I don’t even know where to start on this. It’s been awhile since I’ve posted and partly it’s because of something I experienced a few weeks ago, and have not felt ready to talk about it. I have not completely processed it, and have put it ‘in a box’ for now. I take it out and process it a little at a time, but I probably still need to go see a healer about it at some point because I know the emotions are still trapped in my energy body.
A few weeks ago I had one of the most terrifying experiences of my life.
I was driving down the street and I saw this guy that made me laugh. He was very fit and wearing work out clothes, but he was wearing a mask on his face. So I decided to take a picture. After I took the pic, I felt like I had just looked at a building that was reflecting the sun – where you accidentally get kind of temporarily blinded.
Where you have this one area in your eye were you can’t see. But I was like ‘it will go away’, I honestly didn’t remember looking at a blinding reflection, but as I was driving, it continued to get worse and I kept on thinking it would go away eventually. It started changing to where it like this jagged edge on my vision.
And I actually couldn’t see very clearly at all on the right hand side of my vision. Because it was impacting my ability to see so bad while I was trying to drive and because I was freaking out, I ended up having a panic attack. I don’t even know how to describe what that feels like. Utter terror, everything becomes overwhelming physically I felt hot, I didn’t know what to do, trying to change lanes, I could barely see out of the right hand field of my vision.
I was afraid if I pulled off of the highway, I wouldn’t be able to make myself drive again.
I rolled down my window a little bit to try and get grounded. I grabbed my black tourmaline crystal out of my purse and put it on my lap. I called out to Archangel Micheal to help me. It was absolutely terrifying. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. After awhile, my vision came back to normal and my panic attack subsided and then I just started crying. My body felt completely tensed up – I could feel all of the tension and stress I had just experienced.
I went home and I was never so grateful to be at home, be safe and connected to the Earth. I hadn’t been drinking very much, but I poured myself a glass of wine and just sat on the edge of my deck with my feet on the ground and hugged my dog, Shiner.
I was so relieved and yet traumatized over what I had just experienced.
My first thoughts were I have a serious medical issue, I immediately thought it must have been caused by one of the new supplements I had been taking – Vitamin B12, reishi, chaga or schizandra? I did this to myself I thought. I didn’t do the due diligence or maybe this was some horrible disease, or brain tumor and I immediately thought I needed to schedule an eye exam. I was scared for my health. Eventually I went back inside to relax.
It wasn’t until a few days later that I thought wait…maybe this was from that guy I took a photo of? It happened immediately after I took the photo.
But what was that? Did he do something to me?
I decided to schedule a reading with a psychic that I have worked with before.
What she told me left me even more traumatized.
What I learned from the psychic
I scheduled the psychic reading for the following week. I told the psychic what happened to me – what I experienced. They asked to see the picture of what I took, so I showed it to them. They said that they don’t see these types of beings around. They said that Dolores Cannon would call them backdrop people. They said one of the roles that they play has to do with programming and reprogramming humans and that it would scare the crap out of most people, that it’s very Illuminati-oriented.
They said that these beings come in and they don’t want to be seen so they wear these masks. That they want to go in to certain places and just wipe out collective memories, or they may just be going in for an individual person.
They went on to say that I am protected, that the ‘wipe out’ started to happened and that this started the energy of my memory because I saw him. They said that all you have to do is to look at him. They said that I stopped it from continuing.
They said that these beings are rare, but they are out there. They basically wipe out people’s memory patterns and belief systems for their own purpose.
I asked for clarification on how it happened. They said that because I looked at him while he was doing that – it started, but also because I took a picture, and he probably saw me, then he was going to try harder.
I then asked if the black tourmaline helped. They said that that was my tool, but that I needed that as a tool to protect myself and then my angelics surrounded me. I used that to shield myself to make it stop, and then everything reflected and bounced back to him.
I know I created that experience, so I asked them why I created that for myself, it was a lesson for me to trust myself and to leave some things alone.
So that was what I learned. The thing is, I feel that my role in this spiritual awakening process is to help others along their journey. I know that there are others who focus on the ‘dark side’ of things and help bring that to light. I know that isn’t my role and I know enough about it to be aware, but I definitely do not focus or research anything in regards to that side.
But, I couldn’t help but think about a few things and of course, I now have questions that I don’t know the answer to.
The main thing that I think has traumatized me the most about this whole experience is the knowledge that:
- Someone deliberately tried to hurt me, to manipulate me and caused me such harm that I could have been a different person and/or crashed my vehicle and died and/or killed other people
- That it is even POSSIBLE to impact a person by just LOOKING at them
- The ability to alter someone else’s memory and belief systems as a possibility at all – I’ve never even heard of that!!
I have tried processing this a little at a time. I have decided to not actively go learn or seek out any information about these types of people. The biggest challenge that I have found myself dealing with is just how little we are aware of our own potential as human beings – even if in this case, it was to harm another individual. Especially by just looking at them!!!
I have had my Kundalini activated through eye contact, so I know that it is powerful to look into someone’s eyes and have a profound energetic experience. However, there are 2 things – one, is that it was through direct eye contact and two, even though I don’t understand how Kundalini activation works – that ability is clearly talked about and shared. THIS – I have never even heard of!! I have heard of people being manipulated and/or brainwashed, but I never tried to learn about that stuff or focus on it. I have just heard about that.
So….what now? Well, I suspect at some point I will discuss this with a healer because I can tell this trauma is still with me. My body is actually very tensed up as I’m writing this. Maybe this is helping process some of these emotions? And honestly, I don’t know. I haven’t thought much more about it. I know that I needed to share this information, but that’s about it. I’ve only shared it with a handful of people that I’m close to, because most people, even myself, would not even know where to start with this.
I’d like to say I hope this helps someone, but I pray to God that this is a rare event and that these people are not commonly encountered at all. If you do happen to see someone that looks like this – please DO NOT look at them! I’m sharing the picture of them, because they need to be exposed. Dark exists, I’m not going to live in fear, I’m sharing my story to help others.
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