I’ve shared has helped you if you are
The concept of dimensions really intrigues me, but I’ll admit I haven’t been able to explore this topic very much. There are a lot of rabbit holes to go down. However, it’s important to have a basic understanding and I can share what I’ve learned thus far.
We came to Earth to experience the 3D world. Most of us would not be able to handle experiencing the other dimensions and the beings in these other dimensions while on Earth. However, some people came in with the blue print (or soul plan) to be fully open and aware of beings that exist in other dimensions and while here on Earth.
I think a majority of us operate from our current ‘life’ within this 3D world. We are fully rooted in this 3D life – families, school, careers, friends, etc. Most of us have probably have the perspective that we have a soul and that when we die, our soul carries on – in Heaven, or somewhere – out there in space – lol! However, once we start to awaken spiritually, we really begin to expand our awareness to the vastness of existence and how maybe we are not as ‘alone’ as we think. It reframes our world and our place in it.
Everyone’s spiritual awakening process is different. For mine, I’m reminded of that funny skit on Saturday Night Live where 2 people had 2 completely different experiences of being abducted by aliens. One was bathed in light and felt like they were wrapped in pure love. The other one ended up peeing over a bowl and had her boobs batted back and forth by an alien. Lol! My experience wasn’t involving aliens, however, it was similar in that I didn’t experience the bliss like euphoric state and see angels that some people experience during their awakening. In fact, it was quite the opposite. I ended up opening up initially to the 4th dimension – which is the place of nightmares.
And again, each of us has our own journey and our own reasons and purpose for what we experience. But before we get into the dimensions, let’s talk a little a bit about them in general.
Seeing into Dimensions
We are used to focusing on tangible objects in our environment. But there are beings and things in other dimensions around you all of the time. When it comes to dimensions and experiences though, I do see some stuff that I am not sure what dimension it is in. One of the techniques that you can try to see into other dimensions, is to unfocus your eyes while you are lying down on your bed at night. As long as there is a little bit of light coming in, you should start to see shapes moving about. I’ve seen things moving around – but I don’t know what they are. Kelli Coffee has referred to it at one time as “space junk.” One time I remember seeing what resembled sea kelp hanging down and moving gently side to side from my ceiling.
Being a Fractal
It’s also important to bring up at this time, the concept of you as a “Fractal.” We tend to think of ourselves as our physical body, when in fact, that is just one aspect of ourselves. Have you heard of the concept of your ‘higher self?’ That would be a fractal of yourself that exists in another dimension. There are other fractals existing in other dimensions as well, but most people are just focused on the one that is playing the more important role for them now, which would be the higher self.
4th Dimension
So now I’ll discuss what I’ve experienced and have come to understand about the 4th dimension. There are beings in the 4th dimension that are not connected to Source. They are projections of energy that have manifested in some form – from black shadows (roundish) to more complex demonic beings. I have experienced a lot of different ‘beings’ in this dimension – but I’ll save that for another article. In the 4th dimension, since these beings are not connected to source, they need to ‘feed’ off of others energy in order to sustain themselves. I believe, but am not 100% sure on this, that this is also where manifestation begins. So before we create into our 3D reality, we put forth our words and thoughts. It’s important for us to understand this because there is a lag time between what we think and what we manifest. In the 5D experience, it is immediate. I’ve noticed this in particular lately, where I think of something, and it immediately appears, so this is kind of a training ground for us to be more mindful of our thoughts, because in time, there will not be a time lag between thought and manifestation.
5th Dimension
The 5th Dimension is what we are evolving to. The 5th dimension is where we lose duality, we no longer see ourselves as separate as others. It is all about love. I’ve personally noticed lately in the last few months, this bliss like state being more frequent. However, it also appears that the lows seem to be a deeper low. So it’s super high, then it drops down. It’s a process – we are all continually evolving.
Now I’ll share what I’ve experienced in 5D. During my trip to Bimini (Atlantis), I had one experience where everything in the hotel room became outlined in blue lines and intermittent blue circles. It was very odd and only lasted for a few seconds. It reminded me of that movie Tron with the straight lines. A few months later, I came across a video where Kelli Coffee was showing a video with those same blue lines/circles. She said that she sees those in the 5th dimension! So that was validation for me. Also, sometime later I came across an article by Lisa Transcendance Brown and she had pictures showing the exact same thing.
