I’ve had a lot of insights recently so I thought I’d share what I’ve learned. One of the things that I do when I am starting to feel ‘off’ is I take a look at some general things in my life to figure out what is going on. I think a part of growth is being able to look at yourself in order to become more self-aware. It takes time and effort – it doesn’t happen overnight, it’s a constantly evolving path and process.
For me – I was not sleeping well, I was getting 4 hours of sleep, then when I was sleeping I felt like I was half awake/half asleep but having these dreams where it felt so real. So when I would wake up – I would feel disoriented.
Additionally, for the past few weeks I’ve been feeling almost like this internal pressure building. I think I feel the energies coming in before they arrive. I intuitively felt that the upcoming full moon on October 13th was going to be a doozy, so I actively took 4 days to myself to process the energy.
[One video that captures these experiences we are going through is by Bassnectar and the song is called Reaching Out – which is about a person breaking free from the prison of their mind – it’s really a cool video to check out – be sure to read the video description]
To determine why I feel this way, I examine some of the areas in my life:
So when I feel off, I look at general things that are going on in my life.
- Do I have a lot of stress?
- Am I not taking care of myself?
- Am I working too much?
- Are my hormones out of whack?
- Am I not sleeping well?
All of these different things are all tied in together in actuality. One can cause the other to go out of whack. The last question that I ask myself is:
- Are the ascension energies making me feel off?
The last question above is one of the reasons why I tune into others on this spiritual journey to check in with them to see what they are experiencing.
I follow Aluna Ash on YouTube and she has been saying that these energies are just going to continue to build up and that they are going to be coming in waves one after the other through the rest of the year.
I had watched a video by Kelli Coffee and she said that if you are having a hard time right now it’s because you are resisting and that totally resonated with me. What is resistance? To me, in some form or fashion we are not allowing what it is that we want to experience, or create into our lives. First, we need to take a look at what it is that we want in our lives. Here are a few examples: joy, success, a great career, a great relationship, financial abundance.
Next, we need to ask ourselves:
- Do I think I deserve it?
Deserving something at the core has to do with messages we may have received in our childhood. At some core level, we might have (unintentionally) absorbed the message that we are not worthy of whatever it is. These could be messages we picked up directly or indirectly from our childhood from our parents, relatives, teachers, friends, etc.
So how do we go about identifying if we deserve something? We can’t move forward unless we are able to crack the code. I’d recommend:
I personally find the best way for me to go through what I’m feeling is to journal. I think back on my childhood and recall past memories and feelings. It’s a very good process to analyze and evaluate your internal realm. Not all of us can navigate this process though which is where a good counselor can help. I also believe that there are healers that can help you access these emotions, belief systems and help you work through them.
Next, we need to ask ourselves:
- Do I believe it is possible?
Even if you consciously think something is possible, there could be underlying programs that are running behind the scenes sabotaging your ability to move forward. One thing to remember here also – is that we are always creating – either consciously or unconsciously, so maybe you do believe something is possible, but you keep on focusing on the opposite of what you want. And that is one of the issues that we face.
Like a hamster on a wheel, we keep running on our own bullshit story.
For me personally, as I journaled, one of the things that I realized that I was rejecting the present moment. That is a form of resistance. Instead of being fully present and engaged in the moment, I was rejecting it, resentful and wanting to be doing something else. This was a big aha for me.
When it comes to the Law of Attraction, one of the most profound pieces of information I came across was of the concept “thoughts are electric, feelings are magnetic.” Those few words really helped me understand how we can ‘think’ all that we want, but it is the FEELING state that is what attracts something into your life. Because it’s magnetic!
The other key point here is that you are fully engaged in the moment (not resisting), aware of what you want, and FEEL as if it already exists. That last part is where it can be tricky to hold the faith.
Along these lines, I just watched a video by Bob Proctor which I highly recommend:
As we go through the Ascension Process/Spiritual Awakening Process it’s important to do the necessary inner work. Journaling to me has been one of the most enlightening processes to help move me forward.
These energies can be difficult, but just remember to hang in there – we are all going through it together!
Here’s my video on this topic:
In love, light and gratitude,