6th Dimension and higher
In the higher dimensions, ‘form’ becomes more about geometry and lights. As you increase in dimensions, this is an increase in vibration. When you hear about people ‘seeing’ Angels, etc. it is because they take on a recognizable form so that they won’t freak you out, and because it is what is familiar to you. There is a really funny video where Kelli Coffee talks about Archangel Michael and he ends up showing up in her living room. She then realizes that he also takes the form of a blue light, which is his true form. It’s really a great video and highly entertaining to watch.
So let’s now talk about a few other things in other dimensions.
Ghosts
Ghosts are Earthbound spirits. They are not in the 3D world. According to Psychic Bob – they are stuck, they have not gone to the light. It is not a good place to be in. He refers to it as Purgatory.. Whatever location you want to call it, they are definitely around in our spaces. I’ve had a few experiences with Earthbound spirits – most were okay, but one was not cool. However, now I have more knowledge and power and am not afraid. Ghosts are disembodied spirits that you can communicate with, you can sometimes see them or feel their presence. They can also touch you and throw things – if they have enough power. The main thing that you want to know about ghosts is that you shouldn’t be afraid of them. They are actually suffering.
If you are interested in learning more about ghosts – I highly recommend that you check out this video by Psychic Bob where he covers the basics and goes into further details about why some people end up as ‘ghosts.’
I’ve had experiences where I’ve seen small multi-colored lights flitting around in my room. In fact, my dog was also watching it and following it with his head. I believe that these are spirits. These were really cool experiences actually.
Orbs
From what I understand, orbs are spirits that are traveling through dimensions, so they can take that form in order to travel.
So that’s my understanding of Dimensions at this time. Again – it’s a topic that I really want to explore some more once I get a chance, because I find it fascinating. But it’s very important to have a basic understanding when you start to awaken, because as we grow and evolve spiritually, you may encounter beings in other dimensions. Our ‘reality’ is not what we’ve been taught to believe.
I don’t even know where to start on this. It’s been awhile since I’ve posted and partly it’s because of something I experienced a few weeks ago, and have not felt ready to talk about it. I have not completely processed it, and have put it ‘in a box’ for now. I take it out and process it a little at a time, but I probably still need to go see a healer about it at some point because I know the emotions are still trapped in my energy body.
A few weeks ago I had one of the most terrifying experiences of my life.
I was driving down the street and I saw this guy that made me laugh. He was very fit and wearing work out clothes, but he was wearing a mask on his face. So I decided to take a picture. After I took the pic, I felt like I had just looked at a building that was reflecting the sun – where you accidentally get kind of temporarily blinded.
Where you have this one area in your eye were you can’t see. But I was like ‘it will go away’, I honestly didn’t remember looking at a blinding reflection, but as I was driving, it continued to get worse and I kept on thinking it would go away eventually. It started changing to where it like this jagged edge on my vision.
And I actually couldn’t see very clearly at all on the right hand side of my vision. Because it was impacting my ability to see so bad while I was trying to drive and because I was freaking out, I ended up having a panic attack. I don’t even know how to describe what that feels like. Utter terror, everything becomes overwhelming physically I felt hot, I didn’t know what to do, trying to change lanes, I could barely see out of the right hand field of my vision.
I was afraid if I pulled off of the highway, I wouldn’t be able to make myself drive again.
I rolled down my window a little bit to try and get grounded. I grabbed my black tourmaline crystal out of my purse and put it on my lap. I called out to Archangel Micheal to help me. It was absolutely terrifying. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. After awhile, my vision came back to normal and my panic attack subsided and then I just started crying. My body felt completely tensed up – I could feel all of the tension and stress I had just experienced.
I went home and I was never so grateful to be at home, be safe and connected to the Earth. I hadn’t been drinking very much, but I poured myself a glass of wine and just sat on the edge of my deck with my feet on the ground and hugged my dog, Shiner.
I was so relieved and yet traumatized over what I had just experienced.
My first thoughts were I have a serious medical issue, I immediately thought it must have been caused by one of the new supplements I had been taking – Vitamin B12, reishi, chaga or schizandra? I did this to myself I thought. I didn’t do the due diligence or maybe this was some horrible disease, or brain tumor and I immediately thought I needed to schedule an eye exam. I was scared for my health. Eventually I went back inside to relax.
It wasn’t until a few days later that I thought wait…maybe this was from that guy I took a photo of? It happened immediately after I took the photo.
But what was that? Did he do something to me?
I decided to schedule a reading with a psychic that I have worked with before.
What she told me left me even more traumatized.
What I learned from the psychic
I scheduled the psychic reading for the following week. I told the psychic what happened to me – what I experienced. They asked to see the picture of what I took, so I showed it to them. They said that they don’t see these types of beings around. They said that Dolores Cannon would call them backdrop people. They said one of the roles that they play has to do with programming and reprogramming humans and that it would scare the crap out of most people, that it’s very Illuminati-oriented.
They said that these beings come in and they don’t want to be seen so they wear these masks. That they want to go in to certain places and just wipe out collective memories, or they may just be going in for an individual person.
They went on to say that I am protected, that the ‘wipe out’ started to happened and that this started the energy of my memory because I saw him. They said that all you have to do is to look at him. They said that I stopped it from continuing.
They said that these beings are rare, but they are out there. They basically wipe out people’s memory patterns and belief systems for their own purpose.
I asked for clarification on how it happened. They said that because I looked at him while he was doing that – it started, but also because I took a picture, and he probably saw me, then he was going to try harder.
I then asked if the black tourmaline helped. They said that that was my tool, but that I needed that as a tool to protect myself and then my angelics surrounded me. I used that to shield myself to make it stop, and then everything reflected and bounced back to him.
I know I created that experience, so I asked them why I created that for myself, it was a lesson for me to trust myself and to leave some things alone.
WTF?
So that was what I learned. The thing is, I feel that my role in this spiritual awakening process is to help others along their journey. I know that there are others who focus on the ‘dark side’ of things and help bring that to light. I know that isn’t my role and I know enough about it to be aware, but I definitely do not focus or research anything in regards to that side.
But, I couldn’t help but think about a few things and of course, I now have questions that I don’t know the answer to.
The main thing that I think has traumatized me the most about this whole experience is the knowledge that:
Someone deliberately tried to hurt me, to manipulate me and caused me such harm that I could have been a different person and/or crashed my vehicle and died and/or killed other people
That it is even POSSIBLE to impact a person by just LOOKING at them
The ability to alter someone else’s memory and belief systems as a possibility at all – I’ve never even heard of that!!
I have tried processing this a little at a time. I have decided to not actively go learn or seek out any information about these types of people. The biggest challenge that I have found myself dealing with is just how little we are aware of our own potential as human beings – even if in this case, it was to harm another individual. Especially by just looking at them!!!
I have had my Kundalini activated through eye contact, so I know that it is powerful to look into someone’s eyes and have a profound energetic experience. However, there are 2 things – one, is that it was through direct eye contact and two, even though I don’t understand how Kundalini activation works – that ability is clearly talked about and shared. THIS – I have never even heard of!! I have heard of people being manipulated and/or brainwashed, but I never tried to learn about that stuff or focus on it. I have just heard about that.
So….what now? Well, I suspect at some point I will discuss this with a healer because I can tell this trauma is still with me. My body is actually very tensed up as I’m writing this. Maybe this is helping process some of these emotions? And honestly, I don’t know. I haven’t thought much more about it. I know that I needed to share this information, but that’s about it. I’ve only shared it with a handful of people that I’m close to, because most people, even myself, would not even know where to start with this.
I’d like to say I hope this helps someone, but I pray to God that this is a rare event and that these people are not commonly encountered at all. If you do happen to see someone that looks like this – please DO NOT look at them! I’m sharing the picture of them, because they need to be exposed. Dark exists, I’m not going to live in fear, I’m sharing my story to help others.
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Perspectives are like a**holes – everyone has one…..
Just a little humor here – as we all need this going through the spiritual awakening process. In this article I want to cover the concept of “perspectives” and one of the most helpful things that assisted me regarding this concept. When you start to awaken spiritually – you naturally begin to open up to a lot of new ideas and concepts that you had no clue about. As this happens, you seek out others who share the same outlook and beliefs that you do.
The basic concept that was most helpful to me, was a statement that Magenta Pixie said during one of her videos. She basically said – we create our own realities, so all perspectives are correct. This idea seems so simple, yet it was profound to me. That concept helped me SOOO much in my spiritual journey. When your world has been turned upside down and everything that you thought was true and “real” – turns out to not be true at all, and all you want to do is to talk to people about it, you get this frustration level built up because no one else in on the same page as you. It leads to some REAL frustration. All you want to do is to talk about your spiritual experiences, aliens and control systems but other people aren’t there yet, and so they don’t understand what you are talking about.
I always used to feel like, “I’m right, come on guys, this is the Truth” and I would get frustrated even talking to other people who didn’t share the same outlook. Once I heard this view by Magenta Pixie, it gave me such a sense of relief and allowed me to release all of that frustration I had felt.
It also allowed me to view things in a fundamentally different way – to allow other people to have their own experience without judgement.
This was a real paradigm shift that happened in my head. It was PROFOUND! This concept is based on the tenets of “law of attraction” – which is that we create our own reality. We create our reality through our thoughts, words, actions, and most importantly through our feelings. So just because someone doesn’t share the same outlook as you that’s perfectly okay!
The Law of Attraction is one explanation to address our experiences here on Earth, but another concept that we need to consider is of “Blue Prints” which I covered in this article. This ties in because we may also have a pre-planned experience to have here on Earth in addition to what we create through the Law of Attraction.
So let’s take a look at a few examples at how this plays out.
Scenario 1
Someone gets killed in a car accident
Person 1 – Perspective: Doesn’t believe in God, souls, or reincarnation.
They are extremely upset, thinking about that poor person’s situation, how their family feels. They almost ‘own’ that sadness, thinking that could have been them.
Person 2 – Perspective: Believes in God. Believes in Heaven and Hell
This person is sad, but they have faith and don’t understand the reason ‘why’ that happened, but they are okay, because they have their faith. Believes that was God’s will.
Person 3 – Perspective: Believes that we are co-creators as “God” and that we create our own reality (law of attraction). Believes that souls have Blue Prints to experiences they will have on Earth.
This person feels empathy, but believes that we don’t know why that soul chose that experience and so doesn’t engage in trying to understand why that happened. It isn’t their place to understand or know what that soul was trying to accomplish by having that experience.
Scenario 2
Someone gets an incurable illness:
Person 1 – Perspective: Doesn’t believe in God, souls, or reincarnation.
They don’t understand why this would happen to such a nice, kind person. They are extremely upset and feel that this person never did anything to deserve to suffer in this way.
Person 2 – Perspective: Believes in God. Believes in Heaven and Hell
Believe that they don’t know why this person got such a horrible illness, but it’s God’s will. God works in mysterious ways.
Person 3 – Perspective: Believes that we are co-creators as “God” and that we create our own reality (law of attraction). Believes that souls have Blue Prints or plans of certain experiences they will have on Earth.
This person’s perspective is very different than 1 and 2 above. They believe that the person created this illness through their thoughts words or actions in this lifetime. Or, they believe it was a “blue print” or plan for that soul to experience. The key in this last perspective, is that once a person is ‘awake’ and ‘aware’ that they are “God” – they can create whatever they want. So they have the power to change that blue print. They know that they are “Sovereign”. In some cases, it may be that soul had a desire to experience an incurable illness for a bigger purpose. And we may not know what it is, but the key is to always have compassion for whatever that experience may be.
All of these perspectives are okay. No perspective is wrong or right. Each person creates their own reality through their own THOUGHTS, WORDS, ACTIONS, and FEELINGS.
At then end of the day – to me – the question that we need to be asking ourselves – is does this perspective make me feel better or worse?
When you have a different perspective than another person, it’s important to be present, be open, and always respectful of that person’s perspective – even if they are not respectful of yours. What I try to do, is to listen, and if I feel that they might be open to a different perspective – I might offer mine. However, I will always try to say it in a manner that I feel they may be open to hear. It’s important to communicate to others in a way that is not accusatory, but rather, state it in a way where it’s not personal, but more general and more reflective.
One term that has resonated with me, is the concept of looking at things from a “multi-dimensional’ perspective. When we look at things through that lens – generally, we are looking at things from a higher perspective. In this 3D reality, that is one dimension. If we look at ourselves as souls and our higher selves, that would be another dimension – which could be the 5th dimension or higher. So that perspective would be considered ‘multi-dimensional.’
As you awaken spiritually, your perspective may change dramatically and it’s important to understand that as your views change, the people in your life may not get ‘your reality.’ And that’s okay. Just be patient and allow others to have their own experience.
I’ve had a lot of insights recently so I thought I’d share what I’ve learned. One of the things that I do when I am starting to feel ‘off’ is I take a look at some general things in my life to figure out what is going on. I think a part of growth is being able to look at yourself in order to become more self-aware. It takes time and effort – it doesn’t happen overnight, it’s a constantly evolving path and process.
For me – I was not sleeping well, I was getting 4 hours of sleep, then when I was sleeping I felt like I was half awake/half asleep but having these dreams where it felt so real. So when I would wake up – I would feel disoriented.
Additionally, for the past few weeks I’ve been feeling almost like this internal pressure building. I think I feel the energies coming in before they arrive. I intuitively felt that the upcoming full moon on October 13th was going to be a doozy, so I actively took 4 days to myself to process the energy.
[One video that captures these experiences we are going through is by Bassnectar and the song is called Reaching Out – which is about a person breaking free from the prison of their mind – it’s really a cool video to check out – be sure to read the video description]
To determine why I feel this way, I examine some of the areas in my life:
Stress
Lifestyle
Diet
Sleep
Hormones
Ascension
So when I feel off, I look at general things that are going on in my life.
Do I have a lot of stress?
Am I not taking care of myself?
Am I working too much?
Are my hormones out of whack?
Am I not sleeping well?
All of these different things are all tied in together in actuality. One can cause the other to go out of whack. The last question that I ask myself is:
Are the ascension energies making me feel off?
The last question above is one of the reasons why I tune into others on this spiritual journey to check in with them to see what they are experiencing.
I follow Aluna Ash on YouTube and she has been saying that these energies are just going to continue to build up and that they are going to be coming in waves one after the other through the rest of the year.
I had watched a video by Kelli Coffee and she said that if you are having a hard time right now it’s because you are resisting and that totally resonated with me. What is resistance? To me, in some form or fashion we are not allowing what it is that we want to experience, or create into our lives. First, we need to take a look at what it is that we want in our lives. Here are a few examples: joy, success, a great career, a great relationship, financial abundance.
Next, we need to ask ourselves:
Do I think I deserve it?
Deserving something at the core has to do with messages we may have received in our childhood. At some core level, we might have (unintentionally) absorbed the message that we are not worthy of whatever it is. These could be messages we picked up directly or indirectly from our childhood from our parents, relatives, teachers, friends, etc.
So how do we go about identifying if we deserve something? We can’t move forward unless we are able to crack the code. I’d recommend:
Counseling
Journaling
Hypnosis
I personally find the best way for me to go through what I’m feeling is to journal. I think back on my childhood and recall past memories and feelings. It’s a very good process to analyze and evaluate your internal realm. Not all of us can navigate this process though which is where a good counselor can help. I also believe that there are healers that can help you access these emotions, belief systems and help you work through them.
Next, we need to ask ourselves:
Do I believe it is possible?
Even if you consciously think something is possible, there could be underlying programs that are running behind the scenes sabotaging your ability to move forward. One thing to remember here also – is that we are always creating – either consciously or unconsciously, so maybe you do believe something is possible, but you keep on focusing on the opposite of what you want. And that is one of the issues that we face.
Like a hamster on a wheel, we keep running on our own bullshit story.
For me personally, as I journaled, one of the things that I realized that I was rejecting the present moment. That is a form of resistance. Instead of being fully present and engaged in the moment, I was rejecting it, resentful and wanting to be doing something else. This was a big aha for me.
When it comes to the Law of Attraction, one of the most profound pieces of information I came across was of the concept “thoughts are electric, feelings are magnetic.” Those few words really helped me understand how we can ‘think’ all that we want, but it is the FEELING state that is what attracts something into your life. Because it’s magnetic!
The other key point here is that you are fully engaged in the moment (not resisting), aware of what you want, and FEEL as if it already exists. That last part is where it can be tricky to hold the faith.
Along these lines, I just watched a video by Bob Proctor which I highly recommend:
As we go through the Ascension Process/Spiritual Awakening Process it’s important to do the necessary inner work. Journaling to me has been one of the most enlightening processes to help move me forward.
These energies can be difficult, but just remember to hang in there – we are all going through it together!
One of the terms that you will start to hear during your spiritual awakening is the term “Blueprint.” Before you incarnated onto Earth as a human, you had a blueprint – or map of different experiences you would have, lessons you wanted to learn, and people you would have various relationships with – from parents, siblings, partners, etc. From my perspective, I consider these those significant relationships or significant events that you would have in your life.
Before you awaken spiritually, your perspective could be that you got dealt a shitty hand – a dysfunctional family, a crappy husband/wife, but in actuality – you chose those relationships. And that is the cool thing about waking up – you start to take a step back from your situation and start to view things differently. As an observer, you can look at the dynamic and start to see the lesson to be learned. And that is where you become empowered – you are no longer a victim! And once you are awake and aware – you start to make different choices. Instead of just operating from a place of knee jerk reaction – you start to have compassion and start to choose your reaction from a place of love and understanding.
Before you came here – you met with your Spirit Guides and other souls and made agreements of these key experiences. In most cases, our family members and key personal relationships are with souls that we’ve had many previous lifetimes with – in different relationships. Maybe your daughter was your mother in another lifetime – and now it’s vice versa. Although it can be difficult to always understand and know the lesson that we came to learn, the main thing is to try and always operate from compassion.
Before we go any further, we need to understand that we come to Earth with the veil of amnesia. Most of us are not born psychic and we don’t know ahead of time what we will experience in life. And when we are undergoing any hardship in life – illness, losing our jobs, divorce, depression – even if we are spiritually awake, once we are in a situation – we are not going to be looking at things from a lofty perspective. We will be deep in the experience – which can be very painful. It may take years or we may actually never figure out what the ‘lesson’ we were trying to have during that experience. So the key here is to always be compassionate to ourselves and others during a hard time. That last thing you want to say is “So why did you create that experience for yourself?” Even if you are awake and aware that you created that experience, we need to be mindful that these lessons can be difficult.
So let’s take an extreme example of the lesson of forgiveness. One perspective that I’ve heard about for instance is when someone is murdered. The people involved had a preplanned agreement to experience that interaction for the people involved to learn and experience forgiveness. I know that might sound like a radical example and I by no means wish to diminish anyone’s feelings. My intention is always to share a perspective with compassion.
So other experiences that we may have may help us have a better understanding of:
Courage/strength
Unconditional love
Trust
Self-worth
When it comes to relationships, my perspective is that we choose our family – our parents, siblings, children.
A lot of starseeds incarnated into certain ancestral lines to heal and clear those lines. So many of us find ourselves in dysfunctional families.
And there are certain key connections that you will make with people as well. So for me, when I met my Twin Flame – that was because we had a pre-planned agreement to meet at a certain time for him to trigger my Spiritual Awakening. And from my perspective, I had this weird jittery feeling inside when I met him because it was my soul recognizing his soul, however, I didn’t understand the meaning of that until much later.
So that’s one example of a pre-planned interaction of significance. Because once I was triggered to awaken spiritually – that changed the course of my life.
So what do we do with this information? Form my perspective, it helps me to stand back and look at things differently. What was my soul trying to learn? And as I mentioned earlier – we might not ever figure that out – but it allows me to try and look at things from a different angle rather than falling into victimhood.